Daring Creativity

"Imposter syndrome robs you of being in the now" (Murugiah bonus episode)

10 min
May 14, 202617 days ago
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Summary

This bonus episode unpacks key moments from a conversation with Murugiah, a London-based multi-disciplinary artist, exploring how contentment and presence—rather than desperation—fuel creative breakthroughs. The host examines how imposter syndrome robs artists of the present moment, how talent is built through years of deliberate work, and how following joy rather than outcomes leads to meaningful creative exploration.

Insights
  • Contentment and lack of desperation paradoxically create opportunity—Murugiah's unsolicited email to Quentin Blake Centre succeeded because he wasn't attached to the outcome
  • Talent is reframed as the visible result of invisible, deliberate effort over years, not an innate gift—making creative excellence accessible through commitment rather than luck
  • Imposter syndrome is a future-facing anxiety that disconnects creators from the present moment; joy and curiosity are the practical antidotes that keep you grounded in current work
  • Financial instability and creative fulfillment are not mutually exclusive—artists can experience income drops while simultaneously raising happiness through meaningful exploration
  • Following fun and play as a creative compass (e.g., exploring sculpture alongside painting) keeps work fresh and prevents ego-driven growth from becoming the primary motivation
Trends
Shift from outcome-attachment to process-joy as a competitive advantage in creative industriesReframing financial sacrifice in creative work as honest struggle rather than romantic narrativeMulti-disciplinary practice (architecture, illustration, fine art, design, sculpture) becoming standard for contemporary artists seeking depthEmphasis on emotional authenticity and personal connection in visual art over purely aesthetic innovationLong-term deliberate practice (20+ years) being normalized as the foundation of 'overnight success' narrativesMental health awareness (imposter syndrome, anxiety) becoming explicit discussion points in creative professional discoursePrivilege acknowledgment in creative careers—honest discussion of financial precarity alongside creative freedom
Topics
Imposter Syndrome and Creative ConfidenceDeliberate Practice and Talent DevelopmentCreative Contentment vs. AmbitionMulti-disciplinary Artistic PracticeEmotional Authenticity in Visual ArtFinancial Precarity in Creative CareersProcess-Driven vs. Outcome-Driven Creative WorkFollowing Joy as Creative DirectionArchitecture to Fine Art Career TransitionSouth Asian Cultural Influence in Western ArtExhibition Development and CurationPresence and Mindfulness in Creative PracticeBuilding Visual Aesthetic Over TimeSculpture and Three-Dimensional ExplorationCreative Courage and Fear Management
Companies
Quentin Blake Centre for Illustration
Hosting Murugiah's debut exhibition; received his unsolicited email that led to the opportunity
People
Murugiah
London-based artist trained in architecture, working across illustration, fine art, design, and sculpture
P.J. Richardson
Previously recorded at the host's festival; discussed element of joy in creative work
Ed Sheeran
Referenced in interview discussing how talent requires 8-9 years of deliberate work, not innate gift
Quotes
"I had no real expectations. I was just very happy and content with these pieces I was making. They felt truly personal to me."
Murugiah
"When you're not attached to the outcome, you move freely. You send the email and you don't wait to feel ready."
Host
"Imposter syndrome robs you of being in the present. It robs you of being in the now."
Murugiah
"I made half as much money as I did the previous two years this year. That is scary stuff. But it did not stop me from wanting to explore."
Murugiah
"Talent is hard work. It's taken me about eight to nine years to get to this point where I can do something like this."
Murugiah (referencing Ed Sheeran)
Full Transcript
Hey, welcome to another bonus episode of the Daring Creativity Podcast. I'm back to unpack some of the gems from this week's conversation, pulling out those moments that deserve a second look and dig deeper in what makes them special. This week I spoke to Murogaia, who is a London-based, multi-disciplinary artist, trained in architecture, working across illustration, fine art and design. In our conversation we talked about following the fun, the danger of chase and reward and why the most personal thing you can make is always the most powerful. The episode, published a few days ago, was titled, Debt-to-Find Radical Empathy for People Around You. And even though we mostly tried to put focus on Murogaia's upcoming exhibition project, we've uncovered many sites of his artistry and humility. If you haven't checked out a full episode, let me share with you these four standout moments. I had no real expectations. I was just very happy and content with these pieces I was making. They felt truly personal to me. The work I was making from 2019 up to 2023 was about developing a visual aesthetic, but it didn't really have this very core emotional thing that I'm obsessed with, this connecting with your feelings, this sensitivity. I wasn't ready to put it in the work at that point. It was very much about describe or present a visual aesthetic of bright colours, busy compositions influenced by South Asian culture and Western upbringing. But now it's time to just turn the dial up a little bit more and add this emotional heft to each piece. So, personally, I just felt very confident in presenting those ideas. So, I thought it was the right time to speak to someone about it and see if I could share them with somebody. And luckily, very luckily, they responded in a big way. I've decided to pick that this moment because it's kind of so easy to miss in a conversation, but it's so important to the whole narrative. Because when you think about it, the element of joy, and it kind of takes me back to my conversation with P.J. Richardson, when they recorded at our festival, is the element of joy and the contentment with what you make in that actually creating something which is personal feels really good. Because we've been conditioned to believe that ambitions requires hunger and then the big results often would demand big expectations. But Murugaya kind of blowed out a part because when he sent his email to Quentin Blake Centre, it was in a calculated career move. It just came from a place of genuine contentment. He was making the work and was already