Laura Peek Returns

This is a head gum podcast. Everybody, can I get your attention please? These shots are on me tonight. For no other reason, then we're celebrating friendship and being alive. What a gift it is to be on this earth at the same time. Raise your glasses. And then every, the whole restaurant does a shot. I'm gonna cry. The whole restaurant does a shot together and then they just turn the music back up and everyone keeps eating. And you know why I was actually really special. You're getting on in years. You're getting on in years. To be doing basement rooms in New York. I'm not having fun in there. Yeah. And they weren't having fun with me. What happened? Well, I wrote a joke. I have like a closer. I don't think I was doing it on the road. But I have a closer that features very heavily. Oh my god, the guy who played Cup in Kirk. What's his name? Jesus Christ. William Shatter. It was on the way. The story I told at your, at your live pod about seeing him on a plane. Oh, yes. And he hit that woman and almost killed her. Yes. And so I turned it, and he really almost died. And, and so I have like a new joke about it. And I've been closing on it. It's really fun story. I'm midway through that joke and I go, these people don't know who William Shatter is. No. The blank little, like hot faces like looking at me. These 22 year olds. The biggest eyelashes you've ever seen on me just are out to see right now. Trying to understand. And you try to place them. You're like a captain Kirk. I mean, I don't know any sort of reference that would have been effective for them to know, but that warms my heart that they don't know who he is. It's really cute. It's really cute. It's also like good. Let's get some of these people out of the consciousness. Yes. It's true. I mean, well, the thing I didn't say when we were hanging out because it's too sad is that he like, he, there was a woman wearing a giant cast. And he reached up and gets his overhead luggage. And he just like, there was like plenty of time for me to be like, someone's going to give this old man a hand, right? Like someone's going to like help him get it down. And he just lets this sucker rip. Like from the front, just pulls it like this. First of all, very old looking luggage. Like, how much like tags and shit on it. You're really sad. Yeah. Also, why are you on this delta flight with me, whatever. But he just lets it rip. And it falls like right on this woman. She had one of these big ass things on it like connected. You know what I mean? One of those joints like like she is. She got her. She got her. Not the car too in cast. Literally literally. They don't even do it like that. You got an anvil dropped up. Go on. I don't why Leigh Coyote. And it hit her on the shoulder and there was like a sound. Like literally like I heard like a crack and her eyes were so full of tears. Oh. And it was really devastating. And she turned to me like pleading. Like and I went, oh my God. I'm so sorry. Are you okay? I was like, how can I help? And he does the right thing. Initially he goes like, he goes, oh my God. I'm so sorry. Like, okay. Good. Normal thing to do. And then she didn't immediately hit him with like a, hey, no worries. Because she was like, yes. He just reshattered her arm. Yeah. And he goes, that pain full. Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha. And I went yeah, I think so. I love that. I love that. I love that. That painful huh? I can't even give me a hand. Damn bitch. Damn bitch. Damn bitch. I didn't know you were built so soft. Oh, some pussies on the dill. Oh, fuck. Get a load of this fucking pansy. Sheesh. It was so brutal. I had war. I felt everybody on the plane at the same time be like, oh, this guy's a Jake. Like, everybody was so shocked. Oh my god, it was crazy. That is so funny. But I can't say that on stage because people get really sad. Yeah, it's sad. They're like, I don't want to think of him like that. Oh, they're mean. But yeah, there's a, there's a, I recently had one of my, I do, I would say like once a week, I get on to TikTok. Right. And do a scroll. And I actually watch the videos. And I feel better than most people alive because I only do it once a week. I do. You are better enlightened in a way that's like bordering on narcissistic. Like I feel when people tell me how often they're on TikTok, I literally like, you know, I feel so good about that. That's painful, huh? But when I'm on there, it manages to serve me some of the most devastating content I've ever seen in my life. And one of the things that's served me right now is this trend. I can't remember what song it's to. Oh, no. But as people being like how fast 50 years went and it's a picture. Oh, I'm going to throw up. Oh, Oh, it's a picture of them when they're like 22, 23 and then a picture of them now. And they look beautiful. It's a beautiful thing that's happening life has happened. But just the idea that I am at one moment, staring at a picture of them like that. And then the next set of picture of them like this. And they're in there. And oftentimes the captions are even more devastating like the captions are like, I have no idea where the time went. Oh, God. What the fuck? Why would you say some shit like that? Why? Why do you still lie to me? I remember every single second. Moves low. Had fun. Like lie to us. You have a responsibility to lie to us. I get a lot of these women in their like 60s being like, I'm 34 and I'm like, it's them going, I didn't figure it out until 45. And I feel the same way. I'm like, shut the fuck up. Tell me it's going to happen tomorrow. Fuck you shut up. Fuck you shut up. Fuck you shut up. I get, I get, I've gotten served recently a couple of different like, like the video is somewhat compelling in the comment sections or one of those ones where everyone has an example. Yes. And it was nurses being like, it was a nurse being like, you have no idea how many old women in marriages to men are on, are sick, are sicker than they realize. And then when they realize they say, he was supposed to die before me, I had plans. They're like, they're like, I can't believe I didn't like, leave this man or do the things I wanted to do. And there's nurses in the comments being like, I had the same thing, I had the same thing. Oh my God. Like she thought that she would live longer and she was finally going to travel. I was going to go to Copenhagen. Yo. What the fuck? So devastating. Old people, we really need to start monitoring the kind of shit they say. I need to, I need to approve. I don't prove what goes on in my eyes. I don't care if it's homophobic, sexist, fat phobic. Say whatever you want in those regards. But when it comes to like, harrowing tales of the passage of time. Of life having been not much to us. Let's go ahead and shut it up for me. Cheryl, I don't need to hear about that. Hey, I need to say, do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips. Give me with the law wash, Cheryl. Give me with the law wash, baby. You can't be talking like that with me. If the Helen Keller is, you remember that song? Yes, you. The Helen Keller and talk with your hips. Don't be talking to me about the passage of time. On my internet. The Helen Keller and regrets held close. There was one that I saw just just like yesterday. And you're right. You are better than because I'll get on. I mean, days of my fucking life. Yeah. Just maybe the next one will be good. You know, just horrific. But there was one that I saw. And it was like a young man. Young hot British guy asking like older women what their regrets were. And it was the first one just