Charlie Smith on Childhood Trauma, Addiction, & Launching Your Life

The one thing that I got that I still have today's hope. Hope is a belief about the future can be better, and that I can redefine the way that I live my life. Hope stands for hold on possibilities exist. We want to extend a heartfelt thank you to our listeners. Because of your incredible support, we're out of time has reached number one on Apple's mental health podcast chart, number two on the health and fitness chart, and number 26 overall. We couldn't have done this without you. Thank you for being part of this journey with us. Charlie Smith, how you doing? I'm great, man. Good. Never better when I'm with you. Yeah, me too, man. Me too. Oh, why you weren't Jersey and I'm wearing a jacket? Just curious. Oh, because I love in the FISA Collier, that's why and you clearly don't. Noted. Dude, I love the women's basketball game. I just love it. So what I decided to do is every time I can remember it, right? I bought a bunch of jerseys with my favorite people in both NBA and WNBA. And I just love it. But I love the women. I just love the way they play. I think it is. So cool. And college basketball for women is a thousand times better because they stay for four years. Oh, yeah. Some five. Some five. Yeah, that's right. And it's just you can't identify with anybody in college basketball. You just can't shout out fair for women's basketball two time max champions. I see. I spoke at Pepperdine's basketball team about maybe eight months ago. That was a great experience. But you're doing that all the time now. And mine was nowhere near as good as yours because I saw yours. Okay, when you came to Carrera, now before we get involved in any of this, I want people to know who you are. I want you to do a drunk lock. Okay, just like we're sitting in an meeting because we didn't meet in an A meeting. But we're going to get over how we met because that's a beautiful story. Yeah, that's a beautiful story. So give it to me, man. What was it like and what happened and what is it like now? Yeah, it's a interesting trajectory. You know, I live here now. I live here now in California, but I'm not from here. I grew up in a small town in Scarborough, Maine. My dad was a college professor and my mom was a first grade school teacher. Do we look like every middle class family in Scarborough, Maine? Get this. 1970. We're on the cover of Catholic Digest Magazine as the model Catholic family, my family, the Catholic Digest, Catholic Digest. That's a thing. That's a thing. Okay. But you know, that was the, the folks on the cover of this month. I haven't read it in 30 years. So maybe more. You know, but that wasn't the reality of like a lot of, like a lot of homes. You know, what you portray on the outside isn't what I experienced. You know, I suffered my first closed-faced punch in a bloody nose, a de-agess six years old. At the end of my violent dad. That's right. You know, guy put on the surf to protect me. And what's interesting is that violence would continue in escalating until I was 19 years old, you know, and, and home from college at the age of 19. And he levels of 45 caliber pistol at my temple with a loaded gun. And I had a brother who was home from the Navy and, and he kind of just reacted like any, you know, first responder when you knock my dad off and I left. And, and what's interesting about that is I left Scarborough, Maine that night at 19 years old with Duffa but student loans and credit card debt. And I thought if I could go out in this world and succeed that I would be able to forget what had happened to me as a kid. And so I did, you know, and I learned a bunch of coping skills when I was young. You know, I could be out of my house for two reasons. One was work, the other was school. So I learned a few coping skills. You know, one was to work because I could be away from my house. So I had a paper out in Scarborough, Maine, pretty fucking cold in the winter, just so you know, but I didn't care because I was out of my house. And I worked from the age of eight years old until, you know, I'm, you know, today, going to school was another escape from me. Not that I did well in school because I was so distracted. And I had my first drink at 12 years old. You know, I had 12 great years of sobriety and then Eric Nuts parents went out of time and we were in elementary school and had a vodka orange juice and I was able to forget. And I like to forget, you know, and so I chased all three of those things out here to California. And so I came here to California and had, and we'd achieved that succession. I was one of the most active retail developers in the state of California, both for me and square feet of shopping centers. Did about a billion dollars worth the real estate deals in my career, but that wasn't the reality in my life because by the age of 35, I was a full blown alcoholic and dry. You know, in that 12, that drink I had at 12 years old would manifest itself into a full blown opioid addiction and alcoholism. And I couldn't go a day without taking something to change the way I felt. And you know, they talk about alcoholics leading a double life, you know, I've been leading a double life since I was six years old. What do I mean by that? I'd go to school, right? As a young kid and I knew other kids weren't holding back tears. I knew they weren't covering up bruises. So