Girl Just Heal

Girl, Go to God FIRST

35 min
Apr 8, 202611 days ago
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Summary

Host Nimoya Bayes discusses the importance of consulting God first in all life decisions rather than relying on personal understanding, therapists, friends, or family. Using personal examples including grief from losing her son and preparing a keynote speech, she emphasizes that life's challenges are designed to draw people closer to God and reinforce His position as the primary source of guidance and comfort.

Insights
  • Prioritizing God in decision-making before consulting other resources (therapists, friends, family) leads to clearer outcomes and reduced emotional burden
  • Life's hardships and storms serve as divine mechanisms to redirect attention and realign priorities toward God rather than punitive measures
  • Building a consistent spiritual practice requires intentional rewiring of habitual behaviors, similar to breaking other ingrained patterns
  • Mental health support (therapy) is valuable but should complement rather than replace spiritual consultation and prayer
  • Vulnerability and public healing create community and inspire others to share their own journeys authentically
Trends
Growing intersection of mental health advocacy and faith-based wellness in personal development contentShift toward 'healing out loud' culture where vulnerability is reframed as strength rather than weaknessIncreased emphasis on establishing hierarchical priorities in relationships with God positioned as primaryIntegration of grief processing with spiritual deepening as a pathway to personal transformationWomen-centered faith communities leveraging podcasting as primary platform for spiritual guidance and peer support
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People
Nimoya Bayes
Host of Girl Just Heal podcast; shares personal grief journey from losing her son and professional speaking experience
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Listener who left 5-star review; inspired by the show to start her own podcast for women
Quotes
"We are coming out of hiding. We don't have to heal and hide no more."
Nimoya BayesEarly episode
"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways, acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."
Nimoya Bayes (Proverbs 3:5-6)Mid-episode
"God, I love you. And I am so sorry because I did not even consult you to ask you to reveal to me what it is I need to say to this group of students."
Nimoya BayesMid-episode
"I just feel like God is drawing me closer to him. There's a piece that only comes from God and that's what I have been chasing after."
Nimoya BayesLate episode
"I accept myself for who I am. I free myself from all fear. And today I choose to heal."
Nimoya Bayes (Girl Just Heal Mantra)Episode closing
Full Transcript
Hey homegirls, welcome to another episode of the girl just held podcast. It's your favorite homegirl, Neymoya Bayes, then, and the episode you are about to listen to it is a replay episode. Now let me just tell you, y'all already know we are gearing up to start our faith series. And I hope that y'all have been really marinating on the scripture that I said a couple of episodes ago, baby. If you don't know, I'm going to need you to go back and I'm going to need you to listen and meditate on that scripture. And I hope that you are just gearing up and ready for this faith series. So y'all already know I need y'all to grab your journals. I need y'all to get comfy because we are about to talk about this. And I really want you to take notes. I get you something right with. So without further ado, we're going to go ahead and get into the episode. Y'all already know go to girls just held.com. Make sure you're getting your prayer cards and your other homegirl merch. And then go to girls just held conference.com so that you can stay up to date with all the details of the next conference that we are having. So I love y'all so much. And without further ado, baby, we are about to get into the episode. So I hope y'all enjoy, sit back, relax and let's talk about it. Hey homegirl, welcome to the girls just held podcast where together we learn how to navigate our healing journeys in a way that challenges us to destroy limits and break down walls that have been keeping us subject to our trauma. I am your host, your favorite homegirl, Nimoya Bazin. And just like you, I am on this healing journey, navigating the ups and downs of this thing called life while simultaneously allowing God to usher me right into the place where he wants me to be. So get comfy, grab your journal and let's talk about all the ways we can heal, grow and evolve together. Hey homegirl, welcome to the girls just held podcast. I'm your favorite homegirl, Nimoya Bazin and chat. Listen. So how are you doing? I pray that you are doing well. Pray that you are healing. Well, so let's go ahead and get into the episode because we got some good stuff to talk about today. So we're going to start off with some homegirl updates. The first being continue