Kesha: Serve C*nt & Prevail

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You have put out truly some of the most popular songs of all time, and you have been in the public eye for almost two decades. You have had some incredibly high highs, some really low lows, and I feel like through it all, you have just been and continue to become such an inspiration for women everywhere, and I'm a fan, so like, so happy to be with you today, seriously. Really happy to be here, too. Is this true? I heard you're doing samurai training. Oh, yeah, I just did a samurai training, yes. How does one get into samurai training? Well, that is a long story, but let's just say there's a place called Samurai Island, and you can go and really learn the wisdom of the samurai. I believe this gentleman is 64th generation samurai, and a huge thing I got out of taking the samurai class was you're not supposed to think with your head, you're not even supposed to think with your heart, you're actually supposed to think literally and listen to your body and your gut. The samurai training comes as one of the many things I do for healing, and my healing journey has been mythological, but it's also been so fun. Like, it led me to samurai training. That makes so much sense, because I was like, samurai training, like, how did we get there? But that's actually crazy to even hear you explain that, because I feel like as women, we can be so disconnected from our body, understandably. So to have you doing something that is forcing you to be in your body, leading with your body, and what's the end goal of the samurai training? Well, my end goal is I actually ended up making out with the samurai's assistant. No. But that's what didn't mean to be my end goal. You're like, I want to kill all the enemies with my samurai sword. You're like, oh, just get a good make out. No, it was just the goal in all of it, I think, is to live a joyful life in my body, in my power, presently, with gratitude, in authenticity. That's the goal of everything I do these days, as you should. Before the samurai training, before being a musician, you were focused on school, and you planned to study religion at Barnard, which is a top tier school in the United States. What do you think you would be doing right now, had you kept going with that direction? Well, it's so interesting, because I actually have been considering going back to divinity school. You're so fucking interesting. I'm like, but I have been flirting with the idea of going to divinity school, because I'm so fascinated with the structures of humanity, and what makes people do the things that they do, and what do people believe in, and how to live a beautiful life in the light. I was so fascinated with that. I used to have my mom drive me from church to church, and she's like, whose child are you? And I just wanted to find community. I love community. I love creating community. I think community is really important. Of course. Do you have any daily rituals or practices that you engage in every day? Yes, I do. I wake up, and the first thing I do is listen to a gratitude meditation by Dr. Joe Dispenza. I recommend. Then I go outside, and I try to be naked in the sun for 20 minutes. Do you have a private backyard, or what's up? I don't know. Do I? You're like, wherever I can get the sun? Well, that actually being comfortable in my nudity is kind of an act of resistance, too, because after being a pop star from 2009 to current present day, I have almost just started waging a war against my own body due to things I read about myself. And I just internalize all these external voices. So to then be in my body enough to just be like, fuck it. I'm going to be naked in my backyard, and I'm going to call my tour the Tits Out Tour. That is also an act of resistance. Like, I don't hate my body anymore. I actually love my body. And I went to Italy, and I ate a lot of pasta, and I love it. Like, it's so cunt-y to just be in your body and love it. And it's so hard. It's so hard, and the world does not want you to do that. Isn't it so fucked up, though, that I feel like sometimes it takes us having such horrible shit happen to you as a woman where you're pushed to the point of seeing that you can't win no matter what. You have been literally dragged through the mud in every direction, and then you're like, at some point, I think I got to just decide. I'm not going to have it. But it's so horrible that it takes us to the end of the earth, essentially, to be like, now I can stand outside in the sun and fucking naked and be like, alleluia. I fucking love my life. And I don't care if somebody can see. Who gives a shit? Who gives a shit? That's something I wish somebody told me. Nobody cares. Nobody cares? Like, they might care for a headline, but nobody actually cares. We all think everyone is so consumed with what we're doing. They're not. They don't care. I mean, I have been through so many things, and I was walking around like, oh my god, everyone knows that you can probably Google a picture of my butt hole. Probably. Like, so many of the things in my life are on the internet that should not be on the internet. Don't know how it got there. Don't like that it's there, but you could probably do it. So I'm walking around being like, so much like embarrassment. Then I kind of realized like, nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Our sponsor today is Brothers Cider. I think we all can agree at this point that the best memories are made in person and not on screens. There's nothing better than when one text turns into a group chat, which then turns into like, OK, everyone, time to come over. And suddenly, it's a whole thing, and you're having the time of your life. No overplanning, just everyone showing up as they are. And that's exactly the vibe that brothers bring. 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So I have met some of the people that might be my birth father, and she was like, who do you look more like? And I was like, mom? No, stop. Stop it. But so, yeah, that's how. And can you explain your mother wanting a Pisces? What are some characteristics? Well, the Pisces, supposedly, it's like the last in the cycle of the astrological signs. OK. So like, we're the last. I've been told I'm in my last lifetime, multiple times. We're very emotional. We're very in touch with, like, all things spiritual. We're like one foot in the ether vibes. So you believe in past lives. Oh, yeah. I have a song called Past Lives. What do you think you were doing back then? I think I was burned at the stake. I definitely was a man. And I, like, have... This is like a delusion that's helped me in a lot of ways, but I like to think that I am the reincarnation of Athena. So... As you should. You know what? Whatever works. You're like, you also can just decide what your past lives were. Whatever you think is, like, the cuntiest thing, go for it. That is who you fucking were in your past life, bitch. OK, so you weren't necessarily raised by any male figures in your life. What did your mom teach you by being kind of this, like, single-mother role about independence? I mean, it taught me so much. I'm so grateful I saw a woman that just did it all. Like, she wrote iconic songs. She wrote songs for Dolly Parton and Johnny Cash, and, like, she's so cool. And she raised three kids all on her own. And she also was, like, really instrumental in, like, the positive, the power of looking at your life positively and deciding who you want to be and what you're going to do. She really always was, like, don't say, like, oh, maybe I'll be a pop star. She said, like, I'm going to be a pop star. Like, this, it's, like, a little delusional, but it also worked to really believe in yourself. Was she at all hesitant about you getting into this crazy industry? Um, I think she, she always warned me that it was hard. Yeah. But I, like, literally was yodeling by the age of three in the backyard. Like, she'd be like, you're so loud. Go yodel in the backyard. And