like, I wouldn't have gotten married to young. And I'm like, for sure. Yeah. Fifth one saying that exact thing. I was like, okay, move. I give you fucking break. We get it, bitch. Yeah. That is so fucking funny. It's wild. Oh my god. I've seen what's blowing my mind. I was thinking about this yesterday on TikTok is like people that are like my age, like my early mid 30s early. Please, early please. Early if you're, early if you're nasty. But it's them doing the like aged filter. Yeah. And then being like what people thought I'd look like at 35. And then they do that to horrible sound. And then they take the filter off and they look like, you know, definitely more youthful. Yeah, they look 30. But not 50 so. Exactly. And it's people being, it's every single confidence people being like, you're supposed to take the filter off, queen, like being so mean. So mean. Oh, so mean. And I'm like, it's always like young women doing it. I'm like, hey, girl, he's like, we got to caucus about this. Yeah. This is so cruel. No. I feel bad because that has happened to me for so long now, just by being a person on the internet. Yeah. Like I got it when I first started posting videos on the internet, not even doing like, I wasn't doing like, Bet you didn't think I looked this good. Like I wasn't doing like age reveal challenges. I was doing like Joe's. Yes, I was being a comedian. So I feel bad for these like pedestrians that are like, oh, I'm about to, like I'm about to serve with this one. And then they get ripped to God, the emphrods. And I'm like, you haven't trained. Oh, me, you got it. You got to exercise. It's like you're on it. You're sure, but just died. Like you have no clues. The storm that's coming for you. It's really scary. He froze. He froze. And now what? Now what? What are you going to do? You're not making it out of here. Do they find people up there? People have fallen out of there. There's a lot of talk about this recently. Really? People getting like stranded on and being like, oh, you paid because I forget that you pay a lot of money to do that. Yeah, because it's foolish. Because it's so stupid and you don't belong up there and no one does. Yeah. But it's people being like, I'm about to freeze to death and I paid $70,000 to do this. And you've played the fool. And you're wearing a little done stuff. Wear your dance cap. Put your little done stuff on. Montreire. You're a don't smoke friends. God. You're a damn don't smoke. Not for nothing, but like they're like hire these locals to go on suicide missions for them for their vacation. 1,000%. Like, oh, yeah, this old Nepalese man is going to risk his life for this 270th time to take me up there. For for Jenny. Yeah, it's like you didn't need to go up there. Or Jenny who's having a bit a little bit of a midlife crisis. What cracks me up is there's so many places on earth. We're just so clearly not supposed to go. And the evidence is in how hard it is to get there. Deep ocean, highest peaks. Sky. Sky, big sky. So anyone, anyone who gets on a plane, if something happens to us. Wait, I'm sorry. I wasn't going to go to that. We're not supposed to be up there. I was going to go just flying. Flying is crazy. Laura, we're not supposed to be up there. I can't. I was like, do you know what this is? I am no sympathy for anyone who's ever done an applying. I'm a certain level. Like we keep going places we're not supposed to go. I know. This is merciful. Why'd you go down there? I mean, and okay, the unity that our country had for 20 seconds after that happened was really beautiful. You're truly meeting God and doing one of these in his face. You're jacking off in God's vision. You get it truly. You get what you deserve down there. Do you feel, do you feel a natural every time you're in the sky? You're because you're a sky boy. I don't think about it anymore. Yeah. But the first 100 times I flew, of course. Yeah. I'm grabbing the seat like this. Yeah. I'm getting arthritic knuckles. I'm grabbing that shit for your life. I'm telling people next to me that I love them. Yeah. I'm saying so. I'm confessing my sins. I was flying as like a fat teenager with no money. So I was flying most basic economy middle seat. Right. And just business, business people rolling their eyes and sighing when I sidled up terrified. Hey, if they're so business, get into business class, bitch. I'm saying get a better job. Sorry. Because I'm fat. I'm young and I'm scared. And I'm in the middle. I'm taking a both arm rest and I might puke. I'm falling asleep. I'm a drool. Do you have a fucking question? Do you have something you wanted to say to me? I can feel your energy. Say something to me. Wake up and say something to me. Say something I'm giving up on you. Oh, God. Yeah. I don't I I something happened and maybe it's just frequency of flying. But something happened to me where I've been experiencing like real turbulence lately in my life. No, in this guy. And I will go. I just it doesn't. Nothing happens to me. Horror. Horror. No. Well, we'll talk about that. But the passive suicidalization is real. We'll talk. But I have to tell you I was just telling these guys earlier. I there. I did find a tick talk on my week old scroll the other day. Yes. That has like I've decided it's going to fundamentally inform the way I live my life. Okay. And I love when I find one of these. It's this guy walking down the street and he goes. I really can't something about it. And he goes, man, the other I get the more I realize. I'm joining whatever church. I love that. I love that. I love that. Pastor. Hello. It really is like that. That is I'm literally every day. I'm getting closer and I feel like that's actually Nirvana. That's so true. It's like you don't I keep thinking I keep waiting for like wisdom to come to me. Yeah. And I don't think it's that. I think you fucking care less. Yeah. I think you just start to care. Just kidding. You literally have to go. Well, what am I going to do? Who knows? I'm going to worry. Shit. It's the same every every religion has some maxim for this. I'm choosing Pish. But you can't slow it down like I'm just Pish. I'm choosing that. But in Christianity, it's like God's ways are higher. It's like everyone has some statement that's like fuck it. Yes. Give it up to God. I'm not worried about that or knowing that. So I'm just going to stick with Christianity and the TikTok. Yeah. And Pish. Yeah. And Pish. Pish. Tell me it's not real. The church of Pish. I mean, yeah, I think that's I'm learning that so much too. Yeah. Fuck it. Literally fuck it. Literally fuck it. I know it's very liberating. How are you doing? Not good. Are you not? No, I'm fine. I am. I am. I am. I was thinking about this this morning. I was trying to write it down. But I'm like, I'm waiting. Okay, here's what I was thinking today. I'm waiting for some sort of wisdom to come to me like I said. Yeah. I'm realizing that my image of myself, my perception of myself, is based on the last thing I heard about myself. Okay. At 34. Yeah. It's based on like you're a fat bitch. You're like, well, I'm a fat bitch. And it lasts for like hours until until one of my friends is like, you're a good friend. I'm like, I'm a great friend. I just beat the fat bitch allegations. I've moved into great friend. Yeah. And in that moment, I shed the weight. Yeah. Wait, you know, you know what I was talking to a friend about the other day. It's so much more insane to say the when it comes to weight loss. The way she lost the way. Like the weight is so like what? It's the that's like, that's boomer mom. That's so funny. That's over. She lost all the weight. She lost 100 pounds is different than she lost that weight. She lost some weight. She lost the way. The way you're going to keep off the weight. The way we all know about it. It's the only weight I've ever thought. Capital T. Capital W. Yeah. We've all carried it for you in many ways. Capital T. The weight is so funny. It's just so hard. We've all carried it for you. By the way, I've been shouldering the weight of yours. And it's she that that transfers to other things as well. Like if you're like, you're like, oh, she's, you know, she's, she's, she's, she's out there fighting with her husband. She's out there fighting with the husband. Ooh, the, this is the, the really changes things. It does. This is, this is reading very Southern to me. You know what I mean? Yeah, she's out there with her husband. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Well, she's, she's been, she's been having some of the drink. The drink. Yes. The drink. She's been smoking the pot. She's been, she's on that stuff. The stuff. The stuff. The really transform. It does because it may like makes it like a proper now. Yeah, it's like it's making it singular. Yeah. And that you've never thought about it in any other context than this. There's no other weight. There's no other husband. I don't have a corporeal form. No. You have the. You have the problem. You just have diabetes. She's got the diabetes. Okay, the diabetes hits. Yeah. That's a beatie. That's the beaties. The Warren Beatie. God, dude. I'm sorry, you were saying you're waiting for wisdom now. Oh, yeah, I'm waiting for wisdom. It's not coming. I'm just generally, I'm going to have to either get much more medicated than I am. Yeah. Or just passively accept that it's, it's not good. You seem so good. No, I know. Well, that's the thing is that I, I, I do feel like most people who are ill able to present and the only thing that brings me joy is this. So it's like, I have no inner life. But. I have nothing going on up here. It's hellish up here. Yeah. But people are my favorite thing in the world. I really do love other people. Yeah. And so what brings me any amount of joy is bringing joy to others and having joy brought to me by. Yeah, just being in joy. Yes. But in, but I go home and I'm like. Turn on. Yeah. Yeah. I'm trying to figure it out. I was, I've been thinking a lot about how I would like to, you know how people are like, you know, I'm fine on the outside, but on the inside. I'm losing it. Yeah. You know that a lot. It's like some shit that someone, like someone who would try to school with post on Facebook at the AM. Yes. Exactly. It's like a black and blue, huge print of like a werewolf tearing through a. A bit. Yeah. I'm like a moon. And it's like, you have no idea what's inside of me. It's, it's a little duck and it's like, you know, it's feet are working really hard. I'm calm up top, but at the bottom. Is that you or you the dog? I'm the little duck whose feet are working too hard in the food or my brain. And I feed her brain. But I've been thinking so much about how much I'd like to reverse that. Yeah. Like I would love to be totally at peace on the inside, but losing my fucking. That's Lisa Trigger. You just described Lisa Trigger. She has so much inner peace. She's bounding off at truly. What did she tell me? She goes, I was catching up with her the other day she came into my house and she goes, um, she goes, yeah, I'm sorry. I'm a little crazy. I went off on a man at the Delta lounge. She had just like come from the airport. Well, it's impression by the way, that's exactly. I'm sorry. I just went off. Looking in every direction. I went off and I made the Delta lounge. And I go, what do you do? She goes, well, he did nothing wrong, but in the moment. I live for her. You're absolutely right though. She has such, I remember posting. I was like having problems with drinking all of them. And, um, oh, my, my problems with drinking, of course, my famous problems. Well, you know, she's got that drinking habit. She's, she loves the drink. She goes in for the drink. She's in for a banyan, for a pound on the drink. Baby. Um, but I posted something in my close friends and was like just after I had gotten kind of close to theblazer. I just added her to the list. I had spent time with her. And I, I like posted something about being like, really in my feelings obviously, being like, how is everyone dealing with this? How is everyone dealing with addiction in my life that I love? Because I know we're all kind of struggling. She sent the most thoughtful, like two paragraph response being like, you're, you have to stop beating yourself up about it. That's the first thing you have to do. Yeah. It stopped experiencing so much shame about it. And then you see her online and she's like, well, I punched a million. She was going off. She was going off on a comedy club the other day online. In the blue room screwed her. And they did. And when she was doing it, she was like, I'm the worst person to try and do this too. And I'm like, the self-awareness of you are. I'm going to yeah. Yeah. I'm going to yap about it. God, I love her. You have a, I'm sorry to little meta to talk about your pod inside your pod. But what did she say? We're like, what do you know about yourself? And she's like, I'm conspiratorial. Oh, oh, it's one of my favorite moments of the podcast that I just completely unprompted. I was like, I was like, Lisa, what do you think your red flags are without missing a beat? She goes, I'm conspiratorial. I fly off the handle. I'm confrontational. Like she really just listened. And every one of them, I was like, yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And I love you to death. She's one of, she's one of probably four close friends that genuinely listens to every episode of the show. It's so sweet. And this will bring her so much joy. Oh, my God. We love you, Lisa. It's my favorite people on the planet. Her, uh, uh, Katie Crutchfield. Um, um, Doyle, I think our friend Doyle, um, and one or two other people that I'm sure I'm forgetting that text me like weekly being like, oh my God. This week's episode when they said this, like they're really listening. You've got, you have cultivated. You've got friends. I have. I have stolen. I have stolen from the universe. It's crazy. Too many riches when it comes to friends. He's sitting on a big. I've gotten so lucky. This is like the most gift of my life. No, you cultivate it. It's not luck. It's like you care about people. Not really. I'm bad to these people. You should see the way I am to chance behind the scenes. I have a feeling that you're really cruel. Is that right? I'm, I'm contractually obligated by legitimate business empire LLC to say nothing. Yeah. You can't see it. He's off mic. His hands are tied behind his back. Well, he works better that way. He focuses up. He does. If you have, if you can't use your faculties like that. Yeah. Your brains work at extra. It's your brain. That's right. It's like when you're blind and you can smell. Sometimes I blindfold him. Sometimes I put a big cartoon clip on his nose. I take away other senses so that he can really lock it. Podcast produce. We call it play time. Yeah. Oh my god. You're enrichment. Enrichment in your closure. Don't give him too much attention. Oh, I'm sorry. He loves it too much. He's filing a lot. He starts to crash out. My, my, my sweet fully offline husband the other day. Yeah. We're moving. We've, I will say this. One thing keeping me on a LA a little bit. We just found a truly glorious apartment in Los Angeles. I love that. What's the address? Oh, good. I