I learned to lie about who I was. Not about what I did, but about who I was. And so I just lost touch with myself. And you know, so I would go on business trips and I would stay go a day early and stay a day late. And you know, I was enthralled in the alcoholic and drug addicted life and working during the day and doing drugs and drinking at night. So how long you've been sober now? February 14 was 17 years. Any wreckage? Tons of wreckage. Give it a pass. So, you know, for me, this concept of living of integrity life, you know, was really difficult. So there's an adage that I had more of philosophical convictions galore and could live up to them. You know, I had a heavy dose of cognitive dissidents. For you, if you don't know what cognitive dissidences, it's rationalizing, justifying and minimizing bad behavior. So I was a father that coached his kids in sports. I was a husband whose wife didn't work who provided a great lifestyle for her. I was an employer that employed 35 full-time people that paid them well and gave them bonuses. I was also unfaithful to my wife. I also drove with my kids in my car loaded and caused a lot of chaos in my house. And was unreliable and unpredictable at work. You know, but I didn't see that stuff. And so the wreckage was caused, you know, wide swath. You ever have any medical problems as a result? No. Ever been to jail? No. You got a high bottom. I mean, you can say that, you know, rich and people talk about high bottoms, but, you know, I'm not saying it's high for you. I'm saying, I'm saying it's very real for you. I'm not minimizing your thing. It's just, you know, when you're in treatment and you see people come in on death's door, right? And it's just, it feels different to me and by different, I mean, you're lucky. You're lucky. You're lucky. It wasn't, you know, how long were you loaded for? I started drinking at the age of 12. I started heavy drinking by the age of 25 and was a full blown alcoholic by the age of 35. And by the time I was 35, I was doctor shopping. I was mixing opioids and aderol and alcohol. And I was a frustrated chemist, man. I just wanted to change the way I felt all the time. Were you, do you have the DTs ever? Oh, yeah. Okay. Well, then you're not that lucky. I apologize. Sorry. I was wrong. It was right. I was wrong. Yeah. At the end of the day, when I got sober, I had caused a lot of wreckage in my life and in the lives of other people. And I could pass a lot of tests. This is, I think, the thing that I think, you know, when you look at people with, quote, unquote, high bottoms that don't have a lot of the consequences, but still have a reason to get sober. You have to, I had to look at what those reasons were. And the reasons were, you know, I could pass a lot of tests, bro. I could pass the bank account tests, the family tests, the toy tests, the career tests. You know what test I couldn't pass? You probably do. The love myself test. I couldn't pass the look in the mirror test, you know, and at the end of the day, when you can't look yourself in the mirror because of who you say you are is completely out of alignment with what you're doing. And you despise yourself for the way you are behaving as an adult. It's an empty, empty feeling, bro. So let's talk about the story of us meeting. And I want to hear it from you. And then I'm going to tell it because I want to see if it's the same. Yeah, we met in a, in a group therapy office. I had, I was going to unpack what was, you know, untreated childhood trauma. There was a group of people there that I didn't know. And there was one guy you there who showed up every week, who from the first moment I walked in with two days sober, cared about me in a way and demonstrated that care for me in a way I had not experienced. And you showed up every week on my journey. And we've been friends for 17 years, bro. I want you to know, I love you to death. I want you to know you came for a valid reason. I came because my wife asked me to, right? And so I just did it, right? I did what she was told, but I didn't get anything out of that group. I did not like the people who were there. It was very remedial. I did what I could to be of service without looking like I was the know it all, right? But I felt like if I didn't show up every single week, you were going to die. I was so scared you were going to kill yourself. I was scared to death. And so I never missed a week ever. I know. And that was an hour and a half in bumper to bumper traffic. And I never missed it. Yeah, it's, you know, they say it's when you're doing something unfamiliar. It's always worse first. You know, the way I like an early sobriety and what you were sensing for me and why you're so concerned for me is because I'd never operated in this world without substances to cope with my feelings. And I was lost. I was empty. The things that I said I cared about the most had left me because of the behaviors that I engaged in. And it was a, it's a dark feeling. It's always worse first. You know, it's like, I like it. It's a this. I imagine my life like, you know, a junkyard scrap metal yard where they have all those huge magnets that pull the cars up. Like, when I'm an active addiction, I'm walking through that scrap metal yard. Like, nothing can touch me. All the magnets got all the heavy shit above me. I'm cruising through nothing's wrong. One into the scrap