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And he starts running and firing at this giant. With a giant move, he's got a spear in one hand, and he's running really fast. And spears, Dan, and pulls him up like this. Somebody else, shoot him in the face, shoot him in the face. They basically decapitate him. Got closer, got closer, got closer. When he got about 15 yards away from me, I raised that 12-gauge, and I blowed his head off. I feel something pulling at my leg. And I look over and there are two small gray entities pulling it. And they're literally, I'm getting pulled off the bed. I reach my hand into this bush and I touch air. Couldn't breathe. And I couldn't move. Because I know I'm seeing a monster. Yeah! Welcome to the show, everybody. You're listening to The Confessionals Podcast. I'm your host, Tony Merkel. Thanks for being here. If you have something you want to contribute to the show, go ahead and shoot me an email. My email address is contactattheconfessionalspodcast.com. That's contactattheconfessionalspodcast.com. Or go to the website, theconfessionalspodcast.com. Hit the contact section and you can reach me that way as well. Otherwise, for me, just get a hold of me. Welcome to another members episode. We have another Epstein victim on today. On Tuesday, we had Hope Burrell Green, and today we have Audra. And Audra comes on the show. She tells her testimony, and it is a pretty emotional one, to be honest with you. Knowing that she came from a great family, and there was no reason to think that something like this could ever happened to her and how she got involved with this. It should be eye-opening for a lot of people, but Audra moves from middle America to Hollywood and winds up getting caught up in the Playboy mansion. She was a Playboy bunny back in the early 2000s. And then when she left the mansion, she got tied up in the Epstein blackmail network. And she talks about how that happened for her. This was a very eye-opening conversation, and I hope it's equally eye-opening for you as well. So let's get to Audra right now. All right. Today we have Audra on the show. How are you? Good. How are you, Tony? I'm doing good. I'm glad you and I are connecting. And we just got done talking a little bit before we started. And I can understand this because I've talked to several people who have been through similar things as you. And there's a sense of nervousness with just speaking about it. And I think that comes from many different places, I'd imagine. Just to lay the foundation for the audience, you're a survivor of Jeffrey Epstein's network. And that in itself, just me saying that out loud gives me like 10 different avenues of why somebody could be nervous. Growing up in a Christian home, great parents, maybe a spiritually dull church where they're just not really passionate about their relationship with Christ, that kind of foundation pushing you in a direction where maybe you weren't as tight on your faith going into your adult years. What brought you back into the faith? yeah so um i always felt that there was something more to uh christianity than what the church was teaching and so i um i kind of fell away a little bit and i was asking a lot of questions in la and you know really trying to find myself and where i fit and like do i believe what my parents have just handed down to me you know generationally like oh we're christians this is what you believe So I did a really deep dive into all the different religions. I dig deep into ancient history and ancient texts. And it wasn't until I moved back from the Epstein thing and I ended up back in Minnesota area that I ran across a couple of people that were in a trafficking situation And I didn realize that it goes on everywhere I was very naive And I thought that these were just wealthy elites that were never told no, and that they just got depraved and like did horrible things because they could. And I didn't realize that it goes on in almost every single neighborhood that we have. and so once I found that out and I started interviewing these people on like what was happening to them that's when I started learning about ritual abuse and so my passion is to help ritually abused survivors and mind control and organized abuse and kind of rewrite the script of what they've been told and what they've been programmed and then bring them back to the truth with the Bible and walking with, I say, Yeshua. So, yeah. That is, yeah, I can see how that all kind of unfolds. I mean, going from trafficking is happening in a reality in my personal life to, oh, this is happening to a lot of people, talking to those people, finding out the deeper spiritual things they're going through with that and, uh, and that leading you back. That's, that's actually, uh, beautiful and, uh, very logically like you can see the dominoes fall in that situation. And, and it's, it's cool because, um, you, there, there are people who, um, maybe going through what you've been through and stuff might use that as, and I don't mean this in a bad way, I just don't have the best way to say it, but that situation would be in their mind the reason to not return to their faith. But when you start seeing the ritual abuse, the mind control, when you start seeing that darker stuff, um, it, in my mind, it does lead to, okay, well, if that's happening, uh, I need to run the opposite direction, um, into the arms of my savior. And so, uh, that's encouraging to hear. So, um, with your Bible came alive to me when I started listening to these ritual abuse survivors and all of the things that they were going through and you see the deception and then you can go to the Bible and you can read about it and you can see it's an inversion and, you know, seeing them go through deliverance and different things like that, like 100%, like I am on fire for God now because I understand exactly what's, um, taking place here. I can see on a spiritual level now, um, that I couldn't before, like there was no Holy Spirit running through our church when I grew up. It just was non-existent. I didn't get the