Elizabeth Banks Married Her College Sweetheart. They’re Still in Love.

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And today on the show, I'm talking to actor, producer, and director, Elizabeth Banks. Elizabeth starred in some of the most iconic series of my teenage years. We've got Pitch Perfect, the movies that put acapella on the map, and maybe even did The Impossible, which is make acapella cool. Also The Hunger Games, which transformed a book series I loved into a series of movies I loved even more. On screen, Elizabeth's characters are kooky, they can be brash, they're very big. Which is why her new TV show, The Miniature Wife, is so intriguing to me because her character is very small. And I mean this literally, she's tiny. She plays a woman who is shrunk down to a minuscule size by her scientist husband. It's absurd, but it tugs at a very real relationship problem. This idea that our partners can make us feel deprioritized and unimportant, they can make us feel small. Today, Elizabeth tells me how she and her husband have avoided this dynamic. From their start as college sweethearts who met on the very first day of freshman year to now after 33 years of marriage. Elizabeth, thanks, welcome to Modern Love. Thanks for having me, hi. Hi. Okay, I'm gonna start off this conversation by sharing something perhaps a bit vulnerable, which is I was in an acapella group in college and not only that, but I was the beatboxer. So I will say your work on Pitch Perfect is deeply, deeply personal to me. So thank you so much for that. Wow, and I have a feeling, Pitch Perfect helped make acapella kind of cool, right? Before that, if you were doing it and you were beatboxing, I have to say you probably were, you were on an island with other acapella people. Yeah, yeah. And having a great time, but it's akin to going to band camp, don't you think? I was gonna say, you are doing a thing, Rob, it's like she's insulting me upon first meeting me, but you really did turn that chip around, you did. You know, to each his own, and you really found your people, it sounds like. I did find my people. The beatboxing was actually sort of more out of necessity. I wasn't getting any solos, which was obviously, it was hurtful at first. And then I was like, you know what? I'm pretty loud. I can make sounds with my mouth. Yeah. Can you tell me a little more about why you wanted to explore this world of acapella? Then I promise we'll move on from this again, sort of personal interest point of mind, but what about that world was so intriguing to you? Well, I think we find any group of people who take something incredibly seriously in their own little world to be funny, right? It's what Christopher Guest does so well in all of his comedies. A big part of it too is you're on this team and you don't want to let the team down. I should probably reveal at this point that I was like not that good of a beatboxer. So I'm like, here's my acapella group is listening. They're like, I mean, you did let us down. Oh geez. That's the great thing about when I went to school, there were no videos. There's just no evidence. It just doesn't exist. No one's gonna know. You can say you were fantastic. A very small group of people who aren't gonna say you weren't. Let's talk about your video list college experience. Who were you in college? Who was I in college? It's funny. I was thinking about, you were asking, this is modern love and my husband and I met my first day of college. Wow. And I remember going to him and asking, I was thinking about trying to figure out like, okay, what do I do with my extracurricular time? Like who am I? It's kind of the exact question you're asking me. I was trying to figure that out for myself. And in high school, I sort of was like a cheerleader and I did the play and I loved working musical theater. But I just was like, is that who I am in college? Am I doing musical theater? Or am I gonna try to be a little more popular? And I was like, I'm thinking about going out for either the play or the cheerleading team. And my husband was like, the play, like for sure the play. And I thought, oh, he's so cultured and that must be why he wants me to go out for the play. And he simply thought that if I made the cheerleading team, I would stop dating him. No. Elizabeth, oh my God. It was calculated. It was really worried that if I became a cheerleader, I might not keep dating him. You met him the first day of school. That's remarkable. I did. Can you describe, I mean, first impressions? Yeah, what did you get from him? What was he like? He was very confident. That's a very attractive quality. He was very confident, clearly very intelligent. We talked a lot that first meeting. We went deep fast and the conversation was not small talk. It was really about many things, including like the environment and what he was studying and sort of like what the world was like. And it was really interesting. And then I was like, do you want my