love asking people for their address. Oh, I, I really, I was trying to go with the bit. I said it. Obviously, chance is making a note of that will be. Chance entire hands and making note of that. Um, no, but it's so beautiful. Yeah. But he's, he's, he's determinedly offline. Like his never, I remember we were in college. I was like, I'm not sure. I'm not sure. I'm not sure. I'm not sure. I'm not sure. I'm not sure. I'm not sure. I was never, I remember we were in college. He had a girlfriend that made him a Facebook profile in like 2009. And the moment they broke up, he was like, I'm going to delete it. I don't care. But it just cares not at all to be on it. And you know what I waxed about it and I brag about it. He's never set a fucking word. He goes, yeah. Yeah. Oh, I need him. I need him. I, he's the love of my friend. I need him. I had to who's never seen a screen. I, he doesn't even know. Yeah. He's never seen a television show. Yeah. I don't let him watch movies. Yeah. I love that. Yeah. But he the other day he had been like on a like traveling from one place to the other or finishing packing. And he's like, yeah, got really tired and I just, I went home and I just crashed out. And I was like, that's all what that is. I was like, you pitched a fit. Like you had like a meltdown. He was like, no, I want to sleep. Oh, I love you. I was so cute. I didn't even tell him. I didn't even tell him he's going to hear this from the first time. I just went home and crashed. I pictured him being like fuck this Throwing tables and shit I hate moving God I love him He's so real I know I went home and just totally crashed out just hogs you a me me me me me He's got a little candle on a plate. It's a little little little Really long night down are you happy internally? Yeah? No, yeah I am but I've talked about this a little bit on here recently the struggle I think is I Is trying to disobey ourselves? I think a lot of us have this idea that there are there are Happy people and then there are unhappy people. It's so yes that happy is a type of person. It's not a binary thing That is not real. Mm-hmm. Happy is not a type of person happy is a feeling that you can experience And if you set your life up if you're lucky and you set your life up in a good way and you really pursue it You can experience the feeling of happiness more often. Yes, and if it and if the ratio is bet good You will you will think of yourself as a happy person and that's great But that happy people are not real I am a person and I try to experience happiness as much as I can and I do experience a lot of happiness But I also experience frustration burnout depression low exhaustion depression Exhide I experience the full range of human emotions. Thank God, which is great Which is great the point of being alive. Yeah, and and I think part of Experiencing happiness at the most that you can is Knowing how to deal with when you're frustrated when you're tired when you're exhausted And just going yeah, that's okay today. I'm depressed or today. I'm being moody or today I'm not the most fun to be around or to be quiet and you just go okay I'll let that go on for an hour. We're all let that go on for a day And so it's bleeding you know Yes Yeah, you have to treat the bad stuff just like the good stuff. I get won't be here forever and that's okay Can you when you come talk me to sleep? Yes, yes, I will and it's gonna be so bad for you It's gonna be terrible. It's gonna be bad for you. I was gonna say one thing. Do you spend a lot of time alone? I really like to be alone yeah, and I I cultivate alone time a lot What are you doing in this alone time? I'm pretending to write yeah most of it And then I'm just crashing out. Yeah, it's not so bad. I I do I cultivate a lot of experiences by myself I go to movies by myself. I go to dinner by myself I go on extremely long walks every day of my life. Yeah, and I'm trying my best to to adopt that mentality I'm just being like every motion you have is fleeting I Feel like I'm grasping that but when happy when I do experience true happiness and joy It's impossible for me to think about it as anything other than like momentary and that I don't deserve it I have a deep amount of shame. Yes, not why I don't I have Catholic. I don't know Do you think really why why why why I don't know I was thinking about it the other day I have I have Living parents who are in love together and love me very much There is no reason for me to have the amount of just like in it like truly inherent guilt and shame that I have But it is the the thumb of my entire existence is a low sense of really intense self-hatred. Sorry Did you don't be sorry? This is very interesting. Did you did you grow Catholic? Yeah It literally has to be it literally has to be yeah, but but it wasn't I'll say it wasn't like Definitely in the home that was not imparted on me This was not like an insanely religious household in which everything in which you know Everything was a sin and everything you do is wrong. Yeah, and school I was I was barely paying attention to that. I was I you know I wasn't even really taking that in so I do wonder where it was where it got really deep in there but like I will harp on and and just I will harp on any mistake longer than I have any right to and Really lash myself over it for a really long time and the feeling When you're happy is that you don't deserve it. Yeah immediately because I don't I don't have that But and I'm trying to understand that as you're saying it. I have When I'm when I'm happy that I can't hold on to it see and that makes me sad Yes, and so there are often many times where I'm quite happy where I have to fight this this creeping emotion of like Oh, this is gonna tomorrow's not gonna be like this you have to wake up tomorrow and do things you don't want to do Yes, you're gonna be sad again next week like there's this there's this voice when I'm happy that's like You can't hold on to this isn't that sad you may as well ruin this as well Yes, and I just push I fight that and go no, you're not real your fake the fuck out of here. Yes And I'm not deserving in this so interesting. Well, I think so much of my like I have tied a lot of my This is like career weird career stuff too, but I have tied a lot of my Happiness to what I consider to be success and so I'm like which is very toxic and I'm trying I'm unlearning that I'm talking about a lot in therapy these days. Yeah, but like like big opportunities things that I've really wanted I Go yeah, it's a flu like you do not deserve that like like truly We'll talk myself out of being excited about it at every stage of the process and then as it's happening and as I'm Meeting the moment and doing what I came there to do and and and doing a good job I'm like there you go, but that's seven minutes long. It's it is it is very That the place and this is lame But I the place that I experienced the most true and lasting joys in my relationship and and He he is the least neurotic person alive and gives me a real sense of like you deserve to be okay. Yeah, but outside of that honey, I Yeah, that's we don't want it tied to the man. That's really good for you. You could have a heart attack. You know what I mean? He could he could but you have it now And that's really nice. It is. Thank God for that. Hey, Saints breeze. We get through so many snacks Have you gone to think to help me save? 