to go to girls just held.com, get your prayer cards, your journal, your homegirl, merch, all of the good things. And the second update is homegirl is the homegirl. Well, it is the homegirl conference, but girls just held conference that's happened in this year. If you haven't already secured your ticket, make sure you go to girls just held conference.com to secure your ticket. And I cannot wait to meet you homegirls in the room this September. It is going to be an amazing time. And I look forward to everything God is going to do at girls just held conference. Now we're going to shout out a homegirl. We're going to see what a homegirl got to say. This homegirl review comes from empower her underscore inspire her period. And it is titled let God carry you. She did leave a five star rating. So thank you so much for that homegirl. And she says, girl, I just stumbled across your podcast two days ago and I'm on episode four or five. Your podcast is amazing. I'm currently in the season of learning to let God carry me periods. I have gotten to the point where I'm tired of trying to do things on my own. It has definitely been a faith journey with me as well. Now that I'm come to the end of myself, who listen, and even in the stillness I'm letting God carry me. It's good to know I'm not alone out here. Others are going through the same thing. I'm in the process of creating my own podcast for women. And your podcast gives me inspiration and motivation to let my voice be heard. Listen, listen, first of all, homegirl, thank you so much for this amazing review. It was so heartfelt. Thank you for sharing your heart with me. Thank you for leaving five stars. Thank you just for being here. Okay. For being the best part of girl. Just heal baby. This last line. Let me tell you something. Y'all that war my heart so much. This lady says she's in the process of starting her own podcast. My podcast is giving her inspiration and motivation to let her voice be heard. Baby, when I say homegirls, we are coming out of hiding. We don't have to heal and hide no more. Whoo. Hold up. Wait a minute. That should be this whole episode, but I guess I'm going to talk about baby. The day is over for us healing and hiding. Like we are coming out of hiding with this healing baby. It almost took me out in silence and not just saying that I want everybody to be in my business or I want pity parties. But baby, I have suffered in silence for long enough and enough is enough. I'm not doing that anymore. My voice is going to be heard. No, I don't have it all together, but guess what? That's okay. Because I'm out here healing. I'm out here growing. I'm out here evolving. Listen homegirls. Ain't no more healing and hiding. Okay. We are healing out loud and your out loud may not look like the next homegirl out loud. Let me say that because a lot of times we hear about healing out loud and we think that we just have to come and get on the podcast or get on a YouTube video and do all of the things, create a real no baby. You just not hiding anymore and not letting things intimidate you. They used to intimidate you, not letting people use your past against you. Baby, that's healing out loud. You showing people that guess I have some scars, but I am still human and I am going to go and move forward to the best of my ability. Baby, that is healing out loud. Listen homegirls, we healing out loud and this homegirl just inspired me to encourage you to heal out loud and continue to heal out loud because your voice matters. Baby, your voice matters. That, that is so funny because it's like I have experienced a lot of full circle moments and this is one when I first started out, like motivational speaking way back in like 2015 ish. I started with a company and my company was every voice matters. Like that was the name of it. And my tagline was like speak out every voice matters. And I was really just trying to encourage women not to hold things in and baby, look at me now with girl just heal, encouraging you not to hold things in. When I tell you sometimes God will put you in a position, honey, to give you a little sprinkle of what you going to do. And before you really step into it and then he going to pop you out on the scene. Baby, I just said all that to say, keep healing out loud. Your out loud may be different than my out loud, but baby, that's okay just as long as you are no longer hiding behind the fact that you are damaged, that you do have scars, that life is not always easy, peasy, lemon squeezy for you. And that is okay. That is okay. Cause baby together we gon heal out loud. We gon grow out loud. We gon evolve out loud and guess what? We gon become the best versions of ourselves out loud. Baby, we ain't apologizing for it. We are unapologetic in all of that. So I just, who hunted every view, sent me, sent me on a little journey. And I pray that that little journey encouraged you, but we still got a word. Okay. We still got some good stuff coming. And we ain't even got to the most favorite part of the episode yet. So y'all already know what's