yard or the other. You get sober. Somebody turns the magnets off. All that shit falls and it's, and it's great. And it's got sharp edges. And now you have to do so. I had to do something I never done before, which is deal with it all. Confronted all in an honest way. And that was unfamiliar to me. Completely unfamiliar to me. So it's a really lonely place without someone like you. You know, it's, you did the same for me. Okay. Seven years ago when I sold cliffside, and I realized I couldn't go to work on Monday morning. And all my friends were there. And I couldn't help anybody for living anymore. Just saying it, it's like too much. And I was wrecked. And I made myself sick. And you were the only person I thought to call. Because of who you've become. What you've done with your life. And where you started. It is so impressive to me. I don't have the words. Now tell people what you're doing today. Well, today, you know, I've been through what I consider to be a shift in purpose. You know, I think for the first time in my life, I've, you know, I was pursuing material wealth. That was kind of my moniker for success was if I could, you know, achieve a material kind of net worth. Can I stop you for a just one second? Do you remember what you told me when, when I had those 10 homes and they were all sitting empty? Do you remember what you said to me? What did you say? Probably something like, these need to have a purpose. These need to have a reason. It's exactly what you said. And I'll give it to you. Burbata. You said, a good assess of bad. Every property has to have a purpose. It's interesting because what's come of that idea is simply the things that we value we have to invest in and things have to have a purpose. And I remember that conversation and the thing that I saw in you when I came to Malibu that day was so clear to me. Not yet clear to you. Wasn't the not going to work on Monday. It was your entire life had revolved around people calling you on any given day, morning or night to help their chervin and their loved ones get well and to save their lives. And you did it with such passion and vigor for every day. When those phone calls stop you'd, I just don't think you anticipated the loss that you would feel. And that's brief. You couldn't breathe. But what that speaks to is how deeply ingrained that purpose in your life is that when you had the opportunity you came right back to it again. And for anybody listening, you know, you're one of one. Everyone on this, everyone that's listening is packed. You're one of one. There's only one. The chances of you being on this earth are one in 440 trillion. You won the lotto. One heartbeat, one set of fingerprints. There's only one of one. And you're one of one that was put on this earth to do something really important. And when you exited that for what was a monetary gain, the loss was insurmountable because you realized that you didn't have anything to do with money, had to do with really helping people save their loved ones lives. And that's, there's no greater purpose. And then with the fentanyl issue now, I didn't have a choice. I had to come back because I have children and I didn't want to be punished. Yeah. Well, I know that's insane. It's not insane. It's a reality. You know, I think you said it to me once. What's the biggest lie that kills more alcoholics than any other lie? You got to do it for yourself. Yeah, do it for any reason. What's so ever? Whatever thin thread gets you in the door. The long and short of that thread is that it can be woven into a beautiful blanket. Well, the problem is now is that you were out of time, right? So you can't, it doesn't matter why you get sober. You're exactly right. You just have to do it and you got to do it now. And if you're a parent and you're like thinking that, you know, he's going to grow out of it or, you know, he should go to a, a, if he's struggling or, you know, whatever, stop it. They're your children. They're your children. We're responsible for our children. We're responsible for our upbringing. We're the adult. They're the child. Yeah. You know, and, and, and an undeveloped mind. I mean, I think there's several things. We're out of time in so many ways that the fentanyl epidemic and the lack of experimentation, that the, the loss of what was juvenile experimentation, turning deadly. You want to try a line when you were young. You want to grab a joint from wherever you want to take something, somebody has a party and you experimented. And, and now that's a death sentence. And, and there is no experimenting. And so, you know, there's a real cost to what's happening today in the form of people really not having, there's no option. Yeah. You, I think, you know, we don't get sober to drift away into the ethers. We, we, I, at least for me, it's like, you got to have purpose in your life. You have to have meaning. You have to have a reason to get up every day and be active in life. And it's got to be something bigger than yourself, you know, there's, there's self-esteem and working. I mean, let's say that. I was just telling somebody the other day and you just touched on it. I think that was a version of sobriety is not its own gift. Well, I said, I mean, it just isn't. Okay. It, what, what happens, you know, we, we grew up in LA and AA, right? So, what happens is some well-meaning person says something that he heard