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I feel very lucky for it But I don't I don't think because dessert to me in my own estimation Deserving a very good life would imply that people deserve bad lives. Yes. Wow. Yes. The opposite has to be true Yeah, I don't think that people deserve bad lives very good plant. I think some people I would like to see some people that have done bad things get some Unfortunately, there's a part of me that wants to see them punish which is not good. If ptex I've got hit by a train today I'd be like okay. I look I would say what are we having for lunch? You know what I mean? Like I would move on pretty quickly from that news But I think yeah, I think just not think trying not to think of it as deserving and also like I think I think about a lot that brings me great Peace that you still bring me a lot of not peace is no nobody After enough time nobody is going to remember what any of us did isn't that fabulous not about liberating the most famous person on earth right now And the least famous person on earth right now And and all the other descriptors most rich least rate like everything you can think of about us with enough passage of time this Solar system is going to crash into another solar system and create an amount of energy that will destroy every living thing and And and none of the only thing that will have mattered is that whether or not we had a nice time and were nice to each other and even kind of frankly not that But I hold on to that one for fun. You know what I mean I'm hanging on my threads I'm the episode being I tell my mentally ill friend that nothing matters Reaction I don't know do you find it comforting or is that sad? No, I love that. I love that I mean no that really does bring me comfort and the idea. I mean Okay, make your mark. It's huge. We're having a ton of fun I do I am able in the in the very moment to totally believe and understand that yes I just I know that brings me a ton of comfort. I just have to I have to quiet my own mind and it in it I suffer a lot from like racing thoughts I suffer a lot from from whatever this like shame built in thing is but you're right. You're so right Like it won't young people don't know who William Shatner is. You know what I mean Yeah, he's the most famous person you ever live. Yes, I thought you'd better say he's president of you He's president. I said no, but you know what I do think of it brings me peace sometimes too in career to think of like Okay, so we're in a culture. We're in a subculture of comics and famous people and actors and whatever we're a part of that scene. Yeah and sometimes when I think about like The kings of little fiefdoms near where I grew up like the the guy who's like He's like chair of the school board and every restaurant he walks into big dicks swing it everywhere and I laugh because I'm like This doesn't matter and every person buying into this is so fucking silly And then I look at myself and go same to you my friends You are not better than that you're walking into the apple bees with your hog out You are acting you are acting like the school board president in Lynn County, Missouri And anyone who's allowing you to act like that is just as foolish. It's not different. It's so true We get the fajita platter and everybody knows It's like the like status and the like pursue and I try so hard not to be in pursuit of influencer status But like I think a good thing to think about is like if you can look at another group of people who are so tied up in their own little power structure And then look at whatever yours is whether it's your office job or your group of friends or your theater group or whatever And just go I'm as silly as them knock it off 100% I'm as much a goose as any part one of my friends said to me one time my friend Katie was like There is nothing More dangerous than like perceived power in like a small environment You know like it really will drive you absolutely bonkers And I think about the different stages of my life and who I ascribed that to like you're saying the school board great It's like who I who I gave that status to all of them hilarious All absolutely all of them hilarious The dude that I wanted to like me the the people at my school that I thought were more important or more popular like every step of your life You have someone who is remarkably dumb and silly they're like that's it and you look back and go Why did I give them in power at all? Yeah, I participated in their legitimacy. Why I I sucked him off. Yeah, I sucked that guy off I sucked off William Shatner and how the kids don't know who he is That's title which which member of of the the Hollywood elite There you go. There's the episode title and we'll include this the emmering You have to I lost it. I lost the thread which which here's a title um it which um I when you Um and I sucked him off dude the number of times on podcasts that I my my brain goes you've got something and then I open my mouth to say it And I just end up going oh Another thing You don't have an ending You have an ending to what you're saying wrap it up Getting light. I'm doing it. I'm guiding myself Wrap it up. He thought he ate. Yeah, I thought I was about to eat for dinner I thought I was about to eat for dinner. He's supposed to serve me dinner I'm hungry. I'm about to eat for dinner Dude and and oh and I and and one more thing. Yeah Oh Dude I have to tell you something horrible what happened. I'm in trying to eat better breakfast. Oh what's going on with your breakfast I'm a breakfast gal. I either skip it or I eat something horrendous right I either skip it or I'm like I'm like well you've got the whole day to like for your body to work through this you know what I mean So I'll eat like just something crazy like something So I'll have like a donut and like snack and bacon from Duncan. Oh that sounds really good It's really good because they like sprinkle sugar and crack cocaine on it. Yeah, 100% you wake up ready to go Who needs a cup of coffee and the other day? I tried this protein cereal I was like okay, so what you're going after is like you'd like to be filled up full You like your macros. Yeah, you want to whatever that means. I don't know either You want to be full and so why don't you eat this protein cereal and I got the it looked like it was a cute branding And it was like oh there's like you know however many grams 40 grams of protein in a cup or something crazy like that And I was like oh my gosh awesome and it says oh it's cinnamon toast crunch flavor now. It's like I'm so in toast crunch I want to say They made it out of Rap poison in dog shit It tasted so bad And I can tell you it was filling I took I took a yeah, I'm full of dog shit. It was so hard to chew That was like this there it's it's a battle of attrition. I'm just tired. They're wearing me down. Yeah I don't need anything for months. I'm exhausted. I've had enough of this cereal and of being a lot I've just had enough 40 grams of kill yours Really I was like this is so bad. That's a horrific. I know and I really when I bought it was one of those moments when I bought it That I was like you son of a bitch you cracked the cook look at you look at you cinnamon toast crunch protein flavored cereal What was on that box? Can I ask what it looks like because I get fooled by that shit a lot It was like it was the cereal, but they made the cereal look so appetizing and good and It was yeah, it was really cute and it was like a matte box like with a nice finish. Oh, they're doing such beautiful thing It was expanding of course. I thought yeah, 12 dollar boxes cereal. It wouldn't be expensive if it wasn't good. That's right You know I would and I'm just so it's so funny that still at this point in my life I can be in situations and think this time you figured it