so I'd be, like, wandering around the backyard yodeling. She's like, what is she going to do? Like, I knew what I was supposed to do. I came out of the womb yodeling. Like, that's, do you still yodel? I mean, like, in TikTok, the, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, is like my weird spooky monster mash voice version of a yodel kind of. So. So you brought it into your adult life, into your music, just like in a little bit of a different way than when you were three. Listen, I don't know. Whatever that is, I did that. We're not mad about it. OK, you blew up when you released the song TikTok back in 2009. I need you to know, I don't know what it was. It was some type of thing that you could submit a music video to. And then you could try to win. I made one. Are we going to watch it? No, no, no, no, no. I'm like, roll the clip. But I made my dad take my best friend, Kristen, and I to New York City. And we made a full TikTok music video. I actually think it was kind of good. Well, I think we have to see it. I didn't win. I mean, I'll pull it up for you. Yeah, I'm going to send it to you because it's not embarrassing because I know the type of person you are. You'd be like, Sly Queen, yes, like, get it, bitch, brace face, love it. But I was a huge, like I was in it. Like I was there. I was loving it. And I just remember that era so clearly. So I want to go through a couple walk down memory lanes with you. There's some pictures next to your chair. Reach down and pull them up. OK, I want you to just tell me what you feel by looking at these pictures. And what do you remember? I'm like so happy about it. I'm really happy about this. I like, yes, you know what? Fuck yeah. Like I was having fun and I like did not give one single fuck what anybody thought. That was Jingle Ball 2009. I also think your makeup and just the hair and everything, the outfits were so iconic. How did you come up with the glitter and the mascara? Oh, my gosh. OK, to be honest with you, I grew up like seeing my mom be this single parent and loving like punk music and rock and roll like Bowie and Iggy Pop and the Stones and Alice Cooper. So this is like inspired by Alice Cooper and Bowie. And I just always remember thinking like if a boy can do it, why can't I do it? And one of the first albums I listened to a lot was licensed to ill, Beastie Boys, those produced by Rick Rubin, who I later got to work with. And like I just remember really being attracted to people that were like OK, being like a silly fucking crazy goose. And I was like, I want to be a silly crazy goose. I don't want to be like like I'd go to school and everyone like straighten their hair and I'd be like, I don't want to. I want to do it purple. And like, I don't know if that maybe psychologically is because there was like no man in the house. But like I was just I wanted to like. Be a silly fucking crazy goose. Do your thing. Yeah. Did you keep any of that style still? Like is anything in your closet that resembles that era? I mean, there's like I walked in here with heels and I was like, nah. Throw my fucking converse. I'm done with this shit. OK, next one. Oh, my God. That was my first Grammys. And Justin Bieber. That was like the that we came out basically in the same 12 month cycle. And I yeah, I remember like we would always be at the same jingle balls. I was in like a radio show in Europe somewhere and we would always see each other. And he was just like. The heartthrob of all heartthrobs. Yeah. And but I did remember being like so insecure, walking in this dress and heels. I felt like I looked like like a baby giraffe that was just born. Like not in a cute way. No, like in a way where I was going to topple over on the Grammy stage. You look amazing. Thank you. I actually do look amazing. I just remember being so terrified. Like a lot of when you're like launched into pop star, then it's like so fun, but at least for me, it was terrifying. I don't know if other girls have this experience. What were you scared about? I was just like it was just so intense. Like it was so intense. I came from like very, very humble beginnings and very young in life. And then Nashville and then like launched into this and it was just like it was intense. It was like you're being seen in such an intense way that it's it was just kind of intense. Yeah, it's like going from that to then 2010. You're standing, you're presenting an award at the Grammys with the biggest star in the world. In the world. You're like, hello. And I'm walking in heels, which spoiler alert, I don't fuck with heels. OK, I do it if I'm on a red carpet. So my leg looks nice from the side. That's the only time I do it. I'm usually barefoot and naked. OK, and so then you have to like walk out on stage and these giant heels. And those stages are hard to walk on. And everyone's like, we're going to give your shoes a seven out of 10. I'm like, why and I can't walk and like, it's just stressful. Oh my God. No, you and baby Bebes there. It's really cute. OK, next. I'm so proud of him, by the way. I saw I wasn't at Coachella, but I'm so proud of what he just did. Me too. I just have to say that it was incredible. Yeah, I haven't seen him in forever, but like very proud. Incredible. Amazing work. Amazing. Fun. Fun. High recommend. This is the show that I just put on last year. It was my first tour as a free woman. It's the biggest tour I've ever done, period. And I'm independent, period. Congratulations. Thank you. And it was like that felt so fucking good. Not that you're like even turning around to be like looking at your past, being like, fuck you all, look what I'm able to do. But there must have been some feeling of just like, oh my God, I'm so happy that I've proven to myself and to the world. Like I'm still here. I still fucking got it. Well, it was like after almost 10 years in a litigation. And you just it's, you know, I was like, maybe, maybe that's that's what it was. Maybe like this part of my life, like that was awesome. And like, but maybe that's part of the past. And like, I'm so grateful if I got to live that. Like, who gets to say that? And then to go on this tour, it's going to make me emotional, for real. No, it's stopped. Absolutely not. You're good. Our makeup. No, it's okay. You can cry, but like the makeup, you know, to be able to like go on stage and see like, tens of thousands of people that quite frankly, like, have seen some major ups and major downs. I still want to show up and, you know, just as like a person to like feel still worthy and lovable. And it like really did something for me this tour. I feel like I probably got way more emotionally out of this tour than anybody else. Like I can walk through the world. I walk through the world in a different way because of all the people that showed up for me. And I hope that I also like was in service of them. That was my intention. But I think accidentally everybody that showed up for this tour did like this incredible act of healing for me. Well, even and I know we don't need to get into the details today, but like even when you say like nine years, nine years of your life, almost a decade of your life, you are locked into a legal battle where you are fighting for the right for your voice. Yeah. And then to get out of that and to look out into a crowd and see people there who are just waiting to see you again. Like, how do you feel when you look back at that time of your life to then know the tour eventually came and you didn't get free? Well, it was so interesting. I mean, just to give a little bit of context, I signed the record deal I was in when I was 18 years old. I got found when I was 17 and I signed the record deal at 18 years old. And this record deal signed away the rights to my voice and likeness in perpetuity in the universe. OK, so. Things happened. It didn't feel appropriate for me to remain in the situation I was in. So I did spend nine years in litigation fighting for the rights to myself back. And. It's just like spiritually