from another well-meaning person who repeats it to the next guy and then repeats it to the guy after that. And nobody knows what the hell they're saying. It's groupthink, right? And I've always said that if you can't replace what you held most valuable, which was your drugs and your alcohol, with something of greater or equal value, you cannot stay sober. And why would you? Okay. When I say things like that, people go insane. You're going to go insane in a little bit when you read my book on transcendence. You're going to freak out. Okay. Good for you. Good. Do all the freaking out you want. Yes. So, you know, when I got sober, I found recovery for my drug and alcohol problem. So, so that was one path of how to deal with alcoholism addiction. I got sober and I did the things that sober people do in order to stay sober. But what I found was there was a really big gap between my physical, sobriety and my mental conditioning. Meaning, my mind for 42 years had been conditioned with a narrative from my past. And I kept listening to that narrative from my past. And it really affected how I thought about myself. And that's why you didn't like when I said I'm going to choke before I threw that football right through that. That's right. That's right. You know, because I think words are tools. Words are the word drove of our identity. And I really didn't realize how powerful my influence was over me. And at the end of the day, what I realized was that for 42 years, that there was this pen to the story of my life. And that I had given it away. This small, simple device that you can buy for $1.29 at CVS. Show me. I had, yeah. You know, this, this small little device, you know, which you can buy for $1.29 at CVS. But this one's unique because what it says on it is, my life, my pen. And I realized that I was going to change my life only if I took this back. And that's really the mission that I went on was to change the narrative of my story, myself, and become the intentional author of my life. And to get rid of the old story and not let it define me, but redefine it for me. So what you're talking about is negative self-talk. I am. I'm talking about the whole, the whole game of mental conditioning, right? Mental conditioning is how our mind gets conditioned. And self-talk is a huge component of it, right? You have thought, we have thoughts in our mind that create words, words create pictures, which pictures then create feelings in our body that can dictate our behavior. So if I'm never going to outperform my identity, if my identity is like a thermostat sitting on the wall, right? Thermometers take the temperature, thermostat, set up. My identity is like a thermostat. And my thermostat, my identity, had been conditioned by my past, instead of by me personally. And so I went on a journey of self-discovery of learning the best ways for me to reprogram and relearn how to think about myself. So the way I think about that is, you know, when I was a child, right, and not getting my needs met, right, and snapped, and beaten, and you're stupid. I'll give you something to cry about, right? All that stuff. You form something in your mind because your frontal cortex isn't developed, right? So you can't say my parents are idiots. You can't do that. Doesn't exist. It doesn't exist. So the only thing you can think of at that point with your development at that point is, I'm bad. And you must be bad because if the people that cry at you into the world don't love you, where it feels like they don't love you, then you must be bad. And then it just gets reinforced by your parents and then, you know, trying to find your way in school is a teen and it's just all of it, right? But after that, if you don't fix it, it doesn't stop. Do you know why? Yeah, because it wasn't fixed. And it stacked on top of each other and on top of each other and on top of each other and on top of each other. And the weight was too big to carry. Yeah. Yeah. There's a concept in psychology called expectancy theory and what you focus on expands. At the end of the day, you become what you think about most of the time. So with this program, think of, I always think of my mind as having a computer virus installed when at a young age that just fed on itself. That's exactly right. And so how it feeds on itself is, your mind has a dominant thought about who you are. And then it seeks through your unhealed trauma and your ill-conceived ego to find reasons that that's true. Your ego wants to help you act like you. So if you think you're bad, or I thought I was bad and I thought I wasn't good enough and I thought that I was not enough because the people put on this earth to protect me were violently abusing me and telling me I wasn't enough. And then I'd never amount to anything. My mind sought out all of the evidence to prove that it's right. That's right. All over the plate. That's right. But when do you want to change that? When do you want to let a 45-year-old man stop being run by a five-year-old child? When you take this pen back. And this is the kind of the symbol of that transformation is when I decide to write, like no one else now is going to write on the next page of the story of my life. I'm going to take this and I'm going to decide who I want to be. Okay. But when that's finally healed, for me and not for you, for me, the problem is negative self-talk all the time. And