number? And he said, yeah, I don't have a phone. And he'll tell you. Who was that another like issue? He'll tell you. He really had not. It was just like day one of school. So he had not set up his phone yet. And this was before cell phones because I am old. And I just thought, OK, man, if you don't want my number, that's cool. But don't tell me you don't have a phone. Like you can't figure out how to like. And he literally was like, I literally don't know a number. I wouldn't know. I'm like, I'm trying to give you my number. Like I don't need your number. You call me. Figure out how to do it, man. And it was just like a funny little bit. He's like, it's impossible. We can't do it. Yeah. He basically was like, it's not possible. Like I gotta go. I'm going to go flirt with other girls now because it's night one of college. And by the way, we had that like Facebook. I realized like the real one, the one that Mark Zuckerberg based Facebook on. Like a yearbook? Yes. It's like everyone's pictures, like the incoming classes pictures are in a book that you like flip through. And I think he had looked at a couple other girls that he wanted to go try and meet that night. So he was cocky and confident and intelligent. And those are all very attractive things, actually. And he was really handsome. He looked like 90210 was very popular back then. He looked like Jason Priestley. Ooh. And he was very tan because it was like the end of summer. OK, you're painting a very intoxicating picture. Yeah, I had a hot guy on the line. Well, not really though, right? Because you tried to give him your number. And he said, unfortunately, I don't have a phone. So what happened next? How did you end up painting? Well, I was playing. You know, it wasn't like my life was ending if he didn't take my night. You know, I was like, I had, it was going to be a fine night. I wasn't in love in two seconds. And I was like, he's cute. And then I kept going with my life. And what happened was in that first week, we met each other again and again. We just kept running into each other. And so we met up again two nights later. And he said, do you remember my name? And I said, you're Max. Do you remember my name? He said, yes. And he said, I even remember what you were wearing, which he did. And he still does. We still both remember what we were wearing. OK, well, tell me what both of you were wearing. I had on cut off jean shorts. Like Daisy Dukesies cut types of things. And I was wearing a Boston Red Sox cap because I'm a proud Massachusetts person. That's cool. Yeah. That is a cool ensemble. The hat really top. And what was he wearing? He was wearing a vest with no shirt, which he's endlessly been made fun of. And now we're doing it on a New York Times podcast. But he and like jeans, which were, and he looked great. I mean, as you as you kept having these crossovers, you're getting to know him more and more, what was your what was your connection like? How did you feel around him? How did you know that this was going to be something deeper than a hookup or a fling? Well, he took me on one of the best dates I've ever been on in my life. We went to we went downtown and, you know, I'm from from the country. I'm from Western Massachusetts. I grew up in like the biggest city in Western Massachusetts, which is a factory town surrounded by farms. But I remember taking a taxi with him and he got out and he said, just give me three back or something like that. And I thought, oh, man, that was so hot. He like knows how to tip the taxi driver. And he's like, it just seems so cool. Totally. So adult. And then we went into this beautiful like underground jazz club with a singer and like a two drink minimum. And they didn't ask for ID. Nobody cared. We ended up sitting listening to this incredible singer and we drank bourbon and I never really had bourbon. And I thought like it felt very like my adult life was beginning. You know, I was leaving really leaving childhood behind. Like I knew when I got to college, I would feel that way, but I really felt that way with him like, wow, this is like what adults do. I'm going to have an adult relationship with this person. It's going to be deep and intense. And we're going to do cool things together, which we did and still do. Was that scary too? Cause I remember a moment where I like met someone and I was like, oh, this is kind of the real deal. You know, like this is no longer like this is an adult relationship. Like you're talking about it. And half of me was thrilled because it's fun to grow up. And I feel like the other half of me was like, oh my God, I really have to do this. Like I don't know what to do. I'm scared. I've never had something like this. Was there any element of that for you? To be honest, we were so young that I just felt like I was cool to be in. I had been in love. I had a high school boyfriend that I loved and I was cool. I was like, yeah, love's cool. I'd be in love with somebody. And if we break up, we