and conceptually such a weird. It's like such a weird concept that somebody else can own a something that's coming from inside of my body like that. So weird and it just never. I never like could understand it really like spiritually speaking. And and then to really be fighting for the rights to. To my own voice and my own face and my own. My me to myself, like, what are we talking about? And for it to go on and on and on. And it was like nine years is a long time. And there was a lot of support. And I'm like that support carried me through like one tweet could carry me through for months like one stranger. In on Twitter that I should not be on Twitter, but I was and I saw them. And like that would carry me for a really long time. Like little things would take me through because. Nine years is a long time. Like it's a long time. It's a it's a fourth of my life. It's actually more than a fourth of my life. How did you keep yourself going through that time? Because I also am thinking about it. Like anyone listening to this, it's even when you put it that way, you're right. It's like it's from it's you. So like I'm sure there were so many moments where you had to think like, what if this is so unjust and like what if I didn't win? Like what if I let me I lose myself? Like how did you like grapple with those emotions as a human? It was honestly, it was very hard. Like I'm not going to sugarcoat it. Like I kind of I feel like I had to just hide because it was so hard. And I feel like I'm so synonymous with joy and I love that. I love bringing people joy. But like when I could not show up as that for others, because like I can only give away what you have for yourself and I would try like in this litigation, I would go out on tour and I would sing the hit songs and I I tried, but it was really difficult. It's a really it was just a really difficult, complicated, really confusing for me even. Like the emotions were so complicated. What do you think your dominant emotion was at that time? I was so lonely and I was I was so lonely in how anxious I was and how much fear I had. Because we're told to speak up and stand up for ourselves and say something, you know, and I had and I felt like, I'm getting like punished like my medical records are on the Internet. My therapy notes are on the Internet. Every text message I've ever sent is on the Internet. Every email I've ever sent is on the Internet. You know, I went to treatment for an eating disorder, those notes, but I went in to try to help save my own life. Like those are on the Internet. And I did that because I have nothing to hide. And and I now can sit here and talk to you and realize that that that's actually very freeing in a way. Some like kind of feels like sitting naked in my backyard, you know, where you're just like, it's it's freedom now. But at the time, it was really like it felt really just so bad. Hell, it's it felt like fucking hell. I also think this is so relatable for women and something you just said is like you're out of place in your life where you are radiating joy. Yeah, you're choosing to live in joy. But the way that women can be painted is so angry when we try to stand up for ourselves. I written down a quote, you said, I grew up thinking women can be all of the things. But the one thing I really cannot be is an angry woman. Like what did you think would happen if you allowed yourself publicly to show your anger towards this unfair situation? There was like a period right before I got treatment for my eating disorder where Timber was the number one song in the world. And I was in my dazzled body suits with my dancers and my wig. And like behind the scenes, I was not having fun. I was starving myself. And I like had this moment where I looked in the mirror and I told you, I grew up on like punk music, like Iggy Pop. I'm an Iggy Pop tattoo. Like and I like looked in the mirror and I'm like, what are we doing? What are we doing? What are we doing? And I canceled the rest of this tour and I started a band called Yeast Infection and I only played dive bars. Kesha, I love you. I'm pretty sure everyone was like, and she's lost her goddamn mind. And I'm sitting there thinking like, Papa Iggy Pop would be so proud of me. I'm burning it down. Fuck the man. I just, you know, and then shortly thereafter, like I got help and treatment and trying to sort through the emotions. And like, to be honest with you, like anger is so interesting as a woman, isn't it? Like nobody wants to see that. No. Because we're hysterical and we're crazy and it's like ugly. And I kind of like, I'm down to challenge that because I actually think it keeps us from being our most boundary and most powerful selves to keep us from anger because I can only speak for myself. But my anger indicates and I feel it somatically in my body. I get anger and it means I need to make a boundary and someone is crossing a boundary. Every woman's like, you just described that better than I could have myself. Why are we not allowed to express that, that dominant emotion right there, that clearly there's something underneath that you're so right where we're saying we're screaming for help. Yes. We're like, because I'm pretty sure anger is not a dominant emotion. It is a reaction to one of the emotions. We're hurt. We're in pain. We're sad. We're whatever it is that someone usually made us feel. And so I'm fucking pissed off. Yeah. And people are like, no, no, no, no, no. It's just anger is just the top layer. That's ugly. And no one wants to ask what happened. No one wants to say, well, wait, what happened? Why are you so angry? They're like, girl, that is a bad look on you. And it's like, do you want to ask why I'm pissed the fuck off? Never. No. Just be quiet. Sit down, shut the fuck up. Well, I think that like I'm down. Well, so if I'm going to back it up, this is like why I love songwriting is because that is a safe place to go absolutely buck wild. Like, because I always think like, where is a safe place to be really fucking angry? Let me tell you where. When you're screaming a song into a microphone and all your friends are like, oh my God, girl, that sounds great. And they're like cheering for you. Oh my God, this is why I write music. Right. Right. It's a little less like intense when it's music is like, this is a bop girl. You're like, little did you know I'm actually fucking serious when I'm dead screaming screaming. But like that's the power of music. Girl. Okay, next. Next. Next one. Because maybe I don't know what the fuck this relates to, but no. And this is where we're at. And here we are. Cult Leader 101. Will you post this back in January? Kesha, what's happening here? Well, okay. Let's. What is happening? So I'm a Pisces and like statistically Pisces are great cult leaders. Okay. And we were going to Brazil and I haven't been to Brazil in forever. And I was thinking about how culture, the word culture, it's like culture. And then I was with my dancers and they were like, you're kind of our cult leader. And I'm like, well, what, like what's the cult? And I, my goal is to kind of create like queer church. When I was designing my show, I wanted it to feel like a pop church for all people, but specifically having gone to church after church after church in my life, wanting to go to Divinity School and being like part of the queer community and caring very deeply about the queer community. I wanted like one of my main goals, the last act of my show on this tour is called queer church because throughout my whole career, I would not, I wouldn't be shit if it weren't for the queer community. And as like a pop star, like I owe everything to the community. And I want to always make a safe space for all people. What do you think is the biggest misconception about you? Oh, shit. Oh, shit. I don't even like truly, it depends on what article you read, what era. Like, I don't even know. Like that's the craziest part about having everything in your life on the internet. Like truly, it's almost like