out You nailed it you you found the thing that's gonna fix everything. I was putting so much on this cereal I was like my days are about to like be I'm going to I'm gonna write three hours a day every day because of the cereal Well, it's it's important to be excited as we've discussed. Yeah Delusional delusional delusional thinking breakfast is hard though. Yeah, this is always hard. I hate it I went out yesterday. I'm staying in a friends place in Prospect Park And I was like I'm about to have me in New York City day And I was like I'm gonna go I'm gonna get up. I'm gonna go for a walk I'm gonna sit in the park and write I brought all my little things my backpack weighed a thousand pounds I was really moving and grooving here right outside. It's such a lie that I don't myself hilarious. I didn't write a word. I haven't written in five years But I get up and I'm like I'm gonna hit this little breakfast spot and I see it's very cute It was very reviews were so adorable It's like a soul food cafe. I was like amazing. They have so many great things on the menu Like really healthy ways to start your day. Soul food cafe by Prospect Park Glorious was it glorious or Glorious, okay, that's not what I think of there's just hope we'd restaurant over there that I love that I will not say the name of on here Okay, okay, because it's doing quite well and I'd like to get you bit got it Got it. I want to know maybe I got the name wrong it might be the same one. Yeah But I sit down and I'm like look at all this I'm like Oh my god that place is amazing make sure you can't hear that in the recording Glorious yeah, yeah He's like was it Timmy's tootentown? I'm like that was it That's my favorite soul food restaurant. It was so delicious. Yes, and they're so lovely in there. They're so nice Well, I was sitting I was really moved I was sitting across from a woman who's maybe in her early 60s And she's she had one of those things she didn't have reading glasses, but she had one of those little Uh magnifying glasses. Yeah, you put over a thing to read it and I just saw and she is just Beaming just ear to ear Looking around smiling the the waiter comes up to her kind of could have could have taken her reliever like you know Not particularly interested about this woman has going on and she goes all of my friends have been telling me to come here And I'm just so excited and I like I was Fogged up over that I was fucked up and she kept making eye contact with me and I would just go I love her She was a doll she was precious and then she got her food and she's just Dude it makes you feel bad, right? I felt like an asshole. I mean she feel bad. There's there's like a viral There's like a viral video that I think I saw like Instagram or something this like this this what this this girl is like recording I think her her mom or aunt and they're like a hotel room in Cleveland And she's like on the phone with her the mom or Anna maybe grandma this older woman is on the phone with her friend And she's like she's doing that the winter. She's like girl. We're in downtown And they got restaurants down here and it's so beautiful. I love it here. I bet she wished she'd come now Like she's so excited to be in Cleveland and I'm like dt Cleveland I deserve nothing nothing. I'm a fool. I deserve nothing if I can't be like that. I'm a bitch of a woman I can't make myself happy doing objectively some of the coolest things on earth. Thank you. It's crazy to the whole It's real crazy, but she was just so so happy and I kept looking at her and I was looking at all these things on the menu And I was like I'm going whole hog big There was a lovely looking salad. There were plenty of lovely options And I ate like four massive sausages. Oh my god And then I went home and I went to sleep. You know what? I'm gonna tell I'm gonna tell you a story about this place Okay, and I'm gonna say the name of the place. It's Cheryl's global soul. Don't cut it I'm not getting too big. Oh look at you who knows maybe I need the business I don't I think they're doing quite well, but I love that place so much. I had one of the most magical nights here. This was in Maybe December or it was winter in New York last year and I had gone I had gone with some people I gone with a guy. I was dating at the time and his sister um, and we had we had we met up with his sister at first Fridays at the Brooklyn Museum The Brooklyn Museum loves talk about first Fridays. Oh love that I talked about the Brooklyn Museum on here. They clipped the the the moment from the podcast themselves and put it on the Instagram Really fucking you shout out to the Brooklyn Museum. I love them. I was I was next to it yesterday I almost went in but I went to the botanical garden instead. I need to hit the on a on a New month's day. I need to go there. I must go. Yeah, I love the Brooklyn Museum. It's so fabulous um, but first Fridays there are first Saturdays. It's not first Fridays. I always mix this up Chance tell me because I want to get it right. I don't care. Whatever. It's yeah, I think it's first Saturday. It's better fanatically first Fridays. Yes, they don't I think it's first Saturdays at the Brooklyn Museum I go whenever it's on and they uh they're off season anyway. They're not doing it until next year. I think I'm American But I went it's so many hot cool people and they've got the some of the exhibits open and DJs and like live music and food vendors and it's so fun And then we walked to Cheryl's global soul We sat down we started ordering food. It's like really cold out and it's like they've got heaters on in there It's so warm and cozy and cute and it's like full. It's full and it's everyone in there is having a good time And they're playing like you know great music and then the playlist was crazy the playlist is crazy It's so good and the food is coming and it's amazing and we're having so much fun. We keep ordering stuff drinks and stuff And then What I believe is the owner I haven't gotten to have a long conversation with her yet. We've like exchanged a couple. Hey, hello. How are you? and She she stands up. She's she's there at the restaurant She stands up and the staff starts bringing shots around to everyone in the restaurant And she holds up a shot class and she goes Everybody can I get your attention please? These shots are on me tonight for no other reason than we're celebrating friendship And being alive what a gift it is to be on this earth at the same time raise your glasses And then every the whole restaurant does a shot. I'm gonna cry the whole restaurant does a shot together And then they just turn the music back up and everyone keeps eating In the live is actually really special As it turns out Be alive is one of the coolest things that ever happened to me. It's a yeah Yeah, and I won't be taking it for granted ever and I'm gonna be present in the present until later today When somebody might early and give me answers me Guy bumps into me on the tree. Yeah, until then it's a joy to be Godlife is beautiful. Oh, oh my god. What a fucking darling woman. Oh The playlist was going crazy. I walk in like a like a Fool like a person who's just inside my own head with my headphones and then I and then I'm like No, I want it. I would experience this. The food was so I know I'll get into this. Yeah, take a shot with the staff. Oh my god I had this beautiful waiter I've ever seen and we made a lot of eye contact to the work He would like set things down and be like Scorches. Oh my god. I know. I don't know what's going on. I need that to happen to be soon Indeed presents. I as you can't afford to get wrong like warehouse operations manager Where are the fort liffs? I sold them. They were too expensive. I got a great deal on these scooters though You expect us to move a two-term pallet on a scooter. It'll be fun. 