I've tried this over and over and over and over again. And I take two steps forward and two steps back. One step forward, two steps back. I mean, it's just like, you know, and I know why it's because I haven't made it a must. Right? That's the reason. If there's, if there's, if it's not, if it's not something I must do, I have to do, then it ain't getting done. Yeah. This is a great point because I think people confuse this because it's never done. Right? Your inner critic is installed to keep you safe. Your inner critic, that negative self-talk, that voice is designed to help you to survive, not to thrive. And so it's never going to lay down unless you put it down. So I'll say it this way, confidence and self-esteem are a daily battle, not a decisive victory. And this opponent needs a constant front against him in order for him to be silenced in every single moment. And at the end of the day, I always think of it like if I was a pro golfer and my inner critic was by Cadi telling me I suck and I'm going to hit every shot in the water. I don't deserve to be out here. I would fire that guy in a second. So why do I let this guy without a script of his own? And this is when you talk about a must, we must give our inner champion a voice. We must recognize we have an inner champion. We must know how to write confidence, conditioning statements. And then we need to like a computer program attack that virus every single day. And negative self-talk is the wardrobe of our identity. I've showed you the clip of Bill Buckner saying, I don't want the ground ball to go through my legs to cost us the world series. We're listening to ourselves all the time. And our ego is designed to help us act like us. And it doesn't care how it makes us feel that by the way, if the negative self-talk makes you feel bad or or makes you feel insecure, makes you feel negative, it doesn't care. It's just used to do in its job, which is to keep you safe and protected and not taking chances. Okay. So now you follow me? Yeah. Because this is the best part down. We're getting to the good part. Okay. I want you to speak to people about, you've already told people that it's a that it's a struggle to get sober. And that's true. Okay. Not so much today if because the treatment is so much better, right? And the detox is like a mild flu. Okay. So there's really no reason to be afraid. But after you get a handle on sobriety meaning it's not calling you. You can actually make the decision to pick up or not pick up. When that happens, how do you, what would you say to somebody with maybe a year or two sober to get them thriving in their life? There's an old adage thing, thing, thing, right? The first thought you're not responsible for. But you have to process it through a filter of principles, right? And that's the one thing that I learned. Within a few years of getting sober, I learned to live out of principle, not preference. And so I had a new filter to put my thoughts through, which was not preference, what's going to be easy? But what's the right principle? Do I apply to this thought? What's the right principle or action that I need to take to generate this thought? So if you talk about, if you talk about decision making versus thriving, you have to have a filter, whether it's somebody you respect, a mentor, a coach, a therapist, a counselor, a sponsor, whatever that is to run your thinking through. But then, but then you need to start to trust yourself to go out and thrive, to take productive chances in your life, to do that thing that you've been afraid to do. I so that you can to launch. Okay, they're all they've done is get loaded, right? For maybe the better part of a decade or more. I've been there. I'm not the way that you get someone to launch is you can't get someone to someone someone has to want to launch. I can't want something more than somebody else, whether it's a career, whether it's a job, whether it's a music contract, whether it's a sporting career. I can't if you want to launch, I can tell you how the choice to do that is you can move them gently to one to one to launch. You make them see that it's possible. You show them that it's possible. I think that's the one thing that I got rich that I still have today's hope. And hope is a belief about the future can be better. And that I can redefine the way that I live my life. And the way that you do that is by showing them what's possible, right? Hope stands for hold on possibilities exist. And at the end of the day, if you go back to the Stockdale paradox, right? James Stockdale Prisoner War, Vietnam, 8x6 cell, solitary confinement for four years, beaten and tortured for seven years. You know what he believed? I will get out of here. Number one, number two, it's going to be hard. And I don't know when it's going to happen. And I'll do whatever it takes while I'm here to make sure that I survive. You know who perished? The toxic positive people. The people that said will be out by Christmas. And then Christmas came and they didn't get out. And they said get out by Easter. And it didn't happen. And they died of give up by this. But when we get into early recovery, we have to have hope that if I change my behaviors, if I change the way I act. And William James did this. William James was the corollary to Freud. Freud was a let's talk about your feelings. William James was, let's talk about your