depends on who you ask. It depends on, I have no idea. I literally don't know. And part of me is like, do I care? Because I'm so fucking solid. It's so good. I don't give a fuck. No, it's so good. I like spent so much time. Girl, after this litigation, I was like, not. I was truly so full of fear. Like it was in my bone marrow. And I spent so much time and energy focusing on trying to regulate myself and regulate my nervous system and heal. And like, I am so fucking good with myself now. And that is like a miracle. So I don't know. I don't know. People might think, oh, I don't even know. You're like, and I don't care. I don't. I mean, like I'm kind of curious, but then it's kind of like going on Twitter, like, do I want to know? Like what? Yeah, you're like, what are these bitches fucking saying? What are they saying? You can put the cards down. That was perfect. Our sponsor today is Brothers Cider. I think we all can agree at this point that the best memories are made in person and not on screens. There's nothing better than when one text turns into a group chat, which then turns into like, OK, everyone, time to come over. And suddenly it's a whole thing and you're having the time of your life. No overplanning, just everyone showing up as they are. And that's exactly the vibe that brothers bring. Brothers Cider is all about real fruit and real flavor and that IRL energy. You just can't fake. It's a little unexpected, but it always makes for a refreshing addition to any get together, whether you're throwing a last minute hang, a house party, or just something that somehow ends up being way bigger than you ever planned. It's intentionally different in the best way possible. Seriously, Brothers Cider has joy in its DNA. 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I'm, I'm selling it except for when I'm in Italy. Okay. Oh, I like that. It's like by country. Listen, whatever. Anyways, you like the Italians. Okay. But so now I actually like master Bay to a gratitude meditation. You're, you're lying to me. I certainly am not. Keshia, they're like, breathe in and be grateful. It's don't knock it till you try it. Honestly, everyone, let me just say those downloads on the gratitude ones are going to go way up. Remember when I said I started every day with a gratitude meditation? Right. It's been amazing. Literally when I got my freedom, I was like, I think, you know, I'm pissed about a lot of stuff, but one of the things is that like pleasure. I keep coming back to pleasure. Like it is okay as a woman to feel pleasure in this world. When things, when you go through things, pleasure is not like the number one neural pathway that your brain always goes to when you have survived things. And I had to reprogram that and I do it every fucking day and I'm not even embarrassed about it. You shouldn't be. You absolutely shouldn't be. And I think especially as women, I relate to like, I think when we are stressed or we're going through something traumatic, the actual last thing that we can think about is sex and pleasure because our bodies are so frozen. We can't, we literally can't feel our bodies. Like to lose that part of yourself and to shut down. And then to be able to now be like, I connect this shit with gratitude, mother. Yes. Totally. Wow. And this is why I am celibate is because I'm calling in a fucking king. Like it's time for my king. You're manifesting. My pussy is manifesting with gratitude that my king is coming. Okay. Because you have to, your body has to align with your reality before it shows up in your life. So like, are there kings in Italy? Like what's going on over there? There are some fucking kings in Italy. Yeah, girl. It's really that different. Kind of love it. Um, I know you also kind of mentioned like going through this experience of not feeling right in your body, you know, being on the world stage, having people comment, just the exploitation to the nth degree of people feeling like they are entitled to a woman's body is so disturbing. And I also think this impossible standards that were held to right, like be hot, but don't be slutty, like, you know, be hot, but don't be fake. Like there's so much that we have to be like, uh, where's the middle line? Like how have you managed to get kind of rid of those expectations? Cause like you are so confident now and we need your wisdom of like, how have you just learned to just be comfortable with who you are? Huh. I mean, it's been like such a journey, right? Um, from the beginning of my career, and I, you know, we've talked about this a bit and it's been very public, like people have commented on my body. I internalize those comments. I make that the word of God. I try to adjust my body to somebody else's like what they want me to be. Um, I went through a horrible filler phase. God, that sucked. But because I was like, Oh, that's what I should do. And then I'm like, I actually don't like the way that looks, but like, it's just like this constant dance with society on what it does mean to be a woman and what is acceptable and like also we're not supposed to age. Like trust me, I don't want to, but like, I don't know what else to do. Like I, so I just have, I try to have like, because my body image can get very perfectionism me. That's like what came up when I was, you know, in the eating disorder, which has been a while ago now. So I like, it's interesting to talk about it because I just really wanted to be loved. And, um, in my healing process, since I got my freedom, I realized like wanting to be famous and wanting to be loved. All of that actually had to come from myself and it couldn't be fake self love. It could not be performative words from a stage. I had to sit with myself and really like treat myself with kindness and grace and gratitude. And I sat with my leg, I tore my ACL on stage and I fucking finished that show and I played another one. Like I'm so grateful. But I remember Kesha, wasn't it that after you did that though, the headlines where you were drunk on stage, like things like that make your blood boil? Because I don't drink before I go on stage. I don't drink before I go on stage. Girl, I barely drink. Like that's the one LOL. That's probably a huge misconception. But like, I don't want to have to defend myself. Talk to me a little bit about that persona that you built, because I know everyone builds a form when you have to have this like public image, right? I feel like there was this very like wild child party girl that you were bringing forth to the world and people loved it. But like, how intentional was that? I think that that is absolutely a part of where I was at. You know, I was in my early twenties and I think people love a headline. We love the drama, the salacious. We love it. So it was a version of a thing I did sometimes just like everybody at that age. And it was fun and it's funny to talk about. It's also probably more interesting to write a song about a night, a wild night than like, uh, getting a car wash. Like, I don't know. Now I'm going to challenge myself. Yeah. But at the time it was also I write many, many, many songs for a record. Like I'm talking like a hundred plus. So, um, let's just say. I wanted to showcase other sides of my personality with single choices, but like the party thing was working. Right. And so it became almost like a caricature of itself, which is not to say it was never like disingenuous. I was having a great time and having fun and romping around the world. But I think the balance of that is, um, also who I am, which didn't maybe get as much of a spotlight at the time, because one thing was really working. And how much do you think that that public persona influenced the way people treated you? Well, I think that there has been a level of. Can write off a talent. Because there's auto tune or it's a silly song or it's a pop song or like there's so many ways to. Try to discount kind of like what I've done. But the cool thing is, is that I'm always like, all right, y'all go write one. Go