break out. Like I was not in it for the long haul. I didn't meet my husband the first day of college. I met a really great boyfriend who over a long time became the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. Can I like, as it started to get more serious, how did you two talk about the future? I'll be honest, I came at it pretty selfishly. I applied to drama school and I got in and it was in San Francisco, which at the turn of the millennium was like the hottest place in the world to live because it was Silicon Valley. And it just so happened that I was going there for grad school and he was working in New York at that point already. And he's the one, I can say it wholeheartedly, he made the decisions to kind of keep us together because he transferred to his job to San Francisco so he could come and be with me. And then when I went back to New York, he came back and then I was like, I really don't want to ask him to leave New York again, but I think I have to go to LA and I don't know what to do. And he said, listen, I'll apply to MBA programs. I'll apply to UCLA. And if I get in, we'll go. And I think that's really important. Like we just kept figuring out ways to like grow together, stay together, do it together, stay in a partnership. You know, like we kept trying to like build the life that we could see for each other, like on our own terms, but I think he was completely supportive of this dream that I had, that I was going to go be an actor. You know, we were still sort of like playing it fast and loose and like, is this, is this really it? Because when we decided yet really was it. And I, and we had that conversation in San Francisco in a bar one night where we were like, everything that's come before, who cares? Like from here on out, are we in it? Are we doing this? Like we're not getting married tomorrow, but like, are we going to keep trying to stay together? And we had a really intense, good conversation where we're like, yeah, let's do it. Like, let's not, like we're committing. Let's do it. Let's commit to each other. And since then we have. Can I, and you can share as much as you want. But at the end, sometimes with these bigger conversations in my experience, these big conversations, it's kind of hard to know when the conversation is done. You know what I mean? It's like, okay, well, there you go. How did you, did you like take a shot? Did you kiss? Like when you, how did you know that like, okay, we've decided. I'm sure that I got laid. I'm sure I got laid. No, you know, we definitely, we definitely got a little tipsy. I remember we were a little tipsy and, you know, look, it's, it's such, it's called true serum for a reason, right? It was like, you know, and I think we were a little emotional and I was going to be leaving. So, you know, there was no doubt, like I'm graduating, I'm leaving San Francisco. Like I was not going to stay in San Francisco and he was going to have to figure out how to leave as well. And so it was really just, I think there was a lot of unanswered sort of questions and that's a lot of pressure on a 25 year old. Like I think all of that was brewing and came out in this moment of like, let's commit, let's get into a partnership agreement. You know, we're not signing any papers, but let's say these things out loud to each other so we know, so we can hold each other to it. It sounds like there were still so many. I mean, you know, you would know idea, of course, no one ever does what was in the future, but it sounds like that moment you were like, I'm committed to, to you and to, to going into this future, this unknown with you. Does that, is that how it felt? Absolutely. And I just had that, a similar conversation now it's 30, gosh, how many years into this are we 33 years into it? I just, you know, after, after my birthday last month had like a, okay, so the next five years, like it's going to, you know, we're going to have a lot of, I'm preparing for a lot of loss. I am very lucky. I have both my parents right now, but that luck just time is going to, you know, it's going to take them. My kids are going to leave home because that's, that's what my job as a parent is, is to make sure they can go live their own lives. So I'll be sending them off. And I just was like, wow, I am, I know what the next five years looks like. And it's, there's going to be a lot of loss in our life. And so we need to really partner up and hold hands and like, we got to get, we got to, we got to, I don't know, batten down the hatches, you know? I mean, it sounds like the foundation in a lot of ways of your relationship, of your marriage with your husband are these conversations, quite difficult conversations about what the next steps are, you know, planning on the future together, making decisions together. This to me is a big contrast from the marriage we see in your new show, the miniature wife, I'm going to set the scene a bit. You play Lindy, a Pulitzer Prize winning author who