about to go down, baby. It is time for the woods. Y'all already know what it's time for, baby. It is time for the most favorite part of this episode. Get your best single voice on cause it is time for the woods. It is time for the prayer cause prayer cause. It is time for the prayer cause prayer cause. Hey, hey, prayer cause prayer cause. Hey, hey, hey, hey, it's time for the prayer cause. Y'all. Whew. Honey. That reviewed and sent me on fire a little bit cause baby. No baby, we healing out loud. We ain't healing in high and no more. We don't have to. We don't have to heal and hide no more. Okay. Like we, we then discover the safe space through girl just here. Well, we are healing out loud. All right. Let's get to the word. Okay. So our scripture today comes from John chapter 14 verse 23. And it says, those who love me will keep my word. Jesus, you better talk to us. Those who love me will keep my word. Very self-explanatory. Very self-explanatory. If you love Jesus, you're going to keep his word. You're going to do right by his word. You're going to do the things that you are supposed to do. Self-explanatory. Y'all. So bookmark the scripture. John chapter 14 verse 23. Again, those who love me will keep my word. And the church says, amen. All right, homegirls. So we are going to get into this episode. Now for this episode, I am going to revisit something I said a couple of episodes back. So in a couple of episodes ago, I say something to the effect of we go through things in life. Sometimes we go through things in life to draw us closer to God. And when I say this has been sitting on me, because I was, I went back and I was listening to one of the reels I published during the episode. And when I said this line, it was like my brain just got the going and God just started downloading stuff. And I'm like, uh-oh, this got to be an entirely different episode. Because sometimes in life, we'll go through like different storms and stuff. If you've ever been through a storm or a challenging time, then you know exactly what I'm talking about, what I'm about to talk about. We go through these trying times in our lives. A lot of the times, you know, life is filled with trying times like we can't escape that. It's inevitable. It's going to happen. Like we are, our lives are just not going to be smooth sailing all of the time. And so we go through these things and we feel like we're going through these things for no reason. But what I found navigating my own personal storms and my own personal grief is that we are going through things to draw us closer to God because God needs to know who's understanding. Are you leaning onto? Are you leaning on me or are you leaning on what it looks like? The situation around you. And I'm going to go to the scripture. We're going to go to Proverbs and I do know the scripture, but I want to read it word for word. We're going to Proverbs and we're going to go to chapter three and we're going to focus on verses five and six. Okay. And this says, trust in the Lord with all thine heart. This King James version. Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not until thine own understanding in all thy ways, acknowledge him, acknowledge God, and he shall direct that paths. How many of us, honestly, how many of us are doing that when we go through hard times, we lean and not our own understanding. I know for me, baby, I'm going to keep it real raw and regular with you. I don't always lean not until my own understanding. Sometimes some things I go through, even with what I've been navigating, like the season of me navigating, losing my son, baby, I didn't, I cannot sit here and tell you that I was leaning until God's understanding. No, because I'm trying to understand for me, for my sanity, for this grief that I'm going through, Lord, what happened? Lord, why did you choose to do this? And a lot of times we miss the fact that we go through certain things because God is trying to get us to understand that when nobody is there, I am always there. You need to learn how to lean on me first. Quit leaning on your mom and them first. Quit leaning on your sister and them first. Quit putting people above God and lean on him first. Quit leaning on your own understanding. Quit trying to figure it out. And then when you don't figure it out, now you result to going to God and like, Lord, I just need you to make this clear for me. I need you to paint this picture. When he should have had the paintbrush the whole entire time from the beginning, he should have had the paintbrush. Not after you exhaust all your resources and then you go to him and say, God, you are my only hope. Like you, you're the last person that I can come to know. He should have been the first person you came to. You should not have leaned into your own understanding. And sometimes that looks like going to your friend first to talk about a situation and confiding in your best friend and confiding in your mama and your sister before you take it to God in prayer. The Bible tells us he's a jealous guy, meaning that I don't want you