ahead. Write one. See how easy it is. Like part of I actually truly think this, we're talking about this earlier, but joy is such an active resistance. A lot of times in my career, my joy has been written off as something that is not maybe that impressive because it's kind of silly. It's kind of fucking goofy. It's kind of just crazy. But I think to vibrate in the frequency of like silly goose shit is actually magical. It is because you don't give a fuck and that though can piss people off. Totally. Babe, I could have gone to Barnard. Okay. I'm really fucking smart. And I also can be really fun and silly and both things can exist. But you then refute, you're taking away my intellect because I'm having fun. And I have an image and I'm leaning in and I'm doing all these fun things because that's what everyone wants. What to be able to put them in a box because we need to be able to fit them into a structure where we can make sense of it. And guess what? Bitches. No. How about no? That's just not how life works with humans. I'm not gonna do it. I'm not gonna. I'm just not gonna like, and trust me, they're mad at me. Livid. They're mad. But I'm not. You're happy. Like, no, I'm like killing it. I just sold out MSG. I'm chilling. So like they tried so hard to make me so sad. No. Can we also talk about this joy? Because you're right. We were talking about for the interview and the way you talk about it. It's so refreshing because like I just don't feel like as women and especially like if you're trying to forge a path for yourself and be successful when you're smiling and you're enjoying your success, no one wants to see that. No. And it's like really disorienting to people. And I just like don't know why. I'm like, I don't either. I think that. What do I think? I don't know. I think that when you are. I think we're all mirrors for each other. And to some. You could be a massive inspiration. And to some, you can be a reflection of what they are not achieving in their life. Um, I know. I mean, I just know that I feel like I have been projected upon a lot and kind of going back to the body stuff. It's like I tried to shape shift to make everybody happy. And then at some point when you do that for literally almost 20 years, you start to be like, I'm going to Italy. I'm eating the pasta. See you guys later. Eat shit and die. You know, eat shit and die. Everyone eat shit and die. Well, it's just like, what a, what? I can't. Can we talk about these kings in Italy? Yeah. Let's talk about your dating life. Oh God. Okay. LOL. Let's go. Okay. So you're sell a bit except for when you're in Italy. Well, I mean, like mostly. Yeah, yeah. Yeah. Unless there's like, celebrate was like the goal. Yeah. Progress, not perfection. Got it. Are you single? Um, yes. Okay. Very single. Okay. Um, I'm going to kind of, well, first of all, you have a song called red flag. Yeah. Were you just like straight up admit to loving a red flag in a partner? Well, this is why I've been mostly celibate. Okay. And I'm going to remain very single on purpose. Yep. Because we have worked on this trait of mine. What were some toxic traits we're not into anymore, but maybe in the past we were a little like, huh? Do I think are hot? Yeah. Just like truly the funnier the story, the hotter, like, Oh God. Oh God. I'd like just, I have just dated people. I've no business dating. Just no, I can't even call. There's like some stories I really want to tell, but I don't want to call anybody out. But like one eye, which I think is hot. Yeah. He was cool. Okay. But like the line got drawn because he just smelled kind of like a subway sandwich that had been sitting in the back of your car for a couple of days. And like, honestly, you better work. But it was just not a match. It was like a vibe. Cause I'm actually secretly a hippie, but like, there's a line for me, you know? Oh God. Okay, wait, then I'm going to give you some dating disasters. Oh. You tell me if any of this relates to you. Okay, go ahead. Give me the story. What is the pettiest reason you've ever gotten dumped? I've only gotten dumped actually one time and it's because the guy was dating. I kind of like thought he was probably a star fucker. And I was like, I'm just going to like test this theory. And so I went to the era's like after the tour, there's a little party and I was just like, I'm going to pop in, take my girlfriend. I'm not going to take the boyfriend. Just see how this goes. We were together for a year and a half. That dude came over the next day, dropped the keys off. And that was that. I was like, have you no shame? Like, couldn't you wait like 11 days or something? Him being like so angry with you. Oh, he's like tantrum. I mean, over, if you're going to do it over anybody, Taylor ship, honestly, fair, fair, fair, fair, fair, fair, honestly, I would have a fucking day. Don't do it. Yeah, fair, fair, fair, but get it together. Okay. What's the time you completely misread the vibes and you're like, wait, no, that's this is not how I felt. Oh, with a guy? Yeah. Misread the vibes. Well, let's just say most. Okay. Let's just say I had these two athletes, two of them at the same time. And they were like, let's hang out. And I was like, I can't because I realized I forget there's a word for this. But if I don't like someone's brain, I can't deal with their penis. Penis. That's it. I'm a sapiosexual, but I just like, I really like, I was excited because I got my orgasm back, you know, and I was like, I wouldn't like, I'm going to like kind of have a ho phase. Like, what's that like? And I can't. No, no, no. So that's, yeah. The athletes, it sounds like a good idea. And then you get there and you're like, hmm. It was like a really cute flirtation. But I just like, I misread my own vibe in thinking that I could have a ho phase. I think I like just want a king. I just want like one. I just want to masturbate and meditate. So masturbate and meditate. Dude. Okay. What is the time you found out you were potentially the other woman? Oh, well, okay. I met this guy and I was really into his brain. And then we had a little kiki, had a little make out. It's cute. But then I found out he was polyamorous. So it's not really the other woman, but it's like an open situation. And so anytime I'm met with like, I felt very judgmental, you know, I was like, oh, I'm judging the situation. I'm judging my part of being in the situation. And then I had a conversation and like, it's a full blown life choice. They've been doing it for a very long time. His partner has a full blown other partner. And so I was like, I'm going to give this a try for a moment. And it turns out it just like was not for me. You just want a king to yourself. I think the most like, uh, devotion. Oh my God. Do you know that someone like built a pyramid for somebody? Didn't they? I think so. Okay. So we're going to go with it. We're going to fucking go with it. Fact check. Fact check. Who might appear in your mind? That's what you want. But like, what would you want someone to build you? Like I want a fucking, I want a fucking cathedral full of cats and starburst. I don't know. I just like want and like a river running through it. Ooh. And like a weeping willow next to the dolphins. Obviously. Obviously. That's what every woman wants. Really clip this, send this, send this to him and Italy. Get started. Yes. With a manicurist inside of my pyramid. I love where are the men like this? So a pyramid. I like this. I like this for you. What do you want built? You know, I've never thought about it, but I don't think anything I could say would top what you just said. So I'll take what she's having. Honestly, I'll take the cats and the starburst and the weeping willow. What is the worst meet the parents interaction you've ever had? Oh, wow. I had one in Indiana. I'm not going to say his name. OK. He knows who he is. He took me to Indiana and I had only gone on like two dates and it just ended up being like I love Indiana, but like this particular meeting the parents