has lots of success in her career in New York. She's married to a scientist played by Matthew McFaddean, who moved their family to the Midwest to work on his top secret formula. If you were in Lindy's shoes, how would you react to that move? Well, I mean, similarly, I think to my husband and I moving across the country for each other is like, you have, she in the show has to find her own reason to go and so she goes and becomes a professor at the, you know, Wash U in St. Louis where they're going to live. And, but she thinks it's very temporary. The thing that goes wrong for them is they, I think, have a plan and they do talk about it and they do create sort of a partnership and how they're going to do something. It's just the way they do it is so messed up. And then, and then it, it goes sideways because one of them's, you know, they're like, well, he's going to support me while I do one thing, but then I'm going to take time away from my career and support him while he does his thing. And then his thing is like a 20 year like time horizon. And she's like, whoa, this, this is taking way long. I'd like to get back to my thing. And he's like, no, no, no, I need you to support me so I can do my thing. And that's just completely unhealthy. So the two of them just have had, they have a much less healthy idea of what it is to be in a supportive relationship. They're not each allowing the other to do their own thing and like come together on it. They're not really in a partnership. They're in a competition. And I see a lot of couples in competition with each other. A lot of couples. Yeah. I think a lot of couples are doing, um, they're doing the, the checking, you know, well, I did this and you did this and what did you do? And I did this and I did this and what did you do? Well, I take a tally sheet and I think if you're doing a constant tally sheet, like, are you in a partnership? Like, are you like checking the, like, do you have the same list that you're both checking stuff off of? Or do you have two separate lists? It's a great question. You know, it's like, it has to be negotiated in a healthy way. I think it seems like you and your husband have really sort of worked out. I'm not saying it's smooth sailing all the time. Of course, no relationship is, but it seems like. You've worked out a system. I don't know what you want to call it. You've worked out this dynamic where you don't have that kind of competition. You don't have that tension. And I want to really, because I think, you know, like, again, I said, I admire it and I really want to know what that means in practice. How did you arrive at that place? Is it like you have bi-weekly check-ins? Like, what's the, is there a secret? The re, my husband and I work together. We are partners in a production company. And we do all, like truly are 95% of our work life outside of the acting, I should say. We really try to do in some sort of partnership. And honestly, it was completely practical. What became apparent was I was going to be traveling all the time for the work that I was doing. It was already happening. And so living in LA, being together was like, he was graduating from business school and he was looking at jobs that were like, you know, you get two weeks off and, you know, maybe you get a vacation in the summer and, you know, you got to work, you know, nine to nine every day if you want to get ahead. And it was like, I'm never going to see this guy. And we've, we've made all these decisions to, to bring our lives together so that we can make a life together and have a family together and be each other's family. And all, and suddenly it looked like it wasn't going to happen. And yeah, it started from there. It was really practical. It was like, how do we spend the time we want to spend together and not have me always be away? And we just figured we should do it. We should just like do it together, see how it goes. And it's gone pretty well. It's really sweet because I feel like it kind of flouts the conventional wisdom, which is like, never, ever, ever work with your significant other. And in fact, you found that the, the way to spend the time that you wanted with your significant other was to work with them. It's like, you've really kind of flipped the script here in a way that seems to have really worked for you guys. We just work really well together. There are people all the time that say to us, like, how do you work with your husband? And honestly, it comes very naturally. We are just there for each other to like vent and we don't take it personally. And the business is like what it is. And it's hard. It's really hard work, but we have been able to build a lot of really cool things together. Stay with us. If you're a parent of a teen or have teens in your life, it can be hard to figure out the right way to approach social media and technology. 