to go to nobody else before me. I want you to always come to me first. Hello first, not second, not fourth, not last. God is saying, come to me first, lean not unto unto your own understanding, but in all your ways, acknowledge him. And that Bible verse should have had acknowledge him first in all of your ways and everything that you are going through, make sure you acknowledge him. And a lot of times when we are navigating these situations and we think that, oh, well God, you just like, this is just so heavy on me. God is not taking you through a hard time just because he's like, okay, well, you know, today is a good day. I'm going to take her through a hard time and then, you know, I'll let her go to sleep a little later. No, sometimes he has to get your attention and snap you back into reality and remind you of Proverbs three versus five and six. Well, look, you been, baby, you've been leaning on your own understanding a little too much. Like I see you constantly going down this path of trying to figure out what's going on. You trying to figure out why this situation happened. You trying to figure out why they walked out of your life instead of you coming to me and asking me to reveal to you why I created an escape route for them. Sometimes things happen in our lives and God is allowing those things to happen. Because we won't uproot and move. We won't disconnect from that person. We won't do all the things we need to do. And so God knows that if I can throw something in her to shake it up a little bit, I could let me shake her up a little bit. Then she's going to understand and realize that baby, you ain't got nobody else but me. I'm the only person you can lean on. I'm the only person that's there for you and that's able to get you through this time. It's almost like he has to reel us back in because we go so far away. And to us, it may not seem like we go so far away because it's just like, well, that's my mama. Like my mama and been there since I came out the womb. Like before I came out the womb, like my mama was there. She was always the one that was there, but we can't make it a habit to be going to other people before we consult God. And this is where everything in your life, whether it's hard situations, whether you talking about getting another job, whether you want to buy a car, whether you want to buy a house, whether you want to go and speak to a group of women about a certain topic. Like you really have to consult God and everything. And one example of this, I want to share this with you. So I was recently invited to be the keynote speaker at a black history program at one of the community colleges that I attended right at the high school, went to college and I was invited back as a keynote speaker. Now, as I'm getting my presentation and stuff together, cause I'm like, okay, I think I want to do a PowerPoint just to really engage this group of students. Right. And so I'm getting all that together, but I was getting frustrated in the process of getting all of that together. And the reason I was getting frustrated is cause I'm like, nothing makes sense. Like I know in my mind where I want to head the direction I want to go, when I'm speaking to these students, but it's like every time I would rehearse it and go over it, one plus one did not equal two. And I'm like, oh, I cannot say that. Like what? Like I don't even know. And it started to get a bit confusing cause I'm like in my head when I was just thinking about it before I wrote it down, like it sounded good. It was great. And I just like all of a sudden, probably after like two or three times of me going through it and trying to make it make sense, I just stared at my laptop and I said, I felt guilty. I said, you know what? I said, God, I love you. This is my exact words. I said, God, I love you. And I am so sorry because I did not even consult you to ask you to reveal to me what it is I need to say to this group of students to make them understand the message that I'm trying to get across. Lord, what do you want to say? When that is like verbatim, what I said to God that night, Lord, what do you want me to say? And I bring that up because I leaned until my own understanding for weeks getting that together, like trying to do that and nothing made sense. And the moment I released that prayer out of my mouth, I'm not even kidding y'all. Like y'all know your home girl going to be honest. The moment I released that out of my mouth, it's just like things started coming and I'm moving this slide and I'm moving that and I'm putting this note and I'm doing that. And now things are aligning because I did what Proverbs three, five and six said I didn't lean into my own understanding. I consulted God. Now in this sense, okay, we know I didn't go to God first. If I would have went to God first, I wouldn't have dealt with this, but sometimes things like that has to happen so God can humble us down and bring us back to reality. Like, mm-hmm. If you would have came to me first, then you wouldn't have wasted all this time doing this and things