after just a couple of dates was like wildly awkward. And then everyone thinks because I'm coming home, then we're getting married. And you had two dates. Yeah, but that was my bad. See, crazy horny. I get horny for crazy. Like if someone's like, I know, let's do this, like really, it's a bad idea. And I'm like, that sounds funny. I do it for fun. I do it for like the book. We let's go to Indiana and meet your parents. And I'm like, oh, my God, I'm this bitch. This is the beginning of the most epic love story ever told. And then it's going to end with him building me a pyramid. And it never in Indiana fucking does. That's just why I mostly sell a bit. OK, yeah, no, I think definitely don't go meet the parents after two dates. Right. That was my bad. It was a good story. What is the biggest lie you ever caught someone in? OK, OK, there there was a guy. I did for like a long time. And I don't know if you ask my dancers, he may not have a home. Was he living with you? I don't want to answer that question. You're like, Alex, shut up. That's not it's not your business. That's not important. OK. He may or may not have been living with me and we never went to his place, but he always has an excuse. I was really busy. I was designing my tour and then I was like literally hand designing everything. And it was like, I'll go see your place when I have time. And then one thing led to another and then you never saw the place because I don't know if it exists. I know. You know, yeah. Yeah. No, I know the red flag thing. It's OK. I know. But you know why I am. You're so self aware right now. You're like, I know, like at least you recognize it, you know, like you'll always be on guard now if they never are like by the third time, like when it come to mine, it has to be that I have to like. I need I'm just going to. What do we do? Literally as women, like what do we do? Just try to prevail. OK. Like I think you just like serve, cut and prevail and like just close a pussy up and Colin King says what I'm trying. That's like we're working on it, but sometimes they don't have homes. And then you should like definitely not let them move in with you unless you do a background check first. You have a background checks, Keshia. I know. Let's get on that. I know. What is the most rogue first date you've ever been on? Hmm. Your face. Well, for my birthday, someone sent me a yacht, not like as a present, but like for me and like my whole crew, but they weren't even there. Oh, so it was kind of a first date and it was my favorite one. Because he was there. You're like, send me shit and don't come around. You're like, that's actually the kind of relationship I want. Give me all the good things, but I don't want to ever see. OK, don't annoy me. You're so fucking annoying. But send the yacht, babe and build the pyramid and I'll be in the pyramid alone. OK, what is the weirdest place you've ever hooked up with someone? Hmm, weirdest. Let me take a little walk down memory line for a minute. Weirdest place I've ever hooked up with somebody. Like. I don't know. It's like planes, trains and automobiles vibes like on a bus in a bus bathroom and a bunk on a bus. You're on tour. Like I'm always on tour, which is like kind of the thing. So like at a sexy bathroom at the restaurant. Love that. I love like nature sex. Oh. Oh, it's the best. Yeah. In like the woods. Yeah. It's the best. Really? With like the sticks. Oh, in the leaves, honey. And the bark, sweetie. Yeah. And the worms. Get a never ever baby. And that mud, honey. You're like, what just went in my vagina? Oh, that wasn't his tip. No, I'm like, OK, actually, maybe my favorite sex has been like body paint, like paint in the woods. In the grass, but there's paint and there's a canvas and there's sexiness happening. I could picture it. I like it for you. Are you the type of person that says friends with their ex? I do. If. Like. If you're like a real shit, I'm going to write a song about you and like it is what it is. If you're not, if it's just like not a match. Totally. Yep. I like to me. Kind of realize now that I'm like free and I'm independent and I'm sovereign and it's this whole energy of like if you don't like fuck with me, then love that. But just it's like the guys that like have like we're using me to get in the paparazzi pictures or lied to me about having a home like that is like. Deal breaker. So deal breaker. We got to cut it off. Standards. Have you ever been cheated on? I think they know that I'm a little crazy. You're like, they ended it before because they knew. They knew you don't know you don't want to do that. Like I collect human teeth. Let's talk about that. What's going on? Well, so I've been collecting them for a while now. OK. And I make art out of them. I have my cats had to get their little teeth taken out because they were, I don't know, their little kitty wisdom teeth. I collect those two. I'm like the tooth fairy. And didn't fans like used to send you their teeth? Yeah. No, they still do. And did you ask for that? Yes. What? How did how did that kind? I tweeted it. You said what? She's some of your teeth. Just like some of your teeth. Good morning. Hit me up. Love you. And what did you want to do with the teeth? Well, so I make art. I make jewelry. I've made a crown like a headdress. I made a belt. We the thing you're carrying is in a tooth, right? Oh, no, that's my placenta. Oh, wait. What? Where's that? Where did it go? Oh, I lost my placenta on your cat. Oh my God, where is your placenta? You were holding it. Maybe it went down into the crevices. We'll get it after. What's in here somewhere? You were holding your placenta earlier. Yeah, I brought it in. So your placenta supposedly gives you second sight. Helps open your third eye. This is according to my mother. So she stuck it in the oven. She put it in a box. And she found it when I was like 21 years old in the basement. We had to like fight for my placenta. My mom, they tried to take my placenta away from her at the hospital. And she like fucking threw a conniption fit. And she fought for it. She fought for that. So now I carried around. She put it in the oven, wrapped it up in a box, stuck it in the basement. We found it. Throw it in the blender, pop it in a necklace. Work. Art. Found it. Oh, give us a little show to the camera. Okay. That's your placenta. And that's in there. And do you travel with that everywhere? Yeah. What does it bring you? I just feel like it's like, I love a good ritual. Like I'm a cult leader. We all saw in the photo. And I just like, I love a ritual that reminds me of this like esoteric world I prefer to live in. Like down here on earth, boring. But like, when I go up into like with my spirit guides and the whole realm of angels, like that's where I prefer to be. It's kind of fun. It's like the teeth. It just reminds me when I have like a little piece of the people I love, what they're going to throw. Where do they put teeth? Anyways, what do you throw them? In the toilet? Yeah. Where do you... Like when you take your kids teeth, tooth fairies out there, Yeah. Where do you put them? You send them to Kesha. You send them to me. Cause like, where else are you going to put them in the trash? Have you ever gotten anyone that you're like, Oh, I got to throw this one out. It's a little... Oh, I've gotten crazy ones. And I live for it. I'm currently trying to like design a coffee table. And the center, I want to just be a bowl of all the teeth. So for real, if people want to send it to me, I actually like art I make out of it. I live for it. You're literally the tooth fairy. I know. Our sponsor today is Brothers Cider. I think we all can agree at this point that the best memories are made in person and not on screens. There's nothing better than when one text turns into a group chat, which then turns into like, Okay, everyone time to come over. 