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You can find a couple that are important to you. And it's a very interesting way to tackle that problem. They go to Burning Man together. Why did you choose this essay? Well, interestingly, I actually know several middle-aged, 25 years in people who have gone to Burning Man. Ina, for the same reason. Like, gosh, we've been doing this a long time. Like, how do we keep it spicy? And or one of them always wanted to go. And, you know, I find it, I find it. I if I could transport there and then immediately transport out when I wanted to, then yes, I would 100 percent. It's something I would want to take in. But the whole notion of the build up to it and the getting there and the getting out of it and the whole thing. I'm like, I don't. It's not for me. I completely agree. But Albersp- Hey, what about those friends that went to spice up their relationship? Did it work? It kind of did. It did. It did help them. OK. And that's also why I thought this was a really interesting, interesting notion. And I also think there's so much in the zeitgeist right now about menopausal women just not having any fucks left to give to their relationships. And I don't want to deny that feeling because it exists. Like, you were changing, you know, and I read this beautiful thing that was like, the way to stay in love is you don't love the same person. You love the person that changes and you keep learning them and learning how to love them over time because we do change. And I for sure, as I said, my 52nd birthday was like a moment where I was like, wow, this next little bit is going to be hard. And I just want to check in with my partner and say, like, we got this, right? Because this isn't going to be easy for us. So you got to hold on to the people that are propping you up because we really need each other right now. And so sometimes you got to go to Burning Man. And sometimes that's what I was just going to say. That's it. And sometimes that person wants to go to Burning Man and you got to go because that's what they need. That's what marriage is, maybe. OK, I can't wait to hear you read this essay. This essay is from a few years back, but I think it's still really resonant, excited to hear you read it whenever you're ready. Making Space in Marriage Even as the Walls Close In by Deborah Jo Immigut. It was a week before our 25th anniversary and I wanted out. John and I were sitting in a tent pavilion as women in tiny thongs, platform boots and pasties snaked past us in a line for free ice cream. There behinds, nearly grazing our noses. I glanced at my husband. He looked on affably as if trying to channel Fred Rogers. And even though I had been crying most of the day, I had to smile. When we were halfway through our virgin trip to Burning Man, the temporary metropolis that rises in the remote Nevada desert each summer, taking part had long been John's dream and my nightmare. But now that equation had been turned on its head and this voyage had become the inflection point of our marriage, eight days that would save it or destroy it. We had spent four nights camped out among dust devils, nonstop electronic music and some 70,000 utopia seekers, most of them closer to our son's age than ours. We had four nights to go. John first began lobbying for us to go more than two decades earlier. As a reporter, he had traveled to Nevada's Black Rock Desert, the famed Playa, to interview the events founder, Larry Harvey. John fell in love with the landscape, a flat white vastness rimmed by mountains and was impressed by Harvey, who started this annual crucible of creativity when he built a wooden man and then torched it, a ritual he hoped would help him heal from a broken heart. My husband is a shaggy haired, polite Texan with a thirst for wide open spaces. He became convinced that seeing a massive artwork burn in the desert amid throngs of revelers was something he needed to do and he wanted to do it with me. As each year's late summer burn took place, he would sigh and say, some day we're going. Every time I would sigh and say, no way. To me, an East Coast skeptic with a delicate digestion, it seemed a hellscape of extraversion, new age art and portable toilets. Besides, our life together was already plenty adventurous. We had fallen in love as students amid the cornfields and dive bars of an Iowa college town, moved to Washington DC, spent five years in Europe, then relocated to New York, where our son was born. 15 years ago, we left the city for a small Massachusetts town. Every so often, John would bring up Burning Man saying, but you'd like it. Naked people tripping in the desert, I'd say, you'd like it. Not me. Then our son, our only child, chose a university thousands of miles away. Menopause swept over me like a lightning storm. I'm not talking about hot flashes. I felt lit up. The comforts of cozy domesticity seemed diminished. I had freedom and space. I craved more. I noticed there were men beyond my husband and son and that they were noticing me. It was confusing and exhilarating. Over a