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Okay, um, but I went and um I really hot guy came up to introduce himself as a fan clearly straight and I was so he was like looking at me in a way You know sometimes when someone's a fan of you they look at you in a way that's like You're looking at me in a way that's like I want I just so you know I want to fuck you You're looking at me like you listen to things I've said you want to eat my heart like this just like sweet earnest straight guy looking in my eyes being like Brother you're so funny. Hey bro. I'm like, you know, I'm like, do you should we kiss? Let's kiss please And I am I was like god. I have I need to be looked at like that a lot. It is it's it that's romantic love That's romantic love. I mean, I'm like I've heard your thoughts. Yeah, and I've seen you That's what it is really respect to you. That's romantic love and it's a different sometimes sometimes those interactions are not like that at all They're like you're the famous guy from the internet very very very gross. Yeah fuck off But being like being but you can tell it's in the eyes He was like he was like I love your stuff. You're so funny. I get your special was incredible Thank you for putting it out and like the stuff about your dad and I was like I'm horny I'm horny Straight up I have a semi I'm bricked. I am semi bricked into a believe in these old Navy jeans I'm breaking my whole Navy jeans. Thank you for seeing me. I have a semi in my O and J's And we need to do something Yeah, I don't even like this band A guy messaged me on Grindr last night Cute guy and he was like he was like what's up? And I was like I just got home from the concert And I was like watching Gilmore girls Laura and Roy are in another fucking situation as always What's up with you? You didn't respond I'm like you know what do you know kind of the funniest thing anyone's ever said and you're not giving me He hasn't seen the show Roy and Laura are always in a situation. They're at each other's well They're either at each other's threats are mom's acting on well and sometimes you can't even tell who the damn parent is and who's the kid? Uh-oh, she I was watching him with Carson recently. He was like I fucking hate Laura. What? He was like he was like she is so irresponsible He's an interesting boy Okay, not making you hate him now. No, he was like no, he was like he was just I can't remember what the scenario was Yeah, it reminds me so much of I'm my favorite thing. He's ever said in my life was we were watching um, you know, million three watch of Sex in the City And I left to go to the bathroom and I was like keep it going you're enjoying this episode I know it very well. Yeah, and I heard him from the other room go Oh And I was like what happened and he goes carry's making it all about her again hahaha Really part for the chorus. I mean Does he She makes it all about her and she does she can't hard she can hardly help herself. I mean, well, I just I read watch the episode recently where she um Uh, we was did Charlotte get pregnant or something massive happened to Charlotte. No, she got a gate. She got a gauge to Harry Yeah, and she had just gotten broken up with my burger on a post it Yeah, and they're at brunch and she gives her two seconds of air time before she goes post that I mean she doesn't let her have Yeah, her own engagement at all. I'm like this picture to be out of my life in two seconds. Yeah, she's crazy All right, what is so true to you? Okay, this is a big one for me. I was thinking about it in the car I was 15 minutes late to the record. I was 12 minutes late I'm working killer goes well Well, and he goes I just got here two minutes ago. Yeah, I do fully just walked in Okay, so true to me right now is that if they are coming if if if our government is coming for free speech yes And it seems they are and it seems that they are Just totally hypothetical America as a country does not make any fucking sense without free speech Yeah, like it's too weird a place. Yeah to not be able it's like if a If you had a friend and they're like hey, I'm gonna take you to the circus And we're gonna go to the freak show. Yeah, and you're gonna see the guy that swallows fire and knives and you're gonna see a lady with Seven tits and you're gonna see and you have to watch that and you can't go whoa. I can't say anything about it Exactly You're like signal for sure. He's like just one thing you can't like comment on don't react Or you'll go to jail You just can't say shit about it But that's the point of freeze. I have to talk about the freeze. No, that's what you think I'm sorry I'm sorry. I'm gonna die with mounds of medical debt and I can't say a peep fuck you're really right about this You're really really right about this. Thank you. It doesn't make any at least in North Korea people are behaving Yeah, I mean yeah, we're too weird How are you supposed to square like rural Louisiana with Chicago and no one's allowed to talk about What's going on? Those two places existing in space and time and I have to shut my little gawd about it People are also not people are not reacting big enough to me to like we're taking so much we're granted right now in terms of like Caroline levitt that dumb bitch show is such a loser is going on the news and she literally on the was on the news like last Center this morning being like the Democrats main constituents are Hamas terrorists and it's like What is a fucking crazy thing to say about most of the country? Oh my god Cuz they act like they're most of the country They're not they're not they're not the majority the mega is not most of the country people who don't agree with them are most of the people in the country And the election is not the election is not indicative of that most of the country doesn't vote Most of the country is not like you and to say most of the country is Hamas terrorists Is fucking bananas batshit insane and we're just going oh well that's politics. She said another crazy fucking thing That's not politics. Well, and at this moment it's so it at this exact time It's so hard to grab hold of the latest like fucking insane thing that someone said yeah, it's like we should be talking about that to the end of the earth We should be commenting on that for this like you're so fucking wrong. Yeah A lot of people The vast majority of people do not agree with you and is like remarkably not true And we just let it go it just becomes the next thing that they've said I will be worried about something tomorrow It really is driving me insane. I feel crazy I feel really insane. I feel crazy every day and the thing is most of us do I know but what can we do Because we have this stupid and they're they're fucking redistricting everything. They're about to get the voting rights act He's god forbid fucking People who aren't white Oh, thanks. Any kind of say in the government They are gutting the voting rights act and they are going to have like mega control forever. They think I'm really hopeful What would be awesome about the what would be awesome is if they didn't got the voting rights act You know what we say? Left that But it would be really awesome as if they did and then a bunch of fucking people voted against them. Yep. Yep Do I know that do I think that'll happen? I don't know But I know that the way they're trying to run this government is not going to work for