behaviors. Because sometimes you can't, as you just described, you can't think your way into proper acting. But you can act your way into proper thinking. And don't get that confused with fake it till you make it. Because it's not. No, it's completely different. It's completely different. But I want you to touch on that because that is gently moving someone towards launching. Yeah, like about that. So the idea is to act as if you're the person you want to become. It starts with forming your identity. Let's use sports. Tom Brady. Tom Brady acted like a champion had championship behaviors long before he ever won his first LaBardi trophy. Right? He decided that he had an identity of how hard he was going to work, process oriented identity. And then he acted as if the behaviors that someone would engage in in order to do that. And if you want the components of it, it's make the start simple. You have to make the start into doing something new. Very simple. You have to make it easy to do. You have to do it consistently. And you have to celebrate it that that's like me. People take on these huge things when they get in. And this isn't about early sobriety, by the way. This is anybody looking to launch in life. That's right. You want to make this start very simple. Then you want to get the reps in of doing it. Do it consistently. And then celebrate it. That's like me. What I want to get back to though, Rich, is this isn't just true of people in early recovery. Limiting beliefs, all of the limiting beliefs that we have of ourselves, which are those barriers to our healthy core beliefs that have been installed by all the negative experiences we've had in our lives. Because our brain is like Velcro for negative experiences and Teflon for positive experience. Our brain is wired for negativity. That's true of everybody. We just got back from a national sales conference with a company I work for. And we had over 600 professionals in one of the largest companies in the country. And one of my co-workers asked each and every one of the people in his group to text him what their inner critic says to them the most. And of the people in his room, which was probably 50 to 60 high level executives, the number one text he got back was I'm not enough. This is not unique. What's yours? I'm not enough. Is that yours? For sure. What's yours? Mine is because I'm such a baby. Okay. And I'm such a love addict. Right? That I just, you know, like there's no one never going to be for me. Right? It's like I'm never going to. That's mine. But again, it's a never. I'm never going to find her. I'm never going to find it. I'm not enough. Oh, oh, all comedians need apply. Okay. If you're a girl and you're funny, I'm in. Go on. Come on, my kid. Got that. And I'm really good on paper. I have my next one. So what happens is it's only when you have to, you know, then cohabitate with it or that it becomes an issue. Spend any time with it. Yeah. But see? The critical talk. It's the critical talk is surrounding that entire issue. It's up to you know, you can think you have dogs. You see people in this neighborhood when you drive out here walking their dogs. Yeah. And some dogs walk in them. Yeah. Right? Who's in charge? The thinker or the thought? For the untrained mind, the thoughts in charge for the trained mind, the thinker is in charge. And we ever responsibility because thoughts are random, but thinking is not. And have you designed as a human being that's acting on something rather than reacting exactly? Have you designed a thought life that serves your purpose and goals in life? And that's something that that I'm going to start working on today. Every time I see you, which is not nearly enough, we see each other every quarter three times a year, four times a year. Okay. Not nearly enough. Every time I see you, what I want to do is I make a commitment to myself, right? To not have the critical voice. But do it differently. Make a commitment to have a healthy voice. Don't make a commitment not to do something. Make a commitment to do something. Just like you work out, just like you do lots of things consistently. Don't make a decision about what not to do. Make a decision about what to do. You don't need to. I know what I've do so many stupid things that I always want to just say, don't do it. Right. But your brain, like don't think of a pink elephant. Your brain doesn't hear the word don't. It doesn't register don't. What it hears is be critical. Don't like when you're skiing, when you're skiing, you don't say don't run into the trees. You stay ski down the path, right? So you don't want to say don't throw the don't hit the ball out of bounds. You want to say it's where you're best pitch. So you want to vote for what you want to happen happening. So instead of saying don't be negative, say time for me to give my inner champion a voice right. It is correct. I'm a sober, proud, confident, passionate entrepreneur. I'm a world class mental performance coach in a highly sought after keynote speaker. I'm a committed father and friend. I prioritize my health, exercise and eat right. That's my identity. I know it like my birthday because I recite it to myself every day to remind myself of who I am. And if you don't have an identity statement, then you're just open to the interpretation and comparison of everybody who wants to put one on you. And fuck that. That is