not making sense. Like you was just out here doing stuff, putting stuff together, but nothing was making sense of it. If you would have come to me first. And that's really the message that I am trying to get across to you today. God is saying, if you would have just come to me first, if you would have just consulted me first, if you would have prayed and salt my face first, then you wouldn't deal with a lot of the heaviness and the things that you have been dealing with because you came to me first, but because you didn't come to me first. Now I got to shake stuff up. I got to make it to where things don't make sense. I got to make it to where one plus one is equal in five and not two until you understand and realize that you need to come back to me. I'm only doing this to draw you closer to me. I'm not doing this to punish you. I'm not doing this because I want to give you a hard time. I'm doing this because I want to remind you to lean not until your own understanding. God is saying lean on me. I'm a quote that, that line from this song, lean on me when you're not strong. And I know they was talking about you can lean on your friend's shoulder, but God is saying lean on me and he wants us to lean on him first. He wants us to consult him first. If I haven't learned anything else through my grief process. It is that God wants me to come to him first. Yes, therapy is good. Y'all already know your home girl, but I'm a listen, I'm an advocate for therapy. Okay. Go to therapy. I encourage anybody I come across. Yeah, you should try, you should try therapy. I think you should. Like I'm going to always be an advocate for mental health and, and like mental wellness, like always that is what I'm passionate about. Therapy is good, but I don't need to be going to my therapist before I go to God. And even with that Lord Jesus, that came up. Like, let me just go ahead and tell y'all to T on this. I had went through a season in life. Um, and this was recently, a couple of months back I went through a season in life. Now I've been in therapy since 2022 and I've been going strong too. And this season of life that I went through was where I had to cancel sessions with my therapist. Like I felt like God was placing it on my heart to cancel sessions with my therapist because I had started consulting my therapist first and relying on my therapist before God. And it's like, no, nothing comes before God. Okay. Like God is the head and then your spouse and then your family and then everybody else falling in line. Right. Well, no, I was putting my therapist like, Oh, I need to talk to my therapist today about this. And, and like when I was doing that, it was almost like I'm getting snatched up by the collar and like, so I'm like, all right, you tripping. Like what you doing? And I feel like God really, like he did say, and I was even sharing with a friend. I was sharing with a friend is I was like, because my friend asked me, like, is everything okay? Why aren't you going to therapy anymore? Like, are you looking for a new therapist? Like what's going on? And I'm just like, you know, I feel like God is drawing me closer to him. This is exactly what I said to my friend. Everything is, is, is tying in. Like this is exactly what I said to my friend. I said, I just feel like God is drawing me closer to him. Matter of fact, let me read to y'all verbatim what I said to my friend. And this has been months ago. So let me find this message real quick. Okay. So I found this and I'm going to just read some of what I, I texted my friend. I said, so my friend asked me, my friend said, what made you want to take a break from therapy? And I said, I just feel like God was requiring me to commune more with him. I love my therapist and I'm grateful for her, but there's a piece that only comes from God and that's what I have been chasing after. I've been craving that and God knows I have been needing it. So in that moment, like when I realized that I was leaning more to my own understanding in the sense of consulting my therapist before I consulted God, I had to take a step back just so that I can, it's almost like I needed to readjust myself. Okay. Like I needed to rewire what was going on because some wires had got tangled somewhere along the line to where I was consulting my therapist first and I was looking at therapy as like, I would even say things like, oh my goodness, I can't wait to go to therapy. So I can talk about this, this, this. And I hadn't prayed about those things. Like I hadn't talked to God about what was bothering me. I hadn't consulted God and asked God to give me peace. You know, and I wasn't in God's word, like I should have been, like I'm just being honest. And so once I saw that I was leaning more to my own understanding, it prompted me to take a step back. Okay. Now I got to take a step back. I have to reevaluate, then realign myself with how it's supposed to be. And so I just brought that up just because like I said, it's all tying in and just to show you like how a lot of times when we, we deal with things God