Sunday lunch, I told John that I needed to crack a window. I felt pressure building. You want to have an affair? He said grimly. Just some breathing room, a little give so the whole thing doesn't break apart. It felt like the hardest conversation of our marriage and ended in a bit of a stalemate. The outlines of our new deal, if that's what it was, were vague. He said he would try to give me space, but needed to trust that I wouldn't hurt him. I won't, I said. You can have space too. He shook his head. I don't want it. I had no desire to hurt John or myself. I longed for our connection to be recharged, but instead it wobbled. John seemed angry and sad. I felt distracted, drifting. Some days I felt real danger as if I might actually just drift away. That dark part of me wanted to see it happen. It scared me. Two years ago, as our 25th anniversary loomed, it dawned on me. Bold action was required. No nice dinner or overnight at a quiet inn. We need new material, I told John. We need to do something seriously out of our comfort zone. Burning man, he said. Eek, I said. He found us tickets. I tried to imagine using over-subscribed portable toilets for eight days. He wanted uncomfortable, he said. Not that uncomfortable. He rented us an RV with a bathroom. When I told a friend about the plan, she said, when I hear burning man, I think sand in vagina. Another told of a friend who had lost his wife there. Two days later, she struggled back to their camp, announced she had met her soulmate in a meditation circle and left in the other guy's car. In the weeks that followed, we both waffled, right up until we either had to confirm the RV or lose our big deposit. John lay awake all night. I mean, this was all his idea. What if it broke us up? What about those meditation circles? I woke with a thought. I had asked for freedom and space, and he had offered an anarchic party in an endless desert. How could I not take him up on it? Let's go for it, I said. I was going to cancel. Then he shrugged, but you know how long I've wanted this. We rushed to gather supplies, solar lamps, dust masks, tarps, also tutus and fantastic hats. In Las Vegas, we loaded the RV with 36 gallons of water, avocados for me, beef jerky for John. The scale of the Burning Man encampment was vaster than I had imagined. We ended up parking our rig amid a little village of fellow outliers, including a Nevada state trooper and his wife and two 20-something nurses from Alaska. During the day, John and I would bike lazily through the heat or shelter under our jury-rigged tarp. At night, we garland our bodies with rainbow LEDs and zoomed past glowing art installations. We danced in down-countless, free cocktails, surrounded by flesh, naked or nearly, shimming on top of cars that had been transformed in cathedrals and spaceships or lined up at the horrifying potties. On the morning of the fourth day, with four to go, I dissolved into a mess of dust, sweat and tears. I cried in our hot trailer filled with doubts about this dubious, desperate undertaking about our relationship, about everything. Whatever I was missing, it wasn't here. I wanted to leave. If you want to go, we'll go, John said, holding me tightly. He needed the catharsis of seeing the man burn. Somehow, I understood this. I took a deep breath and dried my dirty face on his shirt. By that afternoon, as we ate ice cream among the throng-clad beauties, I regained my mojo. Later, a veteran burner told me, everyone cries on the fourth day. We stayed to see the man collapse into flames, and then for the final act, the incident happened. John seemed to float through these climactic moments in extreme happiness. And it wasn't drugs. He was as straight as a yardstick. Watching him, I realized that I was happy too. Not only have we made it through, we had entered the next room of our marriage. I had asked him to crack a window. I thought, I'm going to be a good girl. I'm going to be a good girl. I'm going to be a good girl. I'm going to be a good girl. I asked him to crack a window as a possible escape route. But the opening had instead led in oxygen. We had created for ourselves a bigger space. It felt exciting to think about exploring it together. How deeply did we get into the spirit of that bacchanal? Let's just say that one evening out on the fringe of the encampment, there was dancing, two bare-skinned bodies casting long shadows across the flats as if pointing toward the future. Two years later, we're experiencing the opposite of Burning Man, hunkered with our son in our old New England house as the pandemic sweeps the globe. Yet I think we internalized enough of that wide open space to know the need for psychic distance in our marriage and we're better at maintaining it while still sharing love and support during a frightening time. The year we burned feels like it happened in another eon, but it's less than stuck and is maybe even more relevant now. It takes fresh air to feed a fire. We'll be right back. Losing weight is one thing, but keeping it off, that's where it gets really frustrating. That's why Weight Loss by Hers now offers access to the FDA approved WGOVY pill and the FDA approved WGOVY pen. WGOVY is designed to help you lose weight and keep it off. 