Holy Spirit until I was born again, which was in 2020. And I started to hear like from God and I started to have the Holy Spirit and I started getting reconfirmation. I talk with Dr. Laura Sanger every now and again. Oh, you know that? Yeah, she's awesome. I love her. She's so amazing. And it's so, her brain works like my brain works and I love it. And she, I'll, I'll message her and, you know, we compare notes every now and again. I'm like, oh, that gave me confirmation, you know? And, and she said the same on things that I've brought up. So she's a really great, great woman. Yeah. Yeah. I love her. I love her so much. Um, she, uh, she's helped me a ton, a ton. And I, and I, and for me, it's like not even remotely in the same category as what you've been through, but like just the, the spiritual, uh, growth and understanding of the complexities of the supernatural realm and how to handle it. She is, she's on point and I, and I, uh, totally respect her. Um, so going to the days of, okay, so, you know, was it Epstein that came out in a robe or was it somebody else? The initial, it was Epstein himself. Okay. Um, was that like a, okay, we got blackmail on you kind of thing. So now you're going to do what we say and you're not going to talk to Epstein anymore. And you're going to answer these people now, or was he very intricate in your, in your, no, um, I only dealt with him a couple times on the phone after that, when him and Maxwell would get into like an argument or something would happen between the two of them, uh, then it would move to him. But like the files that we have, like, that's not showing all the details of what we need to know like she has all that you know he was still i believe so yeah i mean i'm sure she's getting rid of it but like that's why we're not seeing um the level of what we should be seeing um you know it's heartbreaking that i saw um one of my files in the documents and that i i thought maybe when i went to the fbi that it got lost and you know, didn't make it to somebody's desk and it did, and it's in there. And at that time, what I don't think people understand about being a survivor too, is that when you're a survivor of that type of network, you're stalked, you're harassed, you're, we've had our windshield out of our yacht shot out in the Gulf Like we have gone through hell as a family you know And I reached out to the FBI again after he had passed and and we were still getting harassed and it had gotten to a really heightened level And to know that they knew that and I gave them police records and and all of that information and only about three sentences ended up in the FBI file. And it's really heartbreaking because like our lives were at stake at that point and nobody was going to do anything to help us. Wow. And you wonder at that point, what options are left? And I want to say it like this, and this is Tony speaking, not you speaking. Let me just preface that. What options legally are left? because on my side of things, as a father, as a husband, if they're, I can't go there with my daughter, with my wife. If something terrible happened to my wife and I'm going to the authorities and I'm trying to do the right thing because everything inside of me wants to take care of myself, but I'm doing the right thing and I'm going to the police and to find out that they don't care, they don't listen, or there's somebody on the inside censoring it, it's just not connecting the dots. At what point do you then say, you know what, we're going to take care of this ourselves. And I understand that's not what you're saying, but for me, and this is, listen, I'm going to be 100% honest with you. This is the side of me that I can feel getting activated and I'm going to push it down, but there is a part of me that when I start just imagining walking through shoes that you've been through or your father, there's a part of me that wants to put every aspect of my checkpoints of who I am as a Christian, as a follower of Christ, as a father, as a husband, put those aside and then like take on this like cinematic Hollywood, John Wick kind of character attitude and just be like, we're just going to do this, you know? And here's the thing, at the end of the day, like you can't because most likely you end up dead before you even pull the trigger on anything. But like it's, there's that, I don't know how to describe it. And so to hear you say that what you saw in the files was just a fraction of what was reported, what is your sense on that? Do you think that there was messaging that got lost? I doubt it. Do you think that there was somebody on the inside censoring it? Or do you think they just didn't care? How do you read that situation? I think that it's a system we're in the Babylonian system and that there isn't justice for the victims and it is to protect the perpetrators and he was so big and into the network he was such a key you know he was a middleman but he was a key player you know and so he was too valuable and with the intelligence ties and everything else I mean like look at what the CIA does to survivors to children. I mean, um, with my dad, you know, it's like, I didn't tell my dad until I did the Roseanne, um, bar podcast. Really? Okay. Yeah. I had told my mom a couple of years ago. Um, I actually had not told anybody until 2019 with my husband was the first person that I told before we got married because I felt that I, I had to. And, um, I always felt like nobody would love me. Nobody would stick by me. And, um, it was the most terrifying day to tell somebody that you absolutely love that you want to spend the rest of your life with something so vulnerable about yourself and what you've been through. And he just loved me even more. And that was so huge to me. And not that my dad would not, because my dad loves me no matter what. But my dad has that same, like he'll take care of himself, you know? And like, I know the heartache and the pain. And like, I didn't want him to go through that because I'm okay. And, you know, with everything that I've gone through, I look at it as like, I made