is trying to draw us closer to him. Now in the sense of me going to my therapist first is because my mind was heavy. I was dealing with heavy thoughts. I was dealing with anxious thoughts. I was dealing with depressive thoughts. Like I was dealing with these things, but instead of me going to God first, I was going to my therapist. I was leaning to my own understanding when I could have been praying to God and asking God, Lord, can you please give me peace? Now I love my therapist. I go to therapy actively, baby. Listen, going strong, honey. This is coming up on the third year of me being in therapy. I love it. I love everything about therapy, but I'm learning now how to categorize people's places in my life and God needs to be first in everything. And I'm not trying to sound so like religious and pious and all of that. No, like this is real life. This is how I survive by consulting God first, keeping God first, making sure that God know like, Hey, you are number one in my life. You are the head. Like God, I'm going to come to you. I honor you. Like your place in my life is going to stay like your place. Nobody can get in your place unless I allow them to. And I had realized that I started allowing them to. And so what do you do in the instant? You, you got to do something like God going to shake something up. He's going to make something happen to where you remember like, Hey, Hey, Hey, I'm not supposed to be leaning to my own understanding. I'm supposed to be leaning to God's understanding. I'm supposed to be acknowledging him in all of my ways. And then it's like a trickle down effect. Then everything else will come after that. So I just want to encourage you with it to like just acknowledge God and all of your ways, lean not until your own understanding. And just understand that some of the things we go through, some of the things we deal with are ultimately to draw us close to the God because God just wants our attention. Like God wants us to realize that, Hey, I'm the head, Hunter, I'm the one in charge. Okay. I'm in charge of all of this and I need you to understand that not just because he's just, you know, trying to, like, I don't know. I don't even know what thoughts we're going through our mind. I can't even begin to try and explain. But I think like sometimes we have a problem with God wanting to be in his position. Like if that makes sense, like we have a problem with leaving God in his position, putting him in his position and like leaving him there and respecting the fact that God doesn't want us to put anything above him. And so sometimes they'd be hard for us to do because it's so easy. It's like we have to train ourselves to go to God first because it's so easy to pick up that phone and call your best friend. I know for me it is. It's easy for me to, baby, I'm going to take out this phone and I'm going to text my friend quick. I'm going to take out this phone. I'm going to call my friend quick. Like I'm going to call my mom. I'm going to call my brother. Like it's so easy for me to do those things. So easy for me to confide in my spouse. Yes. Pillow talk it is fine. It's like, baby, I'm going confiding you. I'm going to talk to you about things that I'm going through. It's so easy. But even your spouse, like you have to take this stuff to God first. Like what is bothering you? Take it to God. Those things that are heavy and weighing down and you take it to God, you know, even with me navigating this grief, my husband and I were both navigating the grief. You know, he has his way of navigating the grief and what he feels with losing our son. And then I have my way of navigating what I feel losing my son. And then together collectively we have this grief. So it's three different levels to this grief for my husband and I, but even with how I'm navigating this grief, I still take it to God first. You know, when it's so easy to talk to my husband about it, because he understands like we both share the same experience, but I've had to be very cautious of not just going to my husband first. Like no consulting God, talking to God, letting God know, Hey God, like this is how I'm feeling. I don't understand this or this is what came up for me today. God, can you give me some peace in me? A sign. I need like scripture, just doing all of the things, making sure God knows that like your place in my life, God is a one, like it's good. Like nobody's going to come before you. And I haven't always been there. So it's been taking some, me getting used to it and me adjusting myself so that I can keep God in this position and I can practice this. Like practice makes perfect when it comes to this, because it's going to be so easy for you to just go to that person in your life, that number one person in your life, your confidant, the person you confide in, so very easy to go to them and to talk to them about certain things that you are going through. But then, you know, sometimes God going to shake it up just a little bit. If you heavy, yeah, sometimes God going to send those things because he's like, I