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Well, I love that it brings to mind these great conversations that you have to have with a partner about like, where are we and where are we going and what's ahead for us and how do we get there and do we do it together and, you know, all those big questions and check-ins that you have to have. And I love that this couple had that check-in and then figured out how to honor one of their dreams, you know, and somebody had to make a little sacrifice. Yeah. And that's typically what has to happen. Somebody's got to make a little sacrifice. Both you and your husband have had to make sacrifices. I wonder if you can share like a moment of that or a stage in your relationship where you had to make a sacrifice or or he did for the good of the relationship, for the sake of the relationship. Every time a big job comes up that takes me out of town, we have to have a conversation like this. So we have them all the time, actually. Right. Because, you know, I got really good advice as a young mom when I was parenting my little toddlers and trying to go to set and do it all. And I remember someone saying to me, like, you think you need to be there when there are three, but really make sure you're there when there are 13. Because they need that. There are 13. I mean, we all remember 13. It's the worst. It's the hardest. It's the worst. And it's also when you're getting wired to be a human, you know, in a real way. They're contemplating really big things and the consequences of their decisions are so much greater. And so I now have a 13 and a 15 year old and I really love I'm addicted to them. And I love hanging out with them and I love being around them. It's so it's become, you know, really important, I think, for our family to recognize how little time we have together, the four of us together. And so every time I get a big job now, it's like, well, what is the sacrifice and, you know, and what do we need? It's been a really interesting series of conversations over the last few years. It feels like a really tough decision to make. Have you turned? Have you turned down? It isn't because at the end of the day, at the end of the day, you almost, I mean, to be honest, like there are very few jobs that beat playing mahjong with my 15 year old. Wow. Y'all are mahjong family. I like hearing that. And we are a mahjong family. Yes. You know, in the in the essay, you just read the author uses this metaphor that I really love. She says when she realizes she's happy with her husband again, she says it's like their relationship or it's like they have entered a new room. A new room. A new room. And we're talking about your two kids. Did parenthood feel like entering a new room for you and your husband? Of course. I think it is for. I mean, there's no preparing. It doesn't matter who you are or what, you know, I mean, I, I grew up surrounded by little kids and I have babysat my little siblings. And, you know, I'm very comfortable with babies and I'm a pretty confident mom. But it just doesn't matter because you don't know what you're going to get. You know, there's just like, so they're just a vector of factors that, you know, drops into your life. And you're like, yeah, I mean, of course, it's a whole other room. I mean, it's a room for both people too, because it's a, it's an expansion of who you are both individually, you know, like my husband is my husband, he's also a father to my sons. He's not my father, right? He's their father. Like he has to figure out how to be a father and I have to figure out how to be a mother, like, and then we have to be parents together. But those are three different identities, you know? You know, you're speaking about wanting to you and your husband being on the same page that you wanted a family. You've talked before about having kids through surrogacy. And I wonder if you could share however much you want to share about what that process was like for you too. That's a big question. I know. I know. No, it's no secret. My husband and I had to use gestational surrogacy to have our kids, which basically means we make a baby cake and then we bake it in another woman's oven. So we, I just was, I never, I've never been pregnant, which is, and it's funny because when I, when we were having trouble getting pregnant, the very first thing that the fertility doctor asked me was, have you ever been pregnant? And I thought, what a weird question. And he said, well, not really. I mean, you've been, when did you start having sex? And I was like 15 and a half or something, 16. And he's like, well, so in the 20 years you've been having sex, like you never had a scare and you're like, right, wow, yeah, like women