awesome. When you're stretching, including early sobriety, including long-term sobriety, going into a new career, new face, excuse me, new phase of life, new relationship, that inner critic is indicted. And he starts to tell you the things that he whispers to you that this isn't for you. Your limiting beliefs always creep up in periods of growth. That's why I think it's Winston Churchill said when you're going through hell, keep going. The idea is that obstacles make us strong. You want to lean into growth and not into fear. And leaning into growth is just simply charging into the storms and saying, look, this is for me. I'm going through this. What happens in the gym when you break when you lift weights? What happens to your muscles in the gym when you're lifting? Microtairs. Microtairs, it's called stress and adaptation. They break down. What happens when you get done at the gym? You drink your protein shake and you go through your recovery mode. What happens to your muscles? They repair. And get bigger. Why? Because your body knows you're going to stress them again and they want you to be stronger. It's the same thing with adversity in our life, right? Turn adversity into your advantage. Turn fear into fuel and failure is feedback. Look through the windshield of your car, not the fucking rear view mirror. And start getting hopeful about the future that you have. And then act as if you're the kind of person that can make that happen. What I'm hearing is when you're scared of something, right? You run through it. It's exactly what I'm saying. So you know the story of the cow's nabuffalo? Do you know the story about the crocodile and the scorpion? Yes. I'm just a scorpion. All right, tell me yours. So in Montana, I was in Montana for vacation last year, right? There's two animals that share the planes in Montana, the cows and the buffalo. When the huge storms come over the planes in Montana, and I played golf with the manager of the local Costco, he said, the storms were so bad that the hail totaled three of his employees cars, totaled their cars. The hail is so bad. That's awesome. When the cows sense those storms coming over the planes, they get petrified and they turn away from the storms and they run out of fear. And so the storms are on the cows for an extended period of time and they get decimated as a result of running away from the storms. The buffalo on the other hand, same storm, turn, shoulder up together, face and charge directly into the storms. They get stronger, survive in great numbers as a result of taking on that adversity and getting through it faster instead of letting it stay on them. So adversity is coming in all of our lives. We can either be a cow and run from it and get decimated and have the effects of it last longer, or we can rip the bandaid off, face it and say, look at the end of the day like those micro tears in our muscle that stress and adeptation. When I get through this, I'll have learned something. I'll be stronger as a result of it. So I'm not going to run from it. I'm going to face that storm and I'm going to run through it. And that's the message for all of us. And that's why to me, adversity, bring it on. Bring it on. All right. I want to do one more thing before we go. Okay. You know, I always ask this question because it's my biggest fear. Do you know anybody who's died of fentanyl? I have a friend of mine who's son died of fentanyl overdose from buying drugs online. The relates with fentanyl. Online is the same is on the street. The exact same. Yeah. It's, you know, I'll tell you, when I was using, I was doctor shopping. First pharmacies didn't have the cross referencing. It's like, I'm petrified. If I was still in that active addiction, meaning my fix, we'd be dead. Dead. We'd be dead. Dead. There is no chance. I would be alive. The amount of street drugs that I bought in the back alleys of industrial parks and the amount of flexibility I had when doctors were giving me 100 scripts with three refills that you can't get today. And that's how I was able to, that was able to have a state of good. You used to be able to doctor shop and get away with it for years and make friends with the pharmacist. And now the parameters are so strict, I would, I would be, I'd be dead. For sure, I'd be tertiary. For sure. So we're definitely out of time. You know, what time for our youth? What time for America, you know, today? Can I ask you one question? It's been bothering me. Yeah. How's that kid's father with the son that died of fentanyl? I'll never be the same. When was the last time you saw him? Friday. How long did it happen? Three years ago. Brecht? Don't never be the same. My biggest fear. Never be the same. My biggest fear. Understandably. All right, through. How can people find you? So my primary network is on social media. I'm on Instagram at Charlie Smith Speaks. I'm on LinkedIn under Charlie Smith. I have a Facebook account starting a YouTube channel and relaunching a podcast. But those are both in the works right now. And my website is Charlie Smith Speaks.com. That's fantastic. I'll see you next Tuesday. We're out of time. Please subscribe on YouTube, click the thumbs up and leave a comment. Please subscribe on Apple Podcasts and Spotify and leave a rating and a review. And share the we're out of time podcast with others you know who will get value out of it. See you next Tuesday.