lots of huge mistakes. I opened lots of doors that I have now learned to always keep shut. Um, but I am resilient. I made it through, I made it through mentally strong. Um, and now I can help survivors and I have a heart for them to be able to help guide them through to the other side to where they can find happiness and joy and love and faith and be strong in who they are and, you know, not let the system break you because, you know, the devil comes to see kill and destroy. And that's what the system is, is built on. And so, you know, there's tons of children out there that are being ritually abused that no matter what you do, you can't get them out. It's like you get them to a certain point and you think that like, oh, we've got it now. And then somebody steps in as a gatekeeper and blocks everything. Like you, I don't know any children that are really truly making it out of the system and the ones that you find that they're you know we found 200 kids here you know rescuing and stuff like that i feel that those are only operations that are um not following the guidelines and so they're their scapegoats and so it can look like they're doing things about it but it the trappers that are getting reprimanded and then they save a few kids here and there But I mean we got 480 children missing a year That's staggering. Isn't that just in our country as well? Yeah, just in our country. Yeah. Which it's insanely staggering. I mean, the logical brain says, how can that even be possible? How can so many kids be missing and nobody know anything about it? But that speaks to the depths of the network that you were talking about. Down to what you were saying earlier about the windshield being shot out and stuff. I mean, it's not like, one, we know it's not like Epstein was walking down doing that himself or anybody of that status. But there's layers to this. and um i i've been i've been exposed to people uh in other um i don't know how to say it i'm trying to be careful with my words because i don't want to come across a certain way or even in a disrespectful way um but i've been exposed to people in other conspiracies that i know are true Yes. And I've been able to verify a lot of it. And through those things that I have never published, and I don't know if I ever will because quite honestly, terrified to do so, I've learned that there are so many layers of this that even the person who goes to shoot out the windshield or carry out a certain act, they don't know who the person, the people, the organization, the group is that's actually giving the order. do you feel like that's the same way with that network absolutely absolutely um you know they've got a head person that gets the orders and that goes to four people and then from those four people it it branches out like a spider web and it keeps going and going and going down you know to the local lodge yeah and like i mean it literally could be some some just local buffoon idiot that everybody knows is a moron that winds up doing the work. But, and he, and if you got him alone in a room, you'd be like, who told you to do this? He's like, I don't know. This guy told me he'd give me 20 bucks. You know, it's like, it's that kind of thing. And it's, it's just, it's wild. Like I've seen court documents of attempted assassination, assassination attempts on people. And what was said in the court documents was like basically an open-ended, I was told to do this, but I don't know who it was. And it's just like, it's crazy stuff. So you mentioned about the Babylonian system here in America. If you want, I would like to have you kind of go into that a little bit. And what are some of the things that you're seeing that's leading you to this idea? And do you feel like there is, because I do, I'll just put it out there. If you don't agree, this, fine. But I feel like we're entering a point in time where everything's starting to come to a head. And I don't have high hopes for us as a human race to one day have all the Epstein files released and we know everything. I don't have high hopes for that. When I say come to a head, evil is exposing itself and righteousness is exposing itself. And there is a cosmic war that has always been happening, but is gearing up to really spin it into high gear. And if anybody has a hard time reading between the lines, I think that we're not far from the return of our Lord and Savior. So that's how I personally feel. But you know what? A hundred years ago, people felt the same way. So I could be wrong, but I'm, I'm okay being wrong because I'm still looking to the heavens and eagerly awaiting his return. And that is what I'm instructed to do as a follower of Christ. So, um, how, how do you feel about this Babylonian system and where it's taken us? Well, I mean, if Richard's the whole entire structure of the beast system is what he was working on and it's being implemented like right now. Like we, it's go time. Like we don't have much time. You, you cut out there for a second. Who's working on the system? Who would you say? Epstein was putting the whole entire control grid, the whole entire, everything together with Palantir with, you know, um, uh, with Elon Musk, you know, Elon Musk has the satellites that are up above um and you know how like all the different wars are happening and he that comes in and he saves the day and he gets his satellite there those satellites are the same um pattern as what our ley lines are on earth so i believe that they're going to try to re-energize those ley lines and all of those ancient ritual sites are going to become active and that's what stargate we funded Stargate is about, and I believe that we're about to see some very interesting things. This was a preview of today's member episode. If you want to hear the whole thing, head on over to theconfessionalspodcast.com, hit the join button and become a member today. Starting a business can be overwhelming. You're juggling multiple roles, designer, marketer, logistics manager, all while bringing your vision to life. 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