get pregnant, you know, when they have sex for 20 years on pretty consistently. And so it was my first wake up call of like, huh, yeah, maybe something's not totally right here. And he told me in that very first meeting, he was like, I think surrogacy is going to be for you, but we can go through IVF and do all the things. And we did. I did. We undertook nine procedures to have our two sons. But I will say this, it was for my husband and I who feel pretty lucky in our relationship that we found each other and that we were able to build this life together, it was for sure the hardest thing that we've ever had to go through together. I imagine we've been speaking about the conversations that you and your husband have had really since the beginning of your relationship. And I imagine there must have been, I mean, that conversation where you're grappling with the possibility that you might not have the family you always pictured in your future. I mean, that feels like a deeply painful and difficult conversation that you two navigated together. Yeah, absolutely. I mean, look, there's it's a loss. So I really tell people that are going through infertility. You are your morning, you know, this like basic thing that you've been told your body can do and then suddenly it's not going to do it. And you're not just mourning like, oh, my body doesn't work. You're like, oh, it's not going to I'm not going to have a I'm not going to have a baby. I've never, you know, I never got to sing to my baby in my belly. So those like little things that you think are going to just come very naturally are suddenly not going to be yours. I think the main thing was we kept holding out hope. We we we did not have we had moments of hopelessness, but we had each other. And it was accepting that we needed that help. That was, you know, I don't I we didn't get to that happily. Right. We didn't get to that. Like, yay, we can't wait. We got to that through mourning and and then found somebody who really sought as the gift that we needed in that moment. And it was great. In another interview, you called your relationship with your husband the thing that you're the most proud of. I mean, I feel like I've sort of asked you this question in various disguises throughout this conversation. But can you just sort of tell me how does a couple get to that point? Um, I don't know. I don't have any. I've only been in this one relationship. And I've never done, you know, I'm 52, so I've never done 53 in a relationship. I've never done. I've never had a 16 year old before. Right. Like I'm new to I think you got to acknowledge like I'm just I'm just trying to be kind and open and loving and accepting and all of the things that I want in that I want to be that I want from someone else. And and so I don't know. I have no answers. I really don't. I feel like you know some stuff and you've shared some stuff over this course. I will say, even if you say you don't know right now, I'm like, I'm going to listen back to this. I think I'm going to get a lot of. Like I give people really frank and what I consider a solid advice, which is if you want to stay in a relationship. And I think Deborah Joe was worried about this when in her making space in marriage, even as the walls close in, the main thing I tell people is try not to fuck other people. That's it. It's like a really basic level of respect. Yeah, that's a big one. Unless let's say this, it's an open relationship in which case the term yeah, figure it out or like you or you're a burning man and you know, everything's just flowing and it feels really great. Like, OK, I mean, do what you got to do. But at the end of the day, I find that actually is the advice that people don't want to acknowledge is just like the truest advice. I mean, just try to stay in it even when it's hard because there everything comes in stages and there's phases and all those things. It's not the same every day. Every day is different. Elizabeth Banks, thank you so much for this conversation. I so enjoyed it. Thank you. If you want to read Deborah Joe Imergut's modern love essay that we talked about in today's episode, we'll have the link in our show notes. The modern love team is Davis Land, Elisa Gutierrez, Lynn Levy, Emily Lang, Amy Pearl, Riva Goldberg and Sarah Curtis. This episode was produced by Emily Lang and Elisa Gutierrez. It was edited by Lynn Levy. Our mix engineer was Daniel Ramirez, original music in this episode by Alicia B. E. Toup, Rowan Nemistow, Marion Lazano, Pat McCusker and Dan Powell. Dan also composed our theme music. The modern love column is edited by Daniel Jones and Mia Lee is the editor of Modern Love Projects. If you'd like to submit an essay or a tiny love story to The New York Times, we have the instructions in our show notes. I'm Anna Martin. Thanks for listening. Music. Real talent is defined by what people can do, not just where they learn to do it. 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