in motion, already doing the work, already satisfied with what he was making. And this makes him sound grounded, exactly in the way that made this opportunity possible. Because he wasn't desperate, let's be honest. Like he was just curious of where he might go. So, makes you think that when you're not attached to the outcome, you move freely. You send the email and you don't wait to feel ready. And sometimes the world responds in ways you have never dared to plan for. I've said it just now. I transitioned from architecture to illustration and art in 2012. But my true love was art and movies when I was 18. So, it was 20 years since I went to architecture school. It's been a long time, let's say. So, finally, living in the moment, living in the present, just exploring what you want to explore next. But that comes with a lot of privilege, right? I have enough clients and work. Don't get me wrong, I still struggle every month, every year. Brutal honesty, I made half as much money as I did the previous two years this year. I made half as much money. My income dropped from whatever to half of that. And that is scary stuff. That is a result of surrounding factors in the world, as a result of politics, of wars and all sorts. It did not stop me from wanting to explore painting, sculpture, personality, humanity, because those are the core theme of who I am underneath. So, I will always find a way of presenting this work in whatever way I can. I think there is a really important part in our industry, to be honest about the fact that your income can dip, but often your happiness can actually raise. And I've got a first-hand story about something similar, where you choke the income in favour of having space to grow and explore and move forward. And in Murugaya's story, he didn't dress it up. He didn't really frame that financial difficulty as a romantic sacrifice or a badge of creative honour. He calls it what it is. It is scary, and then he keeps going anyway, because the narrative we tell ourselves about the creative courage often leaves out a very human weight of uncertainty. Builds do exist, anxiety exists, I call it a monthly cycle, you know, like every month you need to have enough to pay everything and everyone. And that can be very counterproductive to creative work. Because in this instance, the gap between what he earned last year and what he's earning this year, it can be a genuinely difficult thing to sit with. But Murugaya holds all of that and still chooses to paint, to sculpt, to explore, not because he's immune to fear, because abandoning the core of what he is would cost him far more. And this is what a real commitment really looks like, not fearlessness, but choosing the work anyway. Thank you, Radha. A debut show at the ripe old age of 38 years old, having not decided to put on any exhibitions in white box galleries in West London or East London or wherever. But it wasn't something I was looking for, it just happened this way. I mentioned talented earlier, it's a result of a lot of hard work. It's not born from nothing. It comes from working extremely hard and presenting the work after many years of developing it. That's what I call talent, it's hard work. I think it was an interview with Ed Sheeran, who said that lots of people tell him like, oh my gosh, you're very talented. And he says, no, no, no, it's taken me about eight to nine years to get to this point where I can do something like this. We often love to believe that the idea of talent is very romantic. It suggests that some people are simply built differently, that greatness arrives fully formed like a gift. Murugaya here isn't having any of it though, is he? He's speaking from experience, not theory. The work he's showing at the Quentin Blake Center represents years of deliberate, unglamorous development, transitioning from architecture to illustration, building a visual aesthetic through pandemic, then pushing further into emotional depth, then further again into acrylic painting. None of this was accidental. It was chosen repeatedly over a long time. And when we reframe talent as the visible result of invisible effort, it stops being something you either have or you don't. It starts being something you build and that's far more useful and that's far more honest story to tell. The pursuit of the next, yeah. I would like to talk about real quick, you mentioned about questioning oneself and imposter syndrome, right? It robs you of being in the present. It robs you of being in the now, asking, am I doing the right thing? Just be. Another thing I've been doing is following the fun, which is it, which helps you be in the present, right? I've done these paintings now for quite a while. I've had this opportunity in the new exhibition to explore some sculptural works. Now I'm thinking, right, follow the fun. I had a lot of fun on these sculptural works. Paintings are a joy to make. They just they've become part of what I do, so I can just keep doing them now. What can I add on top? And it's not about growing in that ego way. It's more fun to me to explore things three dimensionally next. You're turning these slowly in this instance, I would say Murugaya is really discussing imposter syndrome with a practical clarity. Let's be honest. Imposter syndrome lives in a gap between where you are and when you think you should be. It's a future facing anxiety dressed up as self awareness, but fun, curiosity, genuine play. Those are only available right now in this moment in this piece of work. When Murugaya moved into sculpture for the first time as part of this exhibition, he wasn't thinking about whether he deserved to be there. He was just enjoying the process and that joy, it turns out, is both the antidote and the answer. Thank you for joining me on this bonus episode. There's far more many moments like this in my conversation with Murugaya. I can only encourage you to go and check out the full episodes and hopefully go and check out his show at the Quentin Blake Centre for Illustration. Thank you for being here and I'll catch you next week on the next one. If you enjoyed this episode and would like more accessible resources to help you discover your daring creativity, you can pick up one of my books on themes of mindful creativity, creative business, branding and graphic design. Every physical book purchase comes with a free digital bundle, including an e-book and audiobook, to make the content accessible whatever you are and whatever you do. To get 10% of your order visit novemberuniverse.co.uk and use the code podcast. Have a look around and start living daringly.