need for you to come back to me. I need for you to consult me. And I've been, I've really been navigating this and just like really working through this because I do feel like we go through a lot of things in life to draw us closer to God. Like there's something that I, like even now lately, I've really been feeling that a lot more because I'm like, we indeed go through things to draw us closer to God so that God can get our attention and let us know that like, Hey, you, you need to your relationship somewhere along the way. It is not like it's supposed to be with me. So you need to do something to change this. And that's when he comes in and we go through these situations. And if you notice sometimes you, like it'll be situations in your life that you go through and can't nobody help you through them. But God, you will call your mama and get mad cause she ain't got the right words. You calling your best friend and get mad because they ain't got the right words. You talking to your spouse and you getting 38 hot because they ain't saying nothing. It's like what they saying, just don't make sense. Like you ain't helping me in this moment. Why does that happen? Because God needs you to know that I am your comfort. 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So all you that got heavy burdens, come to me and I will give you rest for my yoke is easy. My burden is light. Jesus say, come to me. Like I want all them problems. Everything that you got going on. I want to hear about it. Okay. And sometimes like we want to go to our friend them and now we upset and we go on to God, man, like God, I went trying to talk to my friend and nobody's helping me. Nobody's giving me what I need. Nobody's saying the things I need to hear. And I just listen, y'all. I have so many like visions in my head of how God just be looking at us and how if he was heard, he would just, you know, like them black mommas, you in the store and you do something and they scrunch up that mouth real quick and give you that look. I think God be doing that to us because sometimes we just be off the chain. Like sometimes we be doing stuff that we know we shouldn't even do. And like I said, it is a problem. Let me just say it is a process and I do want to really like keep that to the forefront. It's a process, especially when you, all you've known is to go call your mama, call your daddy, call your best friend. It is a process to now put God first. That's all a part of building a relationship with him. But I do feel like sometimes God be looking like, okay, how many times do I have to tell you? Okay. How many times do I have to bring Proverbs three, five and six up in your face and let you know, lean not until your own understanding and all your ways. Acknowledge me. Like God is like, how many times do I got to say that? How many times do I got to repeat myself? Oh, now I'm sounding like a broken record and God, you know, so I got a lot of scenarios, John. It goes on in my head when I think about God and how he's handling us, like if he or how he would handle us if he was here. But that is it for this episode, John. I just pray this episode bless you and I pray that it encourages you to go to God when in doubt. Okay. Like keep God first. God's position in your life should be solid. Okay. Nobody else should get that position. Keep God number one in your life. Consult him. Go and highlight the scripture. Proverbs chapter three versus five and six highlight that rehearse that if you need to put that up somewhere in your house and your car on the front of your phone, wherever you need to put that up as you build your relationship with God and keep him first as you are learning how to not call your mama and your best friend and your therapist and confide in them first, but go to God first and then go to other people and talk about it. Like keep that verse. Keep those two verses because they're really going to help you as you continue to build that and put God back in his rightful place and keep him there. So that is all I have for this episode. We are going to close it out with the girl just held mantra and y'all know we're going to take a deep breath in and out. And that is just us releasing all of the cares of today, yesterday, this month, this week, anything that has come up to trigger us, baby. We just released all of that off of us. We sending it back to wherever it came from and we are going to repeat the girl just held mantra together. So the girl just held mantra is I accept myself for who I am. I free myself from all fear. And today I choose to heal. I accept myself for who I am. I free myself from all fear. And today I choose to heal. I accept myself for who I am. I free myself from all fear. And today I choose to heal. So thank you so much homegirl for tuning in to this week's episode of the girl just held podcast. I'm your favorite homegirl named Moira Bayes then. And until we speak again, girl, just heal. Thank you for listening to this episode of the girl just held podcast. 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