working people exactly because Trump is doing fucking crypto schemes He's manipulating the economy To drive up crypto prices and when it doesn't work for working people no matter what their majority is They're going to either have to do legitimate insurrection act martial law and overthrow all of the people Yeah, or they're going to lose crazy style. Yeah, they are going to lose crazy style I have I have a little bit of hope in the latter. I really I really have a lot of fear in the former I have a lot of fear that if it starts to seem like Fucking Joe Plummer in They're like oh then fuck elections. I'll shoot him in the head Yeah Joe Smith is a homostayer And so is his wife. Yeah, you're right wing uncle who's an electrician in Texas Really bad news guys. He's al Qaeda. He's a We just found out Caroline Levit just found out he's al Qaeda. Oh my god and Cheryl's ice is so shit So we're sending a horse ending some shlubby 32 year old dimwits Who couldn't find a fucking respectable job in ice uniforms to disappear him? They are cracking me up And I know they are so inept and it is it is scary in every way But you throw a little biny hill soundtrack onto these fuckers trying to chase one guy on a bike Laughter there's so fucking ugly. It's awesome B Jah You almost have to be jealous of these ice agents because something really cool happened for them here Are Ununployable unintelligent Ugly ass losers right and now they get a job that pays them well for nothing They get to be assholes to people that are cooler than them and they get to wear a mask and they get a mask Oh my god they get to cover their Ugly face to go viral in a mask crazy Crazy work they like they literally found a dream scenario. It's true It's the life. I mean, it did with fucking useless pieces of shit. If I was 75% less smart, you know? What happened? Oh my God. Yeah, if I swear to God, if you put half these ice agents in front of the children's game where you try to put the square in the square hole, they'd be fucking ramin' it at the triangle. These guys. He pissed his pants. You all can see of their faces, their eyes, and it's just giving Lenny. He just see. He's just see a couple of Lenny peepers staring back at you vacantly. It's crazy. There's nothing in there. There's nothing in there. We're gonna get that plotter land, brother. It's crazy. There's just not a light in the house on with these fucking guys. Oh my God. And they're showing up in unmarked fucking Toyota Sienna's. Oh yeah. Stepping off a dirt bike. I'm coming into your room. And we're saying it's supposed to be like respect, garlaw, enforcement. That's a guy. Hey, that's some dude. That's just some guy. That's some dude he got $70,000 to put that mask on. He's some fucking guy. You actually have to let him kidnap the Guatemalan line cook who lives next door and bothers nobody. And it is the nicest man you've ever met. There was, oh my God, I saw a video yesterday of this woman going the fuck off. It was in New York on this man. And you're like, there's a million things you can say to this people. They deserve every type of lashing out you could possibly imagine. She goes, your fucking wife is stepping out on you. You little fucking bitch. It was the fact that it wasn't like Europe, you know, you're abusing my right. It's you're not respecting the Constitution. It was like your wife's cheating on you and you're gonna take a small, you fuck. It was so sad as fucking. I live. I absolutely, there's been videos of protesters clowning the, the, like outfits of the ice agents. And you can just see that it's really getting to these guys. Oh, they're, they're, they're, they really are starting to feel it. I love it. They're starting to see themselves reflected in these people a little bit. I mean, they have to. I really obviously don't want them to come to New York in the way they're talking about doing next year. Of course. I've just been thinking so much about the number of problems we have in this country that are so legitimate and need actual answers and solutions. And then all, of course, being upset about undocumented immigrants right now is like, if you were sitting on the street and a man pulled up in like a gold Rolls Royce and got out in like a $2 million suit and came over and said, open up, I'm gonna take a shit in your mouth. And then while he was shitting in your mouth, there was a guy playing harmonica a little loudly, like 10 feet over and you were like, we gotta kill the harmonica guy. The harmonica guy is driving me fucking insane. You're, they're shit in your mouth. The harmonica guy is the reason that I taste so much shit. Yeah. Meanwhile, everyone's loving the harmonica. Yeah, everyone's having a good time. Getting around, enjoying it. They asked him to play it. Yeah. He's a great community member. We're having a fun way. He's like a beloved member of the community. Good dad. He plays harmonica all the birthday parties. Yes. He's a, he doesn't ask for anything in return. Yeah. But there's poop in my mouth. But there's poop in my mouth. And I wanna kill that harmonica guy. We're, I have a segment for you. You know what's about to happen. What? Oh, yeah. Oh, god, I forgot. I've historically performed well on these and I'm nervous now that I'm gonna. I'm gonna read you 15 statements. You're gonna tell me this quickly as you can if what I just said was true or false. You get 10 or more correct. We're gonna give you $50 US. You ready? Yes. A sneeze can travel up to speeds of 100 miles per hour. Sure. Yes. No. No. Yes. Yeah. Person I do a guy, a person with a guy who's deciding that the answer is yes, while he's saying it, he goes, yeah, yeah, yeah. Yes, yeah, yes. What did you think true or false? True. Dracon Josh had more episodes than Kenan and Kell. True. False. Fuck. Yawning is contagious. True. True. What could debut on Broadway in 2003? On 2003. That's how it's written. Okay. True. True. The Tennessee volunteers football team played their first season in 1910. True. False. True. It is true. Drake and Josh had more episodes than Kenan and Kel. True. False. Yawning is contagious. True. True. Wicked debuted on Broadway on 2003. On 2003. That's how it's written. Okay. True. True. The Tennessee Volunteers football team played their first season in 1910. True. False. 1891. The smallest bone in the human body is in the nose. False. It's the ear. Johnny Appleseed is a fictional character. False. False. He was a real man. Dollywood's official slogan is love every moment. True. True. Welcome to the jungle was written by Motley Crew. True. False guns and roses. Shit. That's aren't actually blind. False. True. Shit. 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We did grand larceny on accident for legal reasons, kidding. That's really fabulous. Yeah. Like if you did not make any changes in the whole week. Like if you did not make any changes in the whole week. Like if you did not make any changes in the whole week. Like if you did not make any changes in the whole week. Like if you did not make any changes in the whole week. Like if you did not make any changes in the whole week. Like if you did not make any changes in the whole week. Like if you did not make any changes in the whole week. Like if you did not make any changes in the whole week. Like if you did not make any changes in the whole week. Like if you did not make any changes in the whole week. Like if you did not make any changes in the whole week. I need to be doing better worried about you Oh Big Whoa Now we love you so much. Oh, thank you so much for doing this. 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