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And we've grown up together and they've shown up for me. They stood outside the fucking courthouse. My fans and my music, it's like, it's my life's work. And I've had not him so much, but like a little bit and other relationships that almost like will neg. Because maybe they are, I don't know what they feel about it, but they feel a type of way about what I do. And I just realized, especially in my freedom and independent era and like sovereignty that like I only want a partner again, going back to like really wanting like a partnership, the visionary, our life together. And I want them to be like, baby, be fucking bigger. Be even more. I want you to eat your healthy omega three fatty acids to feed your fucking gorgeous brain. Like that's the partner I want. Like take your magnesium, you sexy bitch. He just wants you to keep fucking climbing and taking over instead of being like a little wiener in the corner, being like, you're out shining me or you're getting too big. And you're like, it's so you just can't have someone holding you back. But I think a lot of women feel like maybe I am too much. And I also think what's so admirable about that decision, regardless of the person, I think a lot of people can relate like when you get engaged, I think there's such a it's such a feels like it's such first a beautiful time in your life. But there are a lot of people who recognize like, oh my God, almost making it more finalized made me realize maybe this isn't what I want. And there's so much fear, I think of ending it whether like you already posted on Instagram that you're engaged. So like this is going to be so embarrassing if we call it off or people publicly know about it or the families or whatever. Like how did you deal with the emotional weight of knowing you wanted to end something, but also knowing optically like there's so much also that comes with that type of fallout. Well, I think that like, since we're speak for myself, since I was a little girl, yeah, I have seen many movies, read many books, there are many stories about how one of my life's greatest missions is to find my soulmate, my missing piece, the person that will complete me. And really like give my whole life meaning. And I realized, you know, going from being not free and not sovereign to sovereign and free, that I'd really like to challenge that and and feel whole and complete on my own. Um, and ending something with someone is always difficult, especially if you love them, especially if you've integrated your life with their family. But I think kind of going back to the samurai piece, like your gut is going to tell you if you are with the right partner. And my gut became unavoidable. And I, and I had to weigh the option of honoring myself or doing something that is, it's horrible to break up with someone you love. It's so difficult. And I've so much love for him and his family. They're beautiful, beautiful people. It just, I just didn't feel like we were growing in the, in the same direction. And like, I'm wildly ambitious and, and he was more comfortable. He was more satisfied, which I'm not saying that one is better than the other. Actually, sometimes wish I could just be more satisfied and chill. It just didn't match. It just didn't. It wasn't a match, like at the end and it was really difficult, but we're still friends and I have so much love for him. He's a really good person. I love that. And I think also just women listening, that's such a good testament to like, when you deny what you are feeling in your gut, it's never going to go away. You can put band-aids on it. You can ignore it, but like, you're only just prolonging the pain more and more. And so although sometimes making a really, really hard decision in that moment can feel excruciating and uncomfortable, you're then already in the process of moving forward with what you know and your gut you're supposed to do. And the more that you avoid it, you're just going to continue to live a life where like, you're not being authentic and honest yourself and that will eat you alive inside. And it's kind of not fair to the partner that you're with. They deserve to be with someone also that is wholeheartedly in it with them. And so sometimes it really is the selfless thing to do as much as it feels selfish in the moment. Well, it's interesting this idea of selfish versus selfless. And I think self care really does include honoring yourself and your highest good because we each have that over ourselves. So to try to people please to remain in relationship with someone, it is actually quite unfair to both of you and you have one life. Like you were born into this life with your one life. And I hope that everyone out there finds exactly what they want in this life. Like you deserve that. And and if you go down a road, like you can begin again every fucking second of every day. It is never too late. Like I am 39 years old and I just went on the biggest tour of my life almost 20 years after my biggest song came out. Like. And to get there, my fucking God was that a road? It was a difficult road. But I had to honor my truth. I had to honor myself. I had to go through what I went through to get there. I had to break up with someone I love. I still love and I'm so grateful for I had to have all my fucking medical records on the internet. I had to have the ugly filler phase. Like I had to have all these things that were so. Intolerably painful at the time. And I can sit here and talk to you and be so grateful I went through them because I feel so free. And I just I want that for like everyone. Everyone. I want everyone to really feel in their authenticity and like connected to their highest version of themselves. I'm so happy for you. Like everything you've went through it. That's why I think so many people love you. Not that you should have had to go through it. But like you sitting here. I mean, you have new music out, your new single or Gummy. Like I want to talk about it because it's like what was the inspiration behind this song? Yeah, I've a new song coming out called Origami and it is I am having a fun time immortalizing this reclaiming of my sexuality. The past like year and a half, two years, I'm reclaiming myself and part of that is my sexuality. And this is a song that's about, you know, Ben me, twist me, how you want me, baby, make me origami. In Italy. You know, just in Italy. Just in Italy. Is there an album that would be coming with this as well? I'm trying to figure it out because my God, there are a lot of songs. You said you always do like a hundred. A lot of the songs are happening at all times. You're writing. I'm writing all the time. I mean, my God. So like TBD, exactly what form it's going to be in. But there is a new song that's like so kind of tea and it's really fun. And it's just like celebrating being in your body and quite frankly, like. Having so much fun again. In my body at 39 years old, having gone through hell and back. And I'm having the best time. And I feel like I got to sing songs about it. Absolutely. Yeah. You are going on the Freedom Tour this summer. Yes. What can fans expect from that? Well, so. I kind of was I had all this. My story, my trauma was like trapped in my body. And I did a psychedelic assisted therapy that was really helpful for me and my anxiety. And I kind of was like, how can I tell the story? How can I ever get this all out of my body? And my body was like, bitch, you have you're playing the forum. What are you talking about? It's like, no, but I can't say the whole parts of the story. Like I can't talk about it. And my leg was like put it in the show. So I tell basically my life story through my life's work. And that's why it's the Freedom Tour. Wow. Because I go through like. I go through the story in the only way that I can through my life's work. And the goal is to create love for myself, love with my community and to really walk through this world in like freedom and sovereignty. So beautiful. Yeah. And it's like gay church. Let's go. Right. Let's go. It was the first time I've ever headlined MSG. Congratulations. Thank you. What did that feel like? Well, first of all, it was sold out. Girl, I can't. How did you feel just like chilling in your dressing room before hearing everyone screaming? Cassie Ventura sends me this massive bouquet of these beautiful pink roses. But before I go out on stage. Sweet angel. I have chills all over my body talking about it. Oh, I know. And my whole family is there and it is sold out. And I just can't tell you like feeling because Cassie was in the room when I recorded the song Tick Tock. Yeah. Oh, so she's been there since day one. Yeah. Wow. Yeah. Oh, wow. And then everything you guys have both individually been through with horrific unimaginable situations to then now be on the other side of it and both be able to be together. I don't want to speak for you, but like I'm seeing you like smile and nod and all that. It's like, whoa, how emotional was that? Oh, like. So, and like she just had a baby and she seems to be doing so well. And I'm so happy for her. It like feels so good to witness that. And I'm sure she feels the same about you. You know, it's just like such a moment. And it was like one of the most special nights of my life because there's this like hard curfew at MSG. And if you go over one minute, it's like a very bad big, big trouble. And the crowd literally started cheering and like didn't stop for, I think it was like 10 or 11 minutes to the point where everyone's freaking out in my in-ears being like, you have to start the next song. You're gonna get tackled off this day. You're fired from New York City forever. And I just was like, no, this is like I have waited for this kind I felt. I was like, I'm not stopping them. There's no fucking way. I sat alone in my house and like truly questioned the point of living any longer for almost a decade and I'm going to stop them cheering. Charge it to the card, baby. It's worth it. Oh, I can't even imagine. Did you feel in your body in that moment? I literally felt like my heart, people like say heart chakra, whatever it was, I felt my literal heart. It felt like someone was tearing the fascial tissue apart. And I literally felt my heart open in a way that I don't think I've ever felt anything like in my entire life. And it was so, that's what I was saying to you earlier, like the fans, I hope had an amazing time this summer, but I don't think they're ever going to really be able to understand what that did for me. Like that night alone was, it was like a turning point in my life as one of the greatest nights of my entire life. I can't even imagine what's so beautiful about the industry, because I know there's so much pain, obviously, that it's brought you, but for you to be able to do the thing that you love so much and that you're so passionate about, you're so talented and do it and get so much fulfillment and healing out of it, but then also to simultaneously be giving such happiness also to your fans, like you're being able to do both at the same time. Like what a beautiful gift that you're giving everyone and yourself included because you should put yourself first right now at this time in your life. But the fact that putting yourself first means you want to get on that stage and that's your healing process. Like I can only imagine what your fans feel in the crowd. Like they must feel that from you. Well, I mean, God, they were there at the beginning and we were having fun and then a bunch of shit happened. And it was like, it was sad and hard. And like now I'm like, now let's celebrate. Like that we also have each other in this life. It might be an unusual form of community, but like that's my community. I've been doing this for a long time. And half of the time, again, unfortunately, you shouldn't have to go through it. But when you go through harder shit, it brings you even closer to the people that you love because you can be like, it's that much sweeter. That we get to stand here and say, I'm free and we get to enjoy it that much more because we felt it almost be taken away. Yeah. And wow. And I do think that's like the art of writing a book. It's called The Alchemy of Pop. It's not going to be ready for a while. Okay. Well, we'll be waiting. But like it's going to be great, but it's going to take me a while. Yeah. But it's all about alchemyzing your experiences in this life. Anything that happens to you, like I have found that I can take it and I try to alchemize it into something that can help someone else somehow. And like to your point, like that's what I've tried to do with my experiences in life. I try to put them into a song. It helps me. And then I really hope it helps other people. Last two questions. I feel like I could talk to you for nine hours. How would you describe this current era of your life that you are now in and continuing to like enter into? I think I'm just so, for the first time in a long time, I feel so safe in my body and in the world. And I know that's maybe a crazy thing to say because the world is crazy. But it's the first time that I've ever felt this. And so I would like to create safe places for people, whatever that means. So I'm just really open to the universe. I would love the universe to show me like, what is the best way to do that for me? To do that for other people. Yeah. Because it was like, yeah, to feel safe is everything. And I would love to help other people feel safe. Yeah. So I'm like open to what that means. But that's, I'm in a place where I feel very grateful to be alive and to have lived through what I lived through and to feel safe. And now I would like to help pay that forward. Wow. Yeah. For fans who have been with you since day one, what message would you want to leave them with today? I literally, truly though, you're actually the love of my life. Like I think about all these silly goose men come and go. My animals, like I'm so grateful and I'm sorry, your mother has had lots of phases. You're like, girl, thank you for loving me through all of them. And I just, I'm so, I'm so lucky. I'm so grateful. I'm so grateful. And I'm just like very, I'm just so fucking grateful. And I want to just continue to create safe spaces for you to come and be like authentically as fucking weird as you want to be. So hopefully I'll see you on summer tour and like be weird, be so weird. I feel like I can speak for everyone when we say like, we love you so much. And we are so happy that you are at a place where you do feel safe in your life because you deserve it more than anything. And I am so happy for you and your career, all that you've accomplished. We could have sat here for hours and talked about every single song you've ever released, every single tour you've been on, every single thing you've accomplished. Like there's too much and it's so crazy. Like it's still going and it's still coming. And I'm just so happy for you. You're such a beautiful, interesting, intelligent person. And I'm so happy I got to sit down with you. Like I never know what to expect. Like this is why I love my job. I get to sit down and I think I know from researching, but you're even more incredible than I could have ever imagined. So and thank you for your time because I know you haven't done a long form interview in a really long time. Yeah. I don't think I've done it since I got out of litigation. So thank you for making me feel safe. It was my absolute, absolute honor. Thank you. Well, creating a safe space allows us to be silly geese. And that is the goal, honey. Cash shot. Thank you for coming on Caller Daddy. Thanks for having me. Our sponsor today is Brothers Cider. I think we all can agree at this point that the best memories are made in person and not on screens. There's nothing better than when one text turns into a group chat, which then turns into like, okay, everyone time to come over. And suddenly it's a whole thing and you're having the time of your life. No